Still there chapter 5

Courtney is watching one of Sonny's breakdowns from where she is (a/n: I can't describe really where she is, but think of it as in the clouds- if you ever watched Port Charles, like that lol)

"It kills you that you can't do anything" a voice said behind Courtney "Not literally of course"

"Brian" Courtney said with a smirk "You following me?"
"You know if you go to see him you will only push him further over the edge" Brian said watching Courtney as she never removed her eyes from Sonny

"Maybe in person I can't see him but what about in his dreams?" Courtney questioned

"Your choice" Brian said then he was gone

"So you watch this all the time?" Courtney asked the person standing next to her

"Yea" says the woman

"How come you never try to reach him?" Courtney asked

"It would just hurt him more"

"Your death still affects him unbelievable Lily" Courtney said looking at her then Lily turned towards her

"I know, which is why I can't stop in for visit" she said with a smile "Which is why you can't speak to Nikolas, as much as you want to"

"I know" Courtney said turning her attention back to Sonny "I just wish I could go down there and tell him it will all be ok

"It's tough" Lily said "But it gets easier, trust me"

"I hope so, because no matter how many times I visit people they just ignore what I say" Courtney said irritated

"Courtney, the people down there are going to do what they want no matter what we say, and it's going to drive you crazy but it's there lives" Lily said with a smile "Your new to this, but you will get used to it" with that said Lily turned and left then Courtney turned her attention back down to the scene at Sonny's

"Oh Sonny" Courtney said shaking her head "What am I going to do about you?"

Alexis and Ric's home

Alexis was sitting on her couch reading over some legal files and Courtney was standing behind her thinking of ways to approach her

"Hey Alexis" Courtney said aloud

"Co-" Alexis started

"Yes I'm dead, no your not crazy and I'm here to talk to you" Courtney spat out but Alexis still looked at her strangely

"Ok" Alexis said studying Courtney "About what?"
"Well I only have time to discuss your husband and Sonny" Courtney said sitting down and Alexis still stared at her astonished
"Umm" Alexis said trying to think "Forgive me but it's 2am and I am sitting here with my nephews dead fiancée as we talk about my husband and brother in law" Alexis stood up "I think I'm delusional"

"No you're really not" Courtney said walking over to her "I'm really here and I know this difficult to understand-"

"You can say that" Alexis said pinching herself

"Stop pinching yourself, you're not sleeping" Courtney said "You know out of everyone I've seen you're the last person I would of expected to doubt this"
"No I'm dreaming" Alexis said turning around and Courtney rolled her eyes and followed her

"If you were dreaming, why would you dream of me?" Courtney asked "Why not your sister or your mother? Why would you dream of the father of your child's sister?" Courtney said giving her a look

"Fair point" Alexis said giving in and still stared at Courtney "Do you want a drink? Can you have a drink?"
"No" Courtney said with a smile "Thank you though"
"Okay so you had to talk" Alexis said nervously

"Yea, look Sonny is going through a tough time" Courtney started "And I have a feeling Ric has not been helping him" Courtney said hoping Alexis would catch on

"What kind of problem?" Alexis asked concerned

"You know Sonny when he gets into those stages" Courtney said as Alexis nodded "Anyway I wanted you to just keep an eye on Ric"

"What has Ric been doing?" Alexis asked

"I can't say" Courtney said laughing "And it's very frustrating"

"All right" Alexis said "Anything else?"
"No that was it" Courtney said walking to the door

"You're just going to walk around the town?" Alexis asked

"Yea, no one can see me though unless I want them too" Courtney said opening the door

"Well it was good to see you again" Alexis said strangely

"Yea" Courtney said closing the door behind her

"Wow" Alexis said "I must be dreaming"

Kelly's

Courtney walked into Kelly's so no one could see her and took a seat at the stool and just watched Mike work

"Lulu?" Mike asked "Can you bring these to table 4?"
"No problem Mike" Lulu said grabbing the cup

Courtney waved her hand in Mike's face and he was just unaware of her presence

"Hmm" Courtney said

"When are we closing?" Lulu asked Mike

"Once that last table is out then we can sit up for the party" Mike said

"What party?" Courtney asked herself

"Ok" Lulu said

A few minutes later the last customer was out

"Here's the banner I got" Lulu said and she Mike opened it and Courtney looked

"This party is for John?" Courtney questioned "Hmm"

While Mike and Lulu set up for the party Courtney just sat bored

"This is boring" Courtney said aloud as Mike and Lulu fixed the sign "And that sign is not even straight" Then Nikolas walked in with baby John

"Are we early?" Nik asked with a smile

"Right on time" Mike said walking over to John and Nikolas

"Here you want to see grandpa?" Nik asked smiling at John handing him over to Mike

"Hey Nik" Lulu said walking over to Nik and giving him a hug

"Hey everyone" Liz said walking in "Hope I'm not late"

"Right on time" said Nikolas "Where's Lucky?"
"He's at work, he said he'd be here" Liz said "Can I?" she asked looking at John

"Of course" Mike said handing John to Elizabeth

"He's gotten so big" Liz said as Courtney walked behind her and looked at John

"Yea he did" Nik said with a smile then Luke walked in

"Don't you dare call my adorable little nephew the evil Cassidne spawn" Lulu said grabbing Luke's hand "He is just a little baby" and Liz handed John to Luke as Courtney continued to watch on

"He's not that bad" Luke said smiling at him

"Is that a smile?" Lulu asked laughing

"No" Luke said still smiling

"Why are you torturing yourself?" A voice asked behind Courtney

"I'm not" Courtney said

"Yea you are" the man said "Just come back with me and stop making yourself feel bad"
"It's not that easy Stone" Courtney said

"Look your Sonny's little sister and I still feel loyalty and a bond to him and he wouldn't want you putting yourself through this" Stone said pleading "When I was gone I could never get this close to Robin and I still can't but here you are looking at your son, your fiancé and staring at the life that would have been yours"

"Stone, I appreciate you looking at for me but this is my only child I want to be there for him" Courtney said then all of the sudden she was back where she belonged, up in the sky

"Sorry Courtney" Stone said sincerely

"Yea" Courtney said with a frown

"It gets better" Stone said with a smile "Trust me" and Courtney smiled back and Stone was gone

"It better get better" Courtney said staring down at the party "It has too"

A/N- Thanks for all the reviews I'm glade everyone likes it  so this chapter I included some of the former PC towns people who are gone and will try to do more. Also some of in here maybe off timeline with the show and some scenes aren't exactly the same lol but this is the first story I've written in a while and really liked so I will be updating a lot.