Hi!
I'm back with a new chapter :-)
Tinz and Charisma4 – Thank you so much for the feedback!!!
Charisma wrote: "Now my only question is what your obsession with describing fly movement at the beginning of chapters?"
Lol! Well, I wouldn't call it an obsession with flies (maybe an obsession with animals…). I want to show what's happening from another person's perspective, and since other animals are too large to do that inconspicuously enough, insects is the best choice. But I'm open to suggestions *grins*
Let's move on to the new chapter…
Chapter 14
"Oh my
God! Did you feel that?"
She
smiled and nodded, watching with warmth as his eyes danced with joy. His hand
jerked and he laughed. "There. Did you feel that?"
"Yes,
Max," she laughed. "Believe me, I can feel that."
"That's
amazing," Max whispered, mostly to himself. His hand lightly traced around her
bellybutton, when her stomach once again moved under his fingers.
"He's
gonna be something, isn't he?" Max said.
She
raised an amused eyebrow. "He?"
He put
his ear on her stomach to listen and her smile widened.
"Why do
you think it's a boy?" she asked.
Max
raised his head slightly from her stomach and looked at her, a look of awe and
confusion on his face. "Huh?"
She
rolled her eyes at his complete inability to focus on anything else but the
child growing inside of her.
"You are
so cute, you know that?"
She
smiled warmly as his ears turned a slight hint of red, and reached out with her
hand to sift her hand through his dark hair.
"You are
going to be such a great dad."
"Uncle
Max! Uncle Max! Uncle Max! Uncle Maaaaax!"
Tess'
face dimmed in front of him, its form disintegrating into nothingness. He
looked down into the brown eyes of his niece, slowly trying to return to
reality.
"Was you
sleepin'?" Michelle asked, looking at him with the type of excited curiosity
only a child could muster.
"No,
Michelle," Max answered, taking a deep breath to clear his mind.
Michelle
pulled her lips together in a thoughtful expression and her forehead furrowed
as she squinted with her eyes. "But Uncle Max, can you sleep with your eyes
open?"
Max
looked at Michelle, feeling the void and coldness in his heart slowly warming
up. He reached out and picked her up, placing her in his lap.
"No, you
can't sleep with your eyes open, but sometimes you think so hard that it's
almost like you are asleep."
Michelle
looked at him seriously, biting her bottom lip. "I's don't understand."
"Okay,"
Max said, "Then let's do it like this. Think about your favorite thing."
"My
favowit fing?"
"Yep,"
Max smiled at her excited facial expression.
"'Kay,"
Michelle agreed and the small frown on her forehead reappeared. She started
chewing on her upper lip as she stared off into the distance.
"'Kay,"
she said then.
"What
are you thinking about?" Max asked.
"Lucy,"
Michelle answered with a big smile stretching from ear to ear. Lucy was
Michelle's beloved doll. It had been with her since she was one year old.
"Okay,
think really hard about Lucy now."
Michelle
giggled and nodded. Her face scrunched up into a thoughtful expression again.
Then a puzzled frown fell over her. "What is she doing?"
"Whatever
you want," Max said.
"'Kay,"
Michelle said and started to think again, now looking very determined. Max
waited a couple of minutes, giving Michelle's livid imagination a chance to
come to life.
"Michelle…"
he said gently.
After a
few seconds delay, she glanced up with him with a big smile on her face. "I's
was sleepin'! Wif my eyes cwosed."
Max
grinned. "You sure were."
"Uncle
Max…" Michelle looked up at him expectantly.
Max
absently pushed a few of Michelle's blonde hair behind her ear. "What is it,
honey?"
"Will
you tell me a stwory?"
"Sure,"
Max smiled. "What do you want to hear?"
Michelle
cuddled closer to him, her small fingers fingering on the buttons of his shirt.
"Cindella."
"Cinderella
it is."
The
thoughtful expression on Michelle's face returned and she bit her lip in deep
concentration. "Can I's change Cindella's name?"
Max
looked at her surprised. "You want to change Cinderella's name?"
Michelle
turned serious. "Can I's do that?"
Max
looked at her and felt himself melt. A slow smile started to form on his lips
and he leaned forward and placed a kiss on her forehead. "This is your story,
pumpkin. You can do whatever you want with it."
