It had been four days since Kira's death, and the funeral was to happen today. How he was going to handle every sad face in the room, Athrun didn't know. The weeping, the apologizing, the complete sadness lingering in the room, he didn't know how he'd get pass the afternoon, especially after the ceremony, the burying of his body.
"Ugh!" Athrun groaned falling onto his back, which caused his hair to contrast against his white pillowcase. Bags were under his eyes, due to lack of sleep and any form of nutrition. Damn…This sucks…I can't even think right anymore…Kira…Why'd you have to die on me…!
For the fifth time that morning, he left himself with unanswerable questions…
"…Athrun?" a soft voice called from outside the door. The said male, lost in his thoughts, didn't answer the call.
Sighing Tenshi opened the door, and allowed herself in. Athrun was perched on the side of his bed, with his back turned to the door. His broad shoulders were hunched forward, and she could tell his head were hidden in his hands…
"Athrun?" It wasn't until she sat down besides him, that he even acknowledged her. Saddened emerald-eyes glanced towards her. "What? Didn't I ask to be alone? And you didn't even knock!" he hissed, which left Tenshi surprised and speechless.
"-But…I…"
Athrun groaned and looked away. "Ugh…I'm sorry.." he said, strained from any source of energy, and from not doing anything the last few days. "It's alright…Athrun you've got to calm yourself down or something. It's not healthy…and it's not your fault…Kira wouldn't want you blaming yourself sick like this…"
"Shut your mouth, will you!" It is too my fault! And stop acting like you actually knew Kira! You don't! Its…just as much my fault as it is yours! Maybe if you hadn't come along, Kira might not have killed himself!"
This came hard, and hit her even harder in the chest. Tenshi starred at him with wide aquamarine orbs, and she could feel tears springing to the sides of her eyes.
Athrun didn't speak, but turned his head in the opposite direction, in which his gaze fell to the window.
"I…your right…I…" she stood up slowly, and was called back by Athrun as she inched across the rug towards the door slowly. "Tenshi…wait…"
"No. Your right…maybe if I hadn't come, Kira would still be alive. But you…you tell me this…was I just a way to get your mind off Kira!" now it was her turn to grow irritated. Both of them on there last nerves, due to everything that had sped on by the last two weeks.
"Tenshi!"
"Answer my question!"
Athrun stood next, his eyes narrowed slightly. "Damn you! How could you think so lowly of me? I did not use you! I liked you…and at the time I thought I loved you…" he tried to sound calm, but it wasn't quite working, and both knew that.
"Then how were you able to just toss me away, within not even a week of being here! Suddenly your in love with Kira…and what am I!"
"…I…" now he was the one at fault for words, and he wouldn't of been able to say anything in the first place, because Tenshi continued on…
"Did you even think of how I felt? I loved you…I really did, and all of a sudden, I'm yesterdays news!"
"St…op…It! P-please just stop! That's not how it was!" he said, feeling his inner barrier start to crumble away within himself.
"Admit it…you were love sick over Kira…but didn't know it at the time, and tried to get your mind off of him, so you asked the closest girl out, and that girl happened to be me…and I was stupid enough to say yes! After three years together, you drop me in two days of moving here…and now I can't even go home because my parents hate me for crossing them!"
Athrun swallowed hard. And moved towards her, as she stepped away from him. Tears, to match hers, glistened in his own eyes. "Tenshi! I'm sorry…please, I just lost it, I wasn't thinking straight, and I know you have a right to be pissed at me…but I didn't mean that…Really, I didn't…"
"…I don't know what to think anymore…but we both just screwed up big time…didn't we?" he agreed with a nod. Both of them turned their backs to each other, Athrun looking back out the window, and Tenshi heading to the large wooden door. Suddenly, she remembered what she had came in his room to say in the first place, and nearly forgot a bout.
"…His funeral is…in two days…on Saturday…" and with this, the door was shut…
A.N. Hello everyone...! Tenshi here...just wanted to say somethings a bout this last chapter, and to inform everyone a bout some things going on...
...After this chapter, I think I'll be done after one or two more, with sidestories, of course...and maybe a continuation of what happened afterwards, but thats a maybe, if even that...
This chapter was basically to show both of there thoughts on one another, and both said a bunch of stuff there going to regret. And if it seems that I was just dragging on the story, I'm sorry. I just had an idea in mind, and put it in...
More will come in my next chapter (which will be a Authors Notes, to inform of somethings) I hope you'll all take the time to read that...)
And until then...
Ja!
Tenshi