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A/N: anyway, this chapter is going to be a tearjerker! And a lot of emotions are expressed in this story!! There are some sayings in this chapter that I kinda' copied off of another TV show, so just to be safe: I don't own that TV show!!
Have we finally reached the end of our beloved Sesshomaru? You find out until you read the entire chapter! EnJoY!
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Chapter 5: A Promise is a Promise part 1
Everything was silent. Not even a bird or cricket chirped. All eyes watched in horror at the sight before them. Sesshomaru stood there. His clothes ripped and tattered and his body almost completely covered in blood. He looked over at Rin with glazed eyes. His arm slightly outstretched to her.
"Rin." He whispered, and then fell backwards and into a large pool of his own blood.
"SESSHOMARU!!" Rin screamed and ran towards him. She picked up his limp upper body and cradled him in her arms.
"Please…please don't die!! Don't die on me Sesshomaru, I need you!!"
Images of her past with Sesshomaru flashed before her eyes as she sat there, holding his head to her breast protectively and crying hysterically.
"Sesshomaru…don't die, please…don't die!!" Rin screamed. Sesshomaru made no movement to her cries and pleads. His eyes were closed, and his skin was now as white as sheetrock, his torn and tattered body bleeding profusely, causing her kimono to stain with crimson.
Tarakun let out yet another bone-chilling laugh. He had finally achieved what his family longed for, even though he despised his family, especially his father Royukon. Inuyasha growled at Tarakun.
"Damn you!! I'll make sure you suffer!!!" Inuyasha grabbed the Tessaiga and ran to Tarakun.
"WINDSCAR!!" He roared, and waves of electricity ran straight for Tarakun. The demon was barely able to dodge it. He quickly picked up his right arm and sword, then, turning into a large cloud of black smoke, he took flight, his voice hissing through the air.
"I'll come back to finish the carnage in which I have started!!" He suddenly disappeared along with his scent.
Inuyasha sheathed his sword, and then turned back to look at Rin and the others.
Kagome ran toward Rin and sat beside her. "Hold on Rin, there still might be hope!" She pulled Sesshomaru out of Rin's tight grip and laid him back to the ground, trying to avoid the pool of blood that he was laying in. She carefully put two fingers to one side of his neck to feel his pulse.
"D-daddy, what's wrong with Uncoo? Why isn't he moving? What's Mommy doin' to him?" Hakashi asked. Inuyasha quickly looked down to see Kohaku and Hakashi gazing frightfully at Sesshomaru body. "Shippo! Get the kids out of here. …They don't need to see such a sight." Shippo nodded and led the children away from such a morbid sight.
Seconds went by in silence. No pulse. Kagome's heart skipped a beat. 'No…he cant' die and leave Rin like this…he's got too much to live for, Dammit!!' Kagome growled in her head.
Just then, Kagome felt a beat vibrate to her fingers. A PULSE!!
"He's still alive, but barely!" Kagome exclaimed. Rin felt some-what relief.
"Inuyasha! Miroku! I need you two to carry him into the hut so I can treat him!" Kagome told them. Inuyasha slid his arms under Sesshomaru's and Miroku picked up his feet, and they carefully, but quickly carried him into the hut and into a bed. Sango and Rin followed behind them.
Kagome went to a cabinet and pulled out every medical item she could find. She ran over to the bed and began to work on him.
Kagome ripped off the rest of his haori (kimono top) and began to clean the blood off of his chest and deep wounds. Everyone watched as Kagome took out a bottle called 'Peroxide' and started to dab the profusely bleeding wounds. Chemical after chemical and medicine after medicine was brought out and used. She scattered some herbs into the wounds to make them stop bleeding, which only stopped somewhat.
When Kagome was finished with Sesshomaru's upper body, she moved to his lower body, and then froze with a red-hot blush.
"What's wrong Kagome?" Sango asked.
"Uuuhhh...umm…well, there are wounds all over his body, and I uhh…well…I uh…need to undo his hakamas." She stuttered. Inuyasha, Sango, and Miroku gazed at her in confusion before realization finally kicked in and made them blush.