Michelle's
face lightened up like a child on Christmas morning. "I's can?!"
Max
nodded seriously. "Absolutely."
"Yay!!"
"What do
you want to call your Cinderella?" Max asked, wondering just what Michelle had
in mind for this story time.
"Liz."
Max hand
froze in the unconscious sifting through her hair and it took him a couple of
seconds before he recuperated. "Liz?"
"She was
dis bootiful lady saving me in the big shopping store," Michelle explained,
giving him a very explicit 'duh' look. "Don't you 'member?"
Max's
heart was beating faster and suddenly his mouth had gone dry. "The woman at the
mall…" His eyes involuntarily drifted to the small note on the kitchen table.
He had found it earlier in his pocket. Someone had slipped it to him, without
him noticing. His best guess was Maria.
"She
come to my house," Michelle continued to explain, "She knowed my name! She
liked Lucy!"
"I
remember," Max said quietly. "Why do you want your Cinderella to be called Liz
instead?"
"'Cause
all pwincesses is bootiful and Liz is bootiful…" Max's face took on a distant
expression as his thoughts turned to the one person he had tried so hard not to
think about. The dark-haired petite woman, who had captured him and held him
captive ever since he had first laid eyes on her. "And…and… Liz saved me and
dat's what pwincesses do."
Max did
his best to turn back his focus to his niece. Smiling, he playfully rumbled her
hair. "I thought that was the princes' job."
Michelle
thought about that for a couple of second before answering. "Pwincesses can
save someone too. Someone's gotta save the pwince sometime, wight?"
Max
shook his head in wonder at the intelligent little girl in his arms. "You're
right, sweetheart. Sometimes the prince needs to be saved too."
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Liz
fingers finally found what they were looking for and she pressed the connection
button.
"Hello?"
Her voice was quite breathless, having had to find the cell phone in the
enormous bag Maria had packed for her, before it stopped ringing.
"Liz?"
The
voice sounded familiar, but her mind was too fuzzy to put all the pieces
together. "Yes?"
"This is
Max."
Joy
spread in her chest and she smiled. "Max…"
"Yeah,
you know, from the party and the-"
Liz's
smile deepened. "I remember you."
"Oh…"
came the somewhat embarrassed reply.
Scooting
further up against the head of the bed, she pulled the comforter closer around
her and waited to hear his voice again. She hadn't realized it before, most
obviously because too much had happened to her since Max had dropped her off at
her house the night before, for her to have a clear thought, but she had missed
his voice. She hadn't really thought about it before, but hearing it now, it
was almost ridiculous that she hadn't noticed before the softness of his voice.
The warmth in which he uttered every syllable. How he spoke her name.
"How did
you get my number?" Her answer was underlined with the smile on her lips and
the amused surprise at having him call her.
"I don't
know actually," Max answered and Liz could easily picture his embarrassed lost
boy expression.
She
raised an eyebrow. "You don't know?"
"I found
your number in my pocket. I guess someone gave it to me without me noticing. My
first guess would be Mar-"
"Maria."
The
shared a soft laugh as they simultaneously blurted out the name of the obvious
organizer of the situation.
"So,
what are you up to?" Liz asked. She was dying to talk about something normal.
Hear inane details about someone's normal life. She had been craving to
talk to someone who didn't fuss about her health and consequently barely talked
about anything else than what she should and shouldn't do.
"I'm
sitting in this big black armchair right now, protected by an angel," Max
answered cryptically. She could hear the smile in his voice and the special
softness with which she had already recognized he used when he talked about the
person who meant most to him.
"You
need protection?"
"There
was this big dragon outside, but she promised me that she would keep me safe."
Liz bit
her lower lip, the gentleness in his voice bringing tears to her eyes. "What's
the angel's name?"
"Liz…"
The
one-word syllable caused goose bumps to break out on her skin. She swallowed.
"Liz?"
"Yes,"
Max answered, "Liz is this really beautiful princess, who knows all the right
tricks to lure a dragon away. She saves princes, too."
Liz
laughed softly. "She does?"
"Uh-huh.
Princes can need protection. Princes get scared, too, sometimes."
She
sobered at the hidden meanings behind his words. "But she saved her prince?"
"She is
doing a great job so far," Max answered.
