Sorry haven't updated in ages! I love anyone who reads this because I am such a loser and get inspiration every half a year…yeah, lat update was like in may or something…
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Frozen like the Russian Winters.
Chapter 22.
His Heart.
Some questions remain forever unanswered, like 'did I ever really love anyone' or 'should I have said something' and even though people try their best to convince themselves, they're still lost when confronted with the truth.
Kai couldn't be further from the truth either, who in their right mind would seek a person who could be on the other side of the world at the very minute he sat and wondered over his mistakes? Who in their right mind would dump happiness only to replace it with guilt and fear?
And who in their right mind would try and follow something as silly as their heart's first impulse?
He would.
And this time the answer was simple.
Yes he had loved and not just one person.
Yes he should have said something, but time couldn't be rewound and he was here and now, facing these, unbelievable choices.
And he would not.
Fuck.
Up.
'At least I hope so…'-he heard himself say, realising that his thoughts had gone in a full circle and he was in fact, sitting in a room full of men.
'Mr Hiwatari, sir?'-questioned one of the soldiers, his gun tapping his helmet as he leaned forward to get a better view of the seemingly insane boy.
'I…'-Kai tried not to roll his eyes for the benefit of the public.-'I mean, we can try…'
He stopped.
'The world…the whole wide world in twenty four hours.'-he said finally, outstretching his hands and making a wide circle to encompass the world. The terrifying reality was that in fact, the 'world' he had portrayed was his own.
Little and fragile, a whole universe to a child who was never been recognised as such.
He smiled.
Insane as it had seemed, there was one logical answer.
'I know where to go.'
'An assumption you're making? Isn't it a little risky for that?'
Kai's smile didn't fall from such degradation, in fact it widened and became almost real, almost amused.
'And do you have anything better? Or is the world so small nowadays that you still needed my help to locate my grandfather?'-he laughed.-'My dead grandfather?'
They looked at him in shock. Something was so unnerving about a teenage boy who seemed to have inherited the trait of a snake from his notorious relative.
And he, he couldn't understand why the world couldn't taste his feelings, the hate and bitterness. He didn't care if he was sent to hell or heaven or was cursed and never died, all he wanted was to share those feelings with someone else.
Because he still had the heart of a child.
And those feelings were too big.
And his world, just like his heart, was shattering under the pressure.
'Take me…us. Take us to the heart of Russia.'
TBC
Ok! And this time I promise to update soon and everything!
And…this will last longer than I thought…and it will all make sense!
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