" 'Ahem', uhh, why not Rin do it?" Inuyasha said, he wasn't about to let HIS woman look at what his brother had underneath his pants, no matter what the situation was.
Rin spoke up softly. "Don't worry Kagome, I can take over from here. Thank you so much for your help."
"Alright, but if anything happens, tell me. I'm sure I can handle seeing whatever I see if I know that someone's life depends on it." Kagome turned to others. "Anyway, Inuyasha, I'm going to take a look at that broken arms of yours. Sango, do you think you can bandage Miroku's head in the mean-time?"
Sango nodded, and the four of them left the hut to let Rin finish the job. Rin wiped away her tears and gazed down at Sesshomaru. He looked so peaceful, as if he was already dead, but she could see his slow, battered breathing and new he was still alive. But for how long? How long would Kagome's potions work until they couldn't help him? Then what? She would have to keep watch of his every movement and never leave his side. Never.
Rin thought about all the times where she was injured and Sesshomaru had actually bandaged and cared for her wounds.
FLASHBACK!! RIN: 11years old
Running, playing, and laughing was all Rin thought about when she skipped and galloped through the field of flowers. So many fragrances whipped through the air and into Rin's nose. She was having so much fun; she didn't notice the large root before her. She tripped over the root and landed right on her face and hands. Her face hurt a lot, but not as much as the sudden sting of pain in the palm of her left hand.
Rin yelped in pain. It hurt worse when she tried to put force on it to sit up. When she finally looked at her hand, she gasped. Blood slowly trickled down her arm. A very sharp and large stick submerged itself slightly into Rin's palm. She stared in dismay, and then started to cry. The sight of the bloody stick hurt just as bad as the actual pain.
Just then, Sesshomaru flew from the forest and landed gracefully in the field in front of her. "Rin, I heard your cry. I smelled your blood. You are hurt?" He asked in a monotone of voice, but you can just make out the hint of concern.
Rin sniffled and lifted her hand for him to see. He gazed at the wound before turning back to Rin's swollen, tear and dirt stained face. "Rin, how did this happen?" He asked.
"R-Rin was playing, and-she-she t-tripped and hurt herself b-badly!" Rin sobbed and hiccupped.
Her pathetic crying. It actually hurt him to hear it. But, it did seem like a bad wound, in the case that she was only a child. He didn't like it when Rin cried. It confused him because he had heard so many humans –mostly men- beg and cry for their lives and he had no problem ignoring them. But something about Rin's cries made him feel something he hadn't felt in very long time. Remorse. He then decided to help the young maiden.
Bending down to almost Rin's standing height, Sesshomaru took Rin's hand in his and analyzed it. Before Rin could realize what happened, Sesshomaru ripped the stick out of Rin's palm so fast that it didn't hurt her. But the blood continued and increased slightly. He ripped off some of his haori sleeve from his missing arm (which at the time, he didn't have, but now he does have both arms.) and wrapped it around Rin's hand, ceasing the blood. Sesshomaru stood up and looked down at the mesmerized girl. "Go and clean yourself up, I will not have you walking around with blood on your kimono and dirt and tear stains on your face." He demanded softly.
"Okay!" Rin smiled, but before she moved, she spoke to him again. "Lord Sesshomaru?"
"What Rin?" He looked down at her again.
"Can you lean down for a moment, Rin would like to whisper something in your ear?" She said timidly. Feeling rather annoyed, he surprised himself by doing what she said and crouched down to her height again. Rin approached him quickly and before he knew what was happening, Rin wrapped her small hands around his neck and hugged him tight, then whispered in his ear. "Thank you Lord Sesshomaru…I love you." This time, she didn't use the third-person description. She let go and skipped happily towards a nearby river.
Sesshomaru was shocked. Her words danced around his head. 'She loves me…no…she's still too young to know what love is…but still…she loves me? He finally snapped out of his thoughts and slowly followed the far away Rin to the river.
END OF FLASHBACK!!