Liz
closed her eyes, and there was a few seconds of silence, before Max spoke.
"Liz? Are you there?"
Liz
nodded, before realizing that he couldn't see that. "Yes." Her voice was
breaking. This was all too much for her. The things that she was feeling… She
didn't know what to do. What she was feeling. What it meant… "Yes, I'm here."
A
breathless moment and then her eyes closed with guilt as his voice changed to
worried. "Are you okay?"
She
didn't want this. She didn't want to pull another person into her misery. She
didn't want to be pampered by one more. She wanted to be treated like a person.
Not a patient. She ignored the fact that Max's concern didn't at all feel as
wrong as Kevin's did. Max's concern made her want to cry. Made her want to
confide in him, talk to him about everything between heaven and earth. She
brushed some traitorous tears off her cheeks and answered stoically, "I'm fine,
Max."
"I hope
that you didn't catch a cold," Max said and she could hear the guilt in his
voice. Something she instinctively wanted to remove.
"I'm
perfectly fine, Max," Liz tried to assure him.
There
was some more seconds of silence and Liz spent the seconds wondering what was
going through Max's head at the moment. Did he doubt her? Was he feeling guilty
for giving her the best day in her life? Was he worried about her? Was he
regretting that he called?
"Okay,"
Max said, his voice much lighter. "I just wanted to…" He hesitated and Liz
clung to the phone desperately, wondering what he was going to say. Would he
cross the invisible line between them?
"I just
wanted to… to see how you were doing," Max said and somehow Liz knew that
wasn't what he had intended to say. Not at all.
"Thank
you, Max," Liz said warmly. "Thank you for calling." She meant it even more
than she could tell him. To hear his voice had lifted her spirits, given her
new strength.
"Liz…"
"Yes?"
"You
wouldn't want to… um… Could I… Could I call you some other time?"
Liz
closed her eyes at the tears welling up in her eyes and immediately admonished
herself for being so emotional. But she realized that Max wasn't really asking
if he could call her some other time. There was so much more he was really
asking, and they both knew it.
"I'd
love that," Liz whispered.
"Okay,"
Max said softly. "We'll talk later then."
"Yes,"
Liz agreed. "Yes, we'll do that."
"Bye."
Liz
swallowed back the grief of hanging up and whispered a broken, "Bye."
She
didn't hang up immediately and she could still hear his presence at the other
end of the line. It took a few seconds before he hung up and the call
disconnected.
---------------------------------------------------
Michael
opened the door to find his girlfriend on the other side, looking up at him
with a small smile. He immediately pulled her into a hug.
"Hey."
"Hey,"
she murmured against his chest.
"Are you
okay?"
She
nodded.
"And
Liz? How is she doing?"
Maria
took a deep breath and stepped out of his arms, absently fixing her hair.
"She's doing fine. She will be going home today."
Michael
smiled. "That's great."
Maria
nodded and walked past him. Michael furrowed his forehead at her distant
behavior. "Maria, is there something else?"
She
looked at him innocently. "Something else?"
"Yeah,
it seems like your mind is somewhere else."
"Nah,"
she shook her head in denial and pulled out a glass from the cabinet in the
kitchen, "This whole thing just scared me, you know? We had been lulled into
this false sense of security. I guess I wasn't the only one who was surprised
that Liz had a relapse." Maria sat down on one of the high stools at the
counter, her fingers tracing the still empty glass. "When she had the
transplant-"
Michael
stopped short. "She had a heart transplant?"
Maria
met his eyes. "She would've died without one."
"Okay,"
Michael said and slowly lowered himself on the other stool beside her. He
wasn't sure why he had such a strong reaction to that. It might be that it all
sounded so serious, or it might just be that Tess' heart had been given to
someone in the need of a new heart. It was just too close to home.
"The
doctors told us that she would be as healthy as anyone else after the
transplant. As long as she took her pills to lessen the risk of her body
rejecting the new heart."
"Right,"
Michael nodded, "So what went wrong?"
"Any
infection is particularly dangerous to her. She got a cold, a very dangerous
cold. According to the doctor, she was close to getting pneumonia. And she was
upset right as the infection was beginning to root inside of her. It just
became too much for her heart. But that's not the point. The point is that she
is still acting as if everything is okay, and it's pissing me off."
