Chapter 18: Pick-A-Boo Baby

"Sara…Sara, wake up it's time to take your medicine." Grissom said shaking Sara slowly awake.

"Um," Sara groaned and buried her head farther in the pillow.

"Come on Sara, please take these pills you'll not get better if you don't." Grissom pleaded laying his head on her shoulder and kissing it.

With another groan Sara rolled over and reached out her hand.

Grissom deposited the handful of pills into her open hand. She popped them in her mouth and took the water Grissom offered.

"I hate taking pills." Sara complained rolling over and covering her head with the blanket.

Grissom rubbed her back lying down behind her.

Sara hated that he babied her. She wasn't two years old. She'd been with him for going on five months, had been fighting the cancer for almost that long, then just the other day at the hospital she had had some news sprung on her that she just couldn't believe.

Suddenly she felt a wave of nausea and took off to the bathroom.

Grissom ran after her and found her on her knees in front of the toilet heaving into it.

"Sara…Sara, are you alright?" Grissom asked sitting down on the floor beside her.

"Yeah, I just feel a little sick." Sara said heaving into the toilet again.

"I think you need to go to the doctor."

"No, I'll be alright."

Sara pushed up from the floor and wobbled back to the bedroom. Laying down and rolling toward the opposite wall.

"Sara, what's going on with you? You've been a little distant these past few days."

Grissom lay down behind her and snuggled up close to her and buried his head in her neck, rubbing her back gently.

"Grissom, how would you feel about becoming a father?"

Grissom's hand stilled on her back, she heard the change in his breathing, and felt the change in his body pressed against hers.

He rolled her over to face him and looked down into her tear filled eyes.

"I can't have chemo and radiation anymore because I'm almost four months pregnant. I just found out last week and couldn't think of how to tell you." Sara explained looking down at his chest and never looking into his eyes.

Grissom lay there in silence. He couldn't believe this he was going to be a father. Sara was going to have his baby. Could his life have been any better? But the realization hit him if Sara didn't get the chemo and radiation the cancer would be literally impossible to slow down.

"But Sara if you don't…"

"I'm going to die having this baby Gil." Sara said looking up at him.

For the first time in a long time Grissom started to cry.

"No, you can't…you just can't die…We have to get married and live a happily ever after…please tell me this is some kind of joke." Grissom pleaded as Sara wrapped her arms around him.

"I wish I could Gil, but its not." She said stroking his hair as she rocked him slowly.

Sara didn't cry. She hadn't even cried when they asked for her choice. She had just calmly said she wanted to have the baby and that she didn't want anymore chemo or radiation that would hurt the baby.

"You have to go to work." She said looking at the clock and then at him.

"I'm going to call in sick." Grissom said pulling away and reaching for the phone.

Sara reached her hand over and stopped him.

"No, you need to go to work get away from your sickly girlfriend and solve some crime and help to keep Las Vegas safe for me and your future child." Sara said with a smile.

It sounded so good to say that she was going to have his child, even if she wouldn't be there to enjoy it.

"But…"

"No go to work." Sara demanded when he started to protest.

As Grissom drove toward the lab his thoughts where all the time on Sara and the future that she would be giving him in five months and how she wouldn't be there to enjoy it.

They'd need a bigger place, something with a yard and close to a park, so he could take the child for walks and teach him or her about nature.

Grissom pulled into the parking lot and just sat there for a few minutes just staring off into space thinking about how precious the next five months were going to be. Finally deciding he would have to find a way to deal with this later he got out of the Denali and walked toward the lab.

"Hey Grissom, what's with the long face?" Greg asked when he entered the room with the assignment slips and headed for the coffee pot.

"Nothing I'm just tired that's all." Grissom lied and Catherine crossed her arms.

"You are the most awful liar I've ever met." She said looking at him through trained investigator eyes.

"Spill it." Catherine demanded when he sat down.

"No, Catherine." Grissom said looking at the people sitting at the table around him. "If you want to know what's going on I'm inviting all of you over to the apartment for breakfast and Sara will have to tell you guys what's going on herself." Grissom supplied handing each person an assignment.

The gang got up and walked out of the break room and Grissom slowly made his way back to his office.

Once inside he closed and locked the door sitting down and turning on his computer.

He checked his e-mails and found one from a person he hadn't heard from in a long time.

"Kelly Smith." Grissom read the name and smiled.

Kelly had been Sara's best friend in college and someone who had helped Grissom see Sara for the wild thing she was. He quickly opened the e-mail.

It had a small message and a video attachment.

Dear Gilbert Grissom & Sara Sidle,

I hope you two are doing well. I'm fine just graduated from the academy with my degree in that forensic bug thing I have my doctrine. I just thought you two might like to see this I was cleaning out some boxes in the attic and found it. I just had to send it to you.

Love you guys,

Kelly Smith

P.S.

If you two aren't married or dating I'm going to be very disappointed.

Grissom couldn't help but laugh and then with a heavy heart clicked the video. Grissom immediately regretted it.

It was the video of him, Sara, and Kelly at the beach in Florida during spring break the year that he had met Sara.

Sara hadn't been too happy about him going but had warmed up to the idea. She hadn't been able to keep her hands off of him. He had made the worst mistake by walking away from her after that summer.

He watched as Kelly and Sara laid on their stomach watching as he played volleyball with some of the other guys on the beach. He'd forgotten he'd looked that good without a shirt.

'Sara, come on you should tell him how you feel. You can so do it…You're the bravest girl I know.' Kelly said looking over at a very happy looking Sara Sidle.

Sara just smiled and shook her head.

'I can't it would just be too awkward.'

Kelly raised her eyebrow at him.

'What if he doesn't feel that way about me?' Sara asked looking over at Grissom as he spiked the ball across the net.

'Whatever, have you seen the way he looks at you...oh, come on Sara, grow up and be a woman ask him to dinner.' Kelly urged throwing a small amount of sand at Sara.

'Stop that, I might ask him some other time.' Sara smiled and sat up stretching like a cat.

'You are so in love with him you realize that right.' Kelly smiled when Sara snorted her response. 'Oh, don't even start I know that look. You had it with Michael and know you have it with Dr. Grissom don't even go there.'

Sara looked away at Grissom. She wasn't smiling this time she just looked at him.

'He is not Michael.' Kelly supplied helpfully and got up to join the volleyball game.

Sara was left looking on at them.

'My god I do love him.' Sara said looking at them and then smiling.

The video went black then came back on Kelly appeared smiling.

'Hey Gil, Hey Sara, I hope this reaches one of you I just thought you'd like a trip down memory lane for a while. I'll call you guys sometime I love ya'll.'

Kelly disappeared and the computer screen went black.

Tears feel down Grissom's cheeks as he restarted the video and watched it again. Grissom laughed and shook his head. The Sara Sidle on this tape wasn't going to live to see her child grow up. She wouldn't live to see him be the great father he planed to be. She wouldn't even live to see him grow old. He felt like his world was about to fall apart but in all reality as long as he had Sara his life was still in tact. For know.

TBC…………

I promise a happy ending remember that. The next four chapters will be the finally ones so enjoy while you can.-KC