Just thinking about that moment brought unwelcoming tears to slide down Rin's face. That was the first of so many other embracing moments like that. The first time, he tensed, but all the others, he was relaxed and eventually got used to her hugs of gratitude. Rin gazed at her lord once more. "Sesshomaru…what has happened…to all of us…what has caused everything to end like this?" She whispered and continued to bandage the wounds on his lower body.
Sesshomaru…
Darkness. Numbness. Coldness. Nothingness.
Sesshomaru was in total darkness, he was unable to move, but he was able to feel, and he felt cold. Nothing surrounded him but darkness. Horrible and taunting darkness. 'What's going on? What's happening to me? Where am I?' He thought. Was this death?
Suddenly, there was a bright light toward him, and he could feel his body warming and was now able to move, but in only one direction. Toward the light. The light had almost engulfed Sesshomaru, when he stopped and now had full control over his body. He suddenly saw an outline of a being moving towards him from the light. The deafening sound of silence rang through his ears, not even the sound of the figures footsteps as he/she or even 'it' approached slowly.
The figure came to a halt. Its features were now visible, and they stunned Sesshomaru. He couldn't tell his body to move, he couldn't even mentally speak. He just gazed at the person before him. The being was someone that Sesshomaru thought he would never see again in his lifetime. He must be dead in order to see that very person standing before him. Sesshomaru finally found his voice.
"Father…" He whispered hoarsely.
The dog demon stood there with magnificent clad armor. His long silver hair was tied up in the back. He stood there, tall and proud, with a soft and peaceful expression on his face. "Sesshomaru…my son." He said.
"Father, you are dead. I can't possibly be here, standing face-to-face with you…unless…unless I am dead as well." Sesshomaru's eyes softened.
"No son…you are not dead. You are in between worlds. The world of the living and the world of eternal happiness. Heaven." InuTaisho said. Sesshomaru looked surprised. Heaven accepted him? "But I have shed blood…even that of innocent blood. My cold hatred for others went with no bounds for such a large amount of time. Surely, Heaven would not accept someone of my statue."
InuTaisho smiled at his son. "I understand your confusion. But when you bravely and selflessly gave your life for others. You realized that your heart had indeed opened up and expressed those long time feelings that were locked up. Those feelings of need and lust to protect the ones so dear to you. When you had realized that, the sins of your past were forgiven and shunned away."
InuTaisho stretched out a hand toward Sesshomaru. "Come."He said. Sesshomaru stared at his father in disbelief. 'So this is it? I'm leaving with him and into Heaven. …I never got the chance to say my last words to Inuyasha and rest of his companions. Rin…I won't be able to hear her sweet voice or hold her when she's scared. …I won't be able to…tell her that I love her.'
Sesshomaru looked behind him into the darkness, hoping to see another option except Heaven or Hell. And there it was. Images swirled in the darkness. Images of a very young Rin when they first saw each other and where she smiled at him for the very first time. Images of himself, Rin, Jaken, and Ah-Un resting in an open field. Rin would torture Jaken with her happiness as Sesshomaru leaned on a tree beside a sleeping Ah-Un. Those were the days…. Images of himself and Inuyasha when they would fight so long ago. Blades clashing and clawed fists being thrown. And then that changed into an image of the day Hakashi was born. Inuyasha stretched his hand out for an agreeing handshake with his brother. After a moment of looking at the hand and back at Inuyasha, Sesshomaru stretched his hand out and returned the handshake.
Sesshomaru didn't want to leave. How could he leave Rin? What would happen to her after he died? Would she continue her life? Start a family and have children? Or would she be mute and lonely the rest of her life? He couldn't let that happen!! He at least wanted his Rin to know that he wanted her to move on after he died. At least that.
