(Sam Winchester)
Okay, I did it. No question now as to what I'm capable of, just what kind of fucked up freak I am or why Dean's angel wants me dead. It's done and an innocent man's been saved and I'm glad. Glad Mom's dead, glad Dad's dead and glad I can't see the look of disgust on Dean's face. But I can hear the anger in his voice.
"You did this!" he screams at Ruby and she laughs. Stupid, stupid, demon, I think when I hear her startled gasp and I know Dean's gone after her again, intent on killing her this time I imagine, and I don't really care.
I've learned all I want to from her, how to control my mind just enough to expel the demons and save people's lives. I know she has much more in store for me and it's tempting but not at the expense of what's left of my soul or of my well-being or Dean's. To get to me she now has to go through him, his promise of helping me die all but forgotten.
I hear Santiago moan and begin to move around so I shout to be heard over the fighting, "Dean! Ruby!" and they stop, panting like a couple of dogs, and I tell them we need to get to the cathedral before Lilith starts killing hostages. Someone grabs my arm and I jump. It's too easy to sneak up on me, too easy too kill me, too easy for Dean to forget about watching his own back while he watches mine.
"Take Iago and get him in the truck," Dean orders Ruby. I can hear her growl deep within the girl but she does as she's told. Dean holds me back and leans in to speak to me.
"No demon-killing spells," he reiterates and tells me that if you cut off the head, the rest of the beast dies and the others will scatter.
"You couldn't even get near this demon and believe me; it wasn't nearly as powerful as Lilith," I tell him and he squeezes my shoulder.
"This one sneaked up on me," he admits and I tell him it'll happen again if he has to worry about watching out for me.
"Bobby should be just outside Baby Armadillo by now. He'll keep an eye on you," he says and I know now that I won't be able to get within a hundred miles of that church.
I won't be able to defy him and use Ruby's spell anyway and while I'm sitting around with my thumb up my ass, Dean's gonna die. "Fuck you, Dean," I say pulling away and tell him he has no idea what he's going up against.
"Maybe not but I'm goin' in with a mountain of battle rattle and a hellhound or twenty to keep the lesser demons at bay while I fuck Lilith back to the dawn of time," he says and for a moment I believe that he might just pull it off. Then I come to my senses and try to dissuade him from going it alone by suggesting that he at least take Ruby with him.
"What for?" he wants to know, "So she can make sure I die?"
I can't be sure that Ruby won't do just that so I suggest that he take Bobby with him but he knows me, doesn't trust me and says that Bobby knows what he has to do and I know Bobby's assignment is to contain me at all costs. My arguing won't do any more good and we might cause people harm if we keep Lilith waiting so I tell him we need to get going and he leads me to the truck. He's gonna drive and evidently Ruby's gonna walk because he tells her to get away from the truck. They start bickering again but I turn away from them because I hear something in the distance. I hear the rustling of wings.