"Why?"
Michael asked honestly.
Maria
frustrated threw her hands up in the air. "Because…because… I'm not sure that
she is taking care of herself. It's like she doesn't care. She just laughs and
tells everyone that she's okay, when I can clearly see that she isn't."
"It's
her life you are talking about," Michael said. "I'm sure she wouldn't be
careless with her own life."
His
thoughts wandered to the woman he had met two days ago, at Isabel's. The
picture he was getting from Maria now, a really sick woman, did not fit the
picture he had built up at dinner. The woman he had met there had been
independent, albeit a little shy. But she had been happy in a way that he never
had seen anyone before. Her happiness hadn't been of the exuberant kind, but
more of the calm kind. Still, it hadn't taken a scientist to understand that
she wasn't only going through the motions of life, she was cherishing every
breath, devouring every second. Now he knew why. She had been handed another
chance in life and she was doing everything she had ever wanted to do. Maybe
that was why Max had taken such an instant liking in her. She was the total
opposite of what he had become. While Liz probably woke up with a smile every
day because she was so excited about what the new day was going to bring her,
Max woke up wanting to go back to sleep and never wake up again. Liz exhibited
the qualities that Max craved.
"I don't
know…" Maria murmured. "I mean, of course she wouldn't be careless about her
life. She has waited for this life for too long. I just… Something is wrong."
"As I've
understood it," Michael mused, "She was basically given a second chance to
live. It's only natural that she would change."
"But
it's only lately that she has changed," Maria said.
Michael
looked at her for a few seconds in contemplation, before he decided to be very
honest with her. "Maybe what irks you is that she has changed and you haven't."
Maria
stared at him and then snorted to show how ridiculous she thought that was.
"What are you saying?"
Michael
took a deep breath, knowing that he might be threading thin ice, and raked his
hand through his hair. "All I'm saying is… Do you treat Liz as the new Liz, or
as the old Liz?"
"What
are you talking about?" Michael could hear the irritation in her voice and knew
that he had stepped on some toes.
"She
still needs you to care for her and support her, but she doesn't really
need you to take care of her any longer. She doesn't need your help to the same
degree any longer."
Maria's
mouth thinned out in anger. Michael's eyes glanced at the finger quickly
tapping against the surface of the counter. "She's in the hospital, Michael. As
far as I can see it, she still needs our help."
"Why was
she upset?"
"What?"
"That
night when she had that…um…that artial fabril-thingy," Michael scratched his
head. Medical terms had never been his strong side. "Why was she upset?"
Maria hopped
off the stool. "You know what, don't bother. Liz is my problem-"
Michael
grabbed a hold of her wrist, putting a stop to her escape. Looking her firmly
in the eyes, he said gently, "Maria, I'm not trying to insult you or butt into
a friendship you truly know more about than I. I just wanted to give you a new
perspective-"
"Whatever,"
Maria said and looked away.
"Look at
me," Michael said. With a sigh, Maria turned to look at him, "I want to be here
for you, Maria. I want to listen to you. And I also want to be honest with you.
When I think something, I want to be able to tell you that and I want you to
feel that you can do the same."
Maria
swallowed at his honest admission. That had to be the most beautiful thing
someone has ever said to her. But pride stopped her from admitting that to him.
"To be
honest," she looked at him surly, "You're pissing me off right now."
He
grinned at that, which made her snatch her arm out of his grip.
"I'm
leaving," she said curtly.
"Maria,"
Michael begged, silent laughter in his voice. He hadn't meant to upset her like
that. "Can we just…"
Maria
stopped by the door and whipped around to face him. "No, Michael. I need some
fresh air." Before he was given the opportunity to protest, she had opened the
door and slammed it shut behind her. He stared at the door in disbelief,
wondering what just had happened. It didn't take many seconds until the door
opened again and Maria poked her head in. "Thank you for, you know, for
listening."
It was
obvious that it was hard for her to admit that she had appreciated him. Her
expression was fighting to remain cool and nonchalant.
"You're
welcome," Michael smiled.
"Okay,"
she said, "But I'm still angry with you."
"Okay,"
Michael said calmly.
"Okay."
"Okay."
"Okay,
then I'm just gonna…" And with that she slammed the door again, leaving Michael
behind with a big grin on his face.