He turned to see his father still standing there. "Father…must I leave with you?" Sesshomaru asked. InuTaisho smiled, "If that is your decision, Sesshomaru." Sesshomaru said nothing. "What is your decision, my son?" He said softly. Sesshomaru looked up at his father. "I wish to stay, and live out the rest of my life." InuTaisho nodded in understanding. "Find happiness with her Sesshomaru, I know you will. I'm proud of you my son, for what you went through to save my grandson Hakashi and Rin and the other humans, and what surprised me is that you saved Inuyasha as well. And one more thing, tell Taromaru that he will learn the Backlash Wave with much needed practice before unleashing it." He chuckled at the last part. Sesshomaru looked at his father questionably. Who was he talking about? Before he could ask, InuTaisho put a hand on Sesshomaru's chest gently. "Goodbye my son. Until we meet again in the afterlife." Suddenly there was a powerful force that blew from the hand and Sesshomaru was sent flying back, but he didn't stop. He just kept falling backwards. The light, along with InuTaisho faded into darkness and Sesshomaru drifted into the lonely and antagonizing darkness once more.
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Later That Night…
Rin sat beside the guest bed where Sesshomaru lay unconscious. He had been like that all day and so far, all night. During that time, he showed no sign of recovery. The deep wounds on his chest and torso weren't healing properly, or really…not even healing at all. Sometimes, they would start bleeding on their own accord, soaking through the bandages and Rin had no trouble changing them.
As she lay there, she heard voices outside of the room. Kagome and Inuyasha were talking.
"Is he showing any progress?" Inuyasha asked
"No, his wounds aren't healing either. And that's what worries me the most. He might bleed to death." Kagome said.
Inuyasha sighed. "I still can't get that picture out of my head."
"What picture?" Kagome asked. "After he pushed me out of the way…he smiled at me and when I asked him why he did that, he said 'Protecting' and that's when the attack came." Inuyasha explained.
"If only I had thrown Tensaiga into the blast earlier, he might have had a greater chance of living. He may not make it this time…" Inuyasha trailed off.
"Don't say that Inuyasha." Kagome said, "He might make it, after all, he did survive the Windscar all those years ago."
"Well yeah, but that wasn't Tessaiga's full power and Tarakun's attack was more powerful than that." Inuyasha looked back to the ground. Kagome felt more worry. She just hoped Rin wasn't hearing this, and unfortunately, she heard every word.
Rin's tears dropped and tapped onto the wooden floor. They were right. Sesshomaru was in much worse condition now than he was when the Windscar hit him. But she would never dare doubt Lord Sesshomaru's strength. He must have some will to live? 'He won't die…Sesshomaru will not die!! He means too much to me to die!! Then a memory flashed in her head.
"Rin, obey me." Sesshomaru's voice rose with anger.
Anger took over and Rin exploded. "The reason I'm so damn depressed is because of your stubborn ass!! You don't care about anyone but yourself!!" She stormed off, not turning back to see his reaction.
Rin gasped. She remembered the last meaningful words that she said to him, and they weren't the loving kind of meaningful. "Does he think I hate him? Does he still think that I'm mad at him!? Oh, stupid me! I called him a selfish, stubborn ass and he risked his life to save me!! He should have just let me die! I deserve it for what I did to him!!" She whispered fiercely. "I don't want him to die thinking I hate him! I want him to know I love him!!" Rin cried harder. She sobbed silently for sometime until no more tears could come out. She looked at Sesshomaru, who looked so peaceful. His clothes were too tattered to completely cover his body, so Rin had draped some blankets over him to keep him warm. She leaned over the bed and gently kissed Sesshomaru on his cold lips. "I love you Sesshomaru…please don't die." She whispered through the kiss. She broke away and laid her head onto the bed. She was just too tired from the day's events to stay awake and she fell asleep.
Kagome crept into the room with Inuyasha following. They saw Rin sitting on a chair with her head rested on the side of the bed and dried tears along her cheeks. "Poor Rin." Kagome sighed and Inuyasha lifted her in his arms. "The bed's big enough for the both of them, can't Rin sleep next to him?" Inuyasha whispered. "I don't see why not?" Kagome whispered back. Inuyasha laid Rin on the bed next to Sesshomaru and Kagome spread a blanket across Rin.
"I feel so sorry for Rin. I know what she's going through." Kagome whispered. Inuyasha turned to her. "What?"
"How do you think I felt when I see you get seriously injured, huh?" Inuyasha shrugged his shoulders at her question. "Oh come on Inuyasha, I suffered. I was so worried about you dying, I watched over you like a mother hawk after all those times. That's what Rin's doing. Have you even thought about what Rin's going through? She loves Sesshomaru deeply."
