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Peyton swallowed hard and knocked on the door. She herd foot steps coming closer and closer. It felt like slow motion all over again. From her friends confronting her, her agreeing to get help, and coming to the psychiatrist was all so slow.
She started straight at the name on the door, Mr. Jocklin. The nice man that was in her room the day her arm was revealed.
"Peyton." he smiled as he opened the door. "Come on in."
Peyton walked in and took a seat.
"So, lets begin."
"I..I um, feel awkward about this."
"That's okay. Most people do." he kindly said. "We just need to help you."
Peyton nodded.
"Notice how I said we Peyton." he told her. "I'll put 110 percent in to helping you. But you need to help yourself. You have to realize what a wonderful life you have. What a wonderful person you are. Even if things don't always go so well, doing that to your arm. Won't help."
Peyton nodded and smiled. She was actually liking what she was hearing. Could she possibly like therapy?
- - - -
Brooke looked around the room again. Staring at all of Peyton's work, more carefully then she ever had done before. She looked at some sketches and then just laid in her bed. Waiting for her to come home.
She really hadn't gotten much sleep that night. After calming Peyton down Mr. Jocklin agreed to start sessions the very next day. Peyton agreed. Brooke felt proud of herself.
She felt better about herself. More, grown up. Normally Brooke would of been to busy being mad at Peyotn to even care what the hell she was doing. She was very angry with her, very hurt. However it felt like one hundred stabbing knifes all over her body when she saw her best friend in that situation. She had never seen Peyton, that weak.
"Ready to talk yet?" a voice broke her concentration.
She looked up seeing Lucas standing at the door way with his hands shoved way into his pockets. He tried talking to Brooke after things calmed down the day before but Brooke looked at him in the eye and said as seriously as she could. "Right now is not a good time."
Lucas respected it, even though it was hard. He left.
"Not really." she told him.
"I don't have feelings for Peyton." Lucas told her as he sat down next to her.
"Really? Could of fooled me." Brooke rolled her eyes.
"Brooke, you know I love you. It was just an in the moment thing."
"In the moment? Lucas it doesn't matter when it was. I am your girl friend. You kiss me. No one else." She snapped.
"She was bleeding Brooke. I thought she was going to die. As hard and sad as it is to say, it felt like..."
"Like what."
"Like a goodbye kiss. She thought she was going to die." He explained.
Brooke didn't say anything, she was letting it digest.
"If I wanted to be with Peyton. I wouldn't be here right now. Telling you this. Brooke, my heart belongs to you."
"Lucas.."
"I love you Brooke."
Brooke didn't say anything.
"Peyton is going to be having a really hard time Lucas."
"Yeah I know. We can help her." he smiled grabbing her hand.
"I need to be able to help her. And I can't if.." she started to tear up , pulling her hand away from Lucas. "If I'm with you."
"What?"
"Peyton is going through something really horrible Lucas. And I need to help her. I need to. But you hurt me. Again. I can't be thinking of my own problems. I want to be all there for Peyton"
"Brooke you have to know, how sorry I am."
"Lucas I need you to go." She wiped away a tear from her eye.
"Brooke."
"Lucas please. Just go."
Lucas took a deep breathe and started to walk to the door.
"Brooke I love you. I know I messed up. I know that you have every right to hate me, and not trust me. But I promise you right here and right now. I'll prove it to you. Because when I say I love you. I mean it."
With that Lucas walked out the door and Brooke sat down back on the bed, thinking about the conversation she just had minutes ago.
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"Mom?" Nathan called out as he and Haley walked into the house.
"Over here." Deb called. She was in the kitchen.
Nathan and Haley could smell the delicious aroma as they entered. It was Deb's special warm melt in your mouth, home made apple pie.
"Mmm something smells delicious." Haley giggled as she saw Deb.
Deb had her apron around her pulling her pie out of the oven.
"Just in time." she smiled as she hugged the two of them.
"So what did you need?" Nathan asked. They had gotten a call from Deb asking them to come over.
"Well.." she started but was interrupted by a knock at the door.
Nathan looked back and was surprised to see Lucas there.
"What are you doing here?"
"I don't know. Your mom called." Lucas explained.
"What's wrong with you man?" Nathan asked. Immediately seeing his brother was bothered by something.
"Nothing."
"Dude you suck at lying."
"What are you boys doing?" Deb asked them. Seeing it was Lucas the door.
"Coming." Nathan told her. "After were done here, your telling me what's going on."
Lucas just nodded and followed his brother to the kitchen.
"Well Lucas you know how your mom is pregnant."
"Um yeah, couldn't really miss that." Lucas laughed.
"And how her and Keith are getting married."
"Yeah?"
"We should throw them a party. I mean with everything that has been going on lately, we need some us time. Some enjoying, gifts, fun." Deb giggled.
"That is an amazing idea Deb!" Haley exclaimed.
"Yea?"
"Thanks Deb." Lucas hugged her. "My mom would really appreciate that."
"Well don't tell her. Lets make it a surprise, shower slash wedding party?"
"Sounds good." Lucas nodded.
They all talked for a little while longer, about the plans and who to invite. They decided they would keep it small, with close friends and family.
"Okay well before you guys go Lucas and Nathan you think you can get me the water jugs out in the garage?" Deb asked.
"Yeah, no problem." Lucas told her.
"Haley you feeling okay?" Nathan asked. She seemed like she was getting sick.
"I have just been feeling a little sick lately. Probably just something I ate." Haley smiled.
Nathan kissed her and he and Lucas walked out into the garage.
"Okay. Talk." Nathan told him.
Lucas sighed knowing he was going to have to tell him.
"Brooke and I broke up." he mumbled.
"What?"
"Yeah. It sucks."
"Why what happened?" Nathan.
Lucas leaned against the car and started to tell Nathan the whole story.
- - -
Haley was helping Deb clean up when she had to run to the bathroom. She couldn't help it, she just started to throw up. She took her time and cleaned herself up and walked out where Deb waited with a cup of water.
"I guess my cooking skills aren't so good?" Deb smiled.
"Oh no. I just haven't been feeling well." Haley responded.
"How far along?" Deb asked.
"W-what?" Haley chocked on her water.
"Haley your boobs are bigger, your throwing up, and if you don't mind me saying. You look a little bigger right here." Deb pointed to her belly.
Haley looked back and then turned to Deb.
"I just found out the other day."
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