Chapter 15: Tales of another Broken Home

Sara sat in the hospital bed after having gone and seen Greg's dead body.

She still couldn't believe he was gone. After everything they had done together and been through she didn't want to believe her best friend was gone.

Grissom had had to go into the crime lab and feel out some paper work for her and himself. She couldn't wait for him to get back because she wouldn't have to be alone with all the hunting images of what had happened to Greg.

They had found Michael and questioned him. Brass had caught him in a lie and been able to coax a confession out of him. Sara still couldn't believe that she'd fainted when she'd seen him.

"Sara."

She turned to see Gilbert Alexander Grissom standing in her doorway holding a McDonalds bag two sodas, and two McFlurries. She smiled and he came in closing the door behind him.

"The doctor will probably kill me for this but you can't live on hospital food, I know."

Sara smiled at him as he pulled out a salad and handed her a soda and McFlurrie.

"Thank you Grissom I don't know what I'd do without you."

Grissom smiled and bit into a McNugget.

"You are disgusting Griss." She said picking up her fork and dipping into her salad.

"No…I…just…don't…like…rabbit…food." Grissom said between popping McNuggets into his mouth.

"It's not rabbit food Grissom. Its plants just like you eat from time to time if you eat anything but meat."

Grissom laughed and chocked on a McNugget.

"See those things will kill you yet." Sara said patting his back.

"Have you talked to the doctor today?"

Sara sighed and looked down at her food.

"Yeah, he wants to start me on chemo and radiation next week but I can go home tomorrow." Sara put down her fork. "I can't go back to work till after the chemo and radiation is over."

Grissom swallowed and whipped his mouth.

"I see." His face was gloomy as hers.

He didn't want her to not be able to work. It was what she loved. It was what her life revolved around. She was all the time looking for ways to become a better forensic scientist.

"I'm so sorry Sara." He said reaching over and taking her head bring it to his lips and kissing it.

"It's not your fault Grissom. I should have kept my regular check ups with my doctor instead of pushing it off and saying I'd do it another day."

Grissom didn't realize that she hadn't been taking good care of herself. He didn't realize that this could have been prevented.

He let out a heavy breathe and kissed her hand again.

"Grissom, do you still love me?"

Grissom gapped at her, eyes wide and mouth open.

"Sara…of course I do. How could you think I don't?"

"Because of the leukemia."

Grissom shook his head.

"Sara…Let me tell you a little something about me. I might be good at looking over my feelings to keep myself safe from being hurt but when I love a woman I love her with all my heart." He paused then continued on with his explanation, not because she deserved it but because it would make him feel better to. "When I was five my father walked out on my mother because she had lost her hearing. I grew up in a silent house. My mother and I used our hands and I eventually forgot how to express myself in any other way. You have no idea what it's like to spend your whole life not going outside, burring yourself in books to learn more about the world you didn't know, afraid everyday that you'd do something wrong and the last person you had would walk away from you."

Sara was in tears as was Grissom.

"I spent my high school years, my college years, and all the years after that just studying people. Never communicating just watching them and studying their behavior and their emotions because I felt I didn't have feelings of my own."

Grissom sobbed even harder as he finished up.

"When I met you Sara you made me feel again and it scared me to death and I kept you closed off for all these years only to let you in even farther. I'm so sorry for all the pain I've caused you, honey…I didn't realize what I was doing."

Sara smiled slide her arms around Grissom hugging him close to her. She loved this man for all he was and she didn't care that he'd hurt her. She was his and he was hers the way it was meant to be.

"I love you, Sara. I really do baby." Grissom sobbed into her chest as she pulled him closer to her.

"Shh…Shh, don't cry. I just wanted to hear you say it." Sara smoothed rubbing her hand over his back and neck.

"I love you so much it hurts."

"I know the feeling. I really do." Sara said kissing his head and closing her eyes.

"You know we're not much different in a lot of ways. I buried myself in books to learn about the world I didn't get to know because of my parents. I hated them for what they were and I tried to hide them from sight when my friends would walk by the house. When I graduated pre-school I can remember my dad came in stoned out of his mind and my mom was as drunk as one could be. I was so mad when in the middle of the ceremony they got up and left. I went home and they were yelling at each other and dad was hitting my mom. I was so mad at them I started yelling and screaming and just blowing up. I used some words I probably shouldn't have had in my vocabulary at that time in my life. I didn't really date till I was in college then I got a hold of some bad eggs and just dropped it all together. Then I met you and just like you said you made me feel again to."

Sara finished her story and they just stared at each other. Neither spoke for a long time.

Sara smiled and bent forward kissing the tip of his nose and hugging him close to her again.

"I love you, Gilbert Alexander Grissom."

"How do you know my middle name?" Grissom asked surprised that she knew.

"Brass." She said smiling at him shyly.

"Oh, I love you to Sara Marie Sidle." Grissom said kissing her mouth and lying down beside her.

"Let's go to sleep, honey." Grissom said wrapping his arms around her and closing his eyes.

TBC……………

Chapter 16 soon to come.