Inuyasha took a deep sigh. "It's so obvious. Why couldn't they let each other know that one another loved the other." (Damn that was hard to type)
Kagome shrugged and they both left the room.
THENEXTMORNINGTHENEXTMORNINGTHENEXTMORNINGTHENEXTMORNING
Rin awoke to the sun's warm and bright rays to her face. She opened her eyes and noticed that she wasn't in the same position she was in last night. And, that she noticed that she someone was right next to her. It was Sesshomaru. Rin was a little dazed, but quickly realized that she was sleeping right next to him and quickly sat up and out of the bed.
"I shouldn't have fallen asleep! What if something happened to him last night and I wasn't there to help him!" She told herself, but the fear quickly changed when she looked at his face. The same peaceful expression. She sighed.
"Excuse me ma'm?" Said a small voice. Startled, Rin turned around quickly and saw Kohaku and Hakashi staring up at her. "Oh, hi guys." She smiled.
"Will Uncoo be awright? Hakashi asked in his small voice that used 'w' and 'o' pronunciations instead of the normal word, which was too hard for him to say.
Rin smiled at the two boys. "Yes, he'll be alright, thank you for worrying about him."
"Well, he did save our lives. And not to mention what that demon did to him was for us to live. It would be cruel and dishonoring to not pay our respects." Kohaku said and Hakashi nodded. Rin bent down to their height. "You two are the most sweetest and kind-hearted children I know." She leaned over and gave each one a kiss on the cheek. Their little faces turned crimson. Hakashi ran around the room laughing and cheering. "Yay!! I got my first kiss by a girl!!"
Just then, Kagome walked in the room. "Good morning Rin, I hope you slept well." She smiled.
"Yes Kagome, thank you." Rin said.
"Mommy, Mommy!! I got my first kiss by a girl!" Hakashi ran up to his mother. "See, see! Right here!! My first kiss!! Lady Rin kissed me right here!!" He put a finger on his cheek.
"Wow Hakashi, you're a real ladies man!!" Kagome faked awe, "Hey, why don't you go tell Daddy and Uncle Miroku, I'm sure they'll be jealous that you got a first kiss from a girl at such a young age!"
Hakashi took Kohaku by the arm and dragged him outside. "Come on Kohaku, lets go show off our manliness!!"
Kagome laughed at the two before turning back to see Rin. "So, how's Sesshomaru doing?"
"I'm not sure, his wounds don't appear to be healing and his breathing is still long and labored." She said sadly.
"Hey Rin, I got some new, warm clothes for you to wear. Your kimono still has dried blood stains from yesterday." Kagome showed her some strange clothing.
Rin looked at her kimono. She hadn't noticed the large splotches of dried blood from holding Sesshomaru's body yesterday. "Thank you Kagome." She said tiredly.
"Here, I found some baggy pajamas in my closet that I hardly ever wear. You might have to get used to wearing the baggy pants and button-up shirt though." Kagome handed her a pear of purple pajama pants and a matching button-up shirt that had blue stitch designs all over it. "You should go to the hot springs not close from here and relax. I'll stay here and watch over Sesshomaru."
"No Kagome, please, I-I can't leave him here! Please don't make me leave him!" Rin's vision blurred with tears.
"Alright, calm down sweetie, It's okay, you don't have to go, it was just a suggestion." Kagome hugged her to calm her down.
"Oh Kagome, I'm sorry, it's just that…I feel that he's not safe when I'm not with him. I need to be here…with him…to help him and protect him…I'm sorry, I hope you didn't take it the wrong way by thinking you're not responsible enough or anything like that." Rin choked.
"No Rin, I understand. Please don't cry. It'll all be back to normal soon. Back before this 'O-Kaitsu' and 'Tarakun' ever showed up." Kagome cooed.
Rin smiled at Kagome. "Thank you Kagome. You're like a mother I haven't had in almost decade." Kagome smiled and left the room, leaving Rin with the strange clothes.
After Rin finished dressing, she examined her clothing more. It was incredibly soft, as if she was wearing a big ball of cotton. It was baggy and roomy so she could relax more and the pants of the pajamas wrapped around the form of her legs, but also baggy and roomy, which usually, the only pants women could wear, were either for priestesses or for battles and training.
Rin sat by the bed and moved the blankets off of Sesshomaru. She undid the bandages to find that the wounds were still bleeding, although not as much, and they were still wide and deep. The worst of them were on his stomach and chest. Rin couldn't help it when her stomach lurched as she gazed upon the worst of the wounds. If you looked closely, you could see a hint of shining white bone. It amazed Rin that he was still alive, but also relieved that he was and that he was demon, if he was a human, he would certainly of died instantly. After she was finished with bandaging the wounds on his lower body and upper body, she checked his temperature. Rin put her hand on his forehead and quickly withdrew it. The poor guy was burning up! She put a cold damp rag on his forehead to cool him down. For a moment, Rin could swear she saw him twitch when the cold rag touched his skin. Maybe he was getting better?
After she was finished, she laid the blankets over Sesshomaru's lower half so that his abs and pec's were showing and he could get some air to cool him down. She lay on the foot of the large bed and started to think about what would happen after Sesshomaru woke up…or…if he ever did. Pretty soon, her eyes got heavy and she dozed into a small nap of dreams.
Rin's dream…
Rin was walking in her private garden at the castle. 'I wonder how I got here? Wasn't I at Inuyasha's village, tending to an injured Sesshomaru?' She thought to herself. Her thoughts were then interrupted when she heard the sound of footsteps behind her. She turned sharply and saw Sesshomaru. He looked magnificent. There were no sign of wounds on his being as he kept walking towards her. Wearing no shirt or shoes, just pants. His long, shiny, silver hair blowing in the gentle breeze with a peaceful expression on his face.
Rin ran towards him and into his embrace. Tears of joy overflowing her eyes as she spoke. "Sesshomaru…you're okay…you're alright! Oh, I was so scared that you were going to die and leave me!" She hugged him. He raised her head so that her eyes could meet his amber gaze.
"Rin, I would never leave you…never…" His seductive voice trailed off, as his lips got closer to hers.
"Sesshomaru…" Rin's voice trailed off as Sesshomaru's lips came in contact with hers and into a long and seductive kiss. His hands wrapped around her slim waist. Rin closed her eyes and returned the kiss. This has to be a dream, but she dreaded that it was.
Then something went wrong. Sesshomaru tightened his iron grip on her and his kiss became fierce and hard. His arms were so tightly wrapped around Rin that she felt the breath being rushed out of her being. Rin needed release from the kiss or else she would suffocate. He was now hurting her.
Rin pulled away from him. When she opened her eyes, she then regretted opening them. It wasn't Sesshomaru holding her anymore. It was someone else and that person frightened her, even though she knew he was dead.
O-Kaitsu
His red eyes and devilish smirk bore into her soul and sent shivers down her spine. She backed away from him, stumbling backwards and landing on her bottom, she tried to crawl away from him. Her moves only made him laugh at her.
"W-where's Sesshomaru!? What have you done with him!?!" Rin cried. O-Kaitsu laughed and turned to look behind him. The flower-filled scene of Rin's garden faded into an endless, hollow darkness. She looked past O-Kaitsu to see what he was looking at. She gasped and her eyes widened in horror. Sesshomaru was on his knees. His ankles, wrists, even his neck were chained. Tarakun stood before him. He was sinking knives into Sesshomaru's heart and stabbing him repeatedly with his sword. Tears fell down her cheeks as she saw him struggling through the pain.
O-Kaitsu was still laughing. "What's wrong my dear? Why do you cry for him? Didn't you say you hated him?"
"I said no such thing!!" Rin hissed and ran past O-Kaitsu. "SESSHOMARU!!" She screamed.
Tarakun and O-Kaitsu disappeared, but she could still hear their mocking and torturing laughs. Rin kneeled before the dying Sesshomaru. His eyes glazed over with death. He looked at her and whispered. "Rin…"
"Sesshomaru, I-I'm so sorry I couldn't help you!!" Rin cried.
Sesshomaru spoke brokenly again, "Rin…all I want…is to…kn-know that…you…don't…hate me…"
"Of coarse I don't hate you! Why would you say such a thing!?" Rin sobbed. Then a familiar voice echoed through the darkness.
"The reason I'm so damn depressed is because of your stubborn ass!! You don't care about anyone but yourself!!"
Rin sobbed harder. "I didn't mean it Sesshomaru, I was just upset from my own selfish reasons! I wanted you to love me and when you didn't, I guess I got upset and I lost control of my tongue!! I don't hate you Sesshomaru, I would never hate you!!"
Rin tried to cradle him, but every time she touched his flesh, the spot where she touched would burn and sizzle, leaving burning and oozing flesh. Then, she heard something that she dreaded to hear in her lifespan. Sesshomaru's last words. "I…I love you…Rin." And with, Sesshomaru's eyes turned gray and hollow and his body went limp. Her eyes sealed shut, not wanting to see the sight before her. When she opened them, Sesshomaru's body was gone. Instead, there was a blue and white flower floating in a small pool of blood…Sesshomaru's blood. Rin was shocked. It was the flower that she had found in the garden that reminded her so much of Sesshomaru. (chapter 1)
Rin picked up the flower and held it close to her heart as she continued to cry. Suddenly, the flower caught fire and it dissolved in her hands. And then…there was nothing. Rin felt like her life was spiraling out of control and then everything went black.
Rin shot up out of bed and into a sitting position. Her body shaking wildly, her head throbbing, and her face soaked with cold sweat and tears.
"A nightmare…a nightmare…it was all nightmare!!" She shrieked. Her dream playing, rewinding, and playing again in her head until she realized: "Sesshomaru!" Rin quickly turned her head to see Sesshomaru sleeping peacefully with the same peaceful expression. She slowly crawled over him, being careful not to fall on top of him. Rin brushed away some strands of hair that covered his closed eyes and kissed him gently on the lips. "Thank God…" She whispered and crawled back to the foot of the bed and put her knees to her chest and wrapped her arms around her legs. Rin buried her face into her knees and sobbed rather loudly like a child. She cried out of fear and exhaustion. She couldn't get away from the trauma, not even in the safest place: her dreams.
"Young maiden, why do ye cry as if there is no tomorrow?" said a gentle, feeble voice. Rin lifted her head to see an elderly woman in a priestess outfit. Rin recognized her.
"I-I know you. You're Lady Keade." She said. Keade smiled and nodded.
"Forgive me my Lady, but I thought you passed away some years ago." Rin said again as she dried her tears. "No child, my old spirit hasn't left this Earth yet." Keade smiled. She sat down in the chair next to the bed. "I have become too old to be the head villager, it comes with so much responsibility, so I gave it to Kagome and Inuyasha. I have simply stepped down, or as Kagome would call it 'retired'."
Rin smiled at her, but it couldn't hide the deep depression that Keade could see. "Tell me child, why do you cry so." Keade said softly. Rin sat on the edge of the bed with her feet touching the ground. Her voice trembling as she explained. "I-I had a horrible nightmare…about Sesshomaru. Those two demon brothers that you probably heard about…" Keade nodded as Rin continued. "They were…" Rin gulped, "they were…torturing him and laughing at his pain and struggling. I couldn't do anything to help him. I watched him die." She started sobbing again. "Before the demon Tarakun appeared, I had gotten mad at him…and said some things to him out of rage, that now, I deeply regret." Keade put a hand on her shoulder in comfort.
"Would you mind telling me what you said to him?" She asked.
Rin looked at Keade with swollen eyes. "To put in short: I called him a selfish, stubborn ass!" She cried out. "Sesshomaru might die thinking that I hate him! I don't hate him…I…I…I love him!!"
Keade thought about what she saw that day. Inuyasha's brother Sesshomaru had given up his life for everyone to be spared. But the demon Tarakun had double-crossed him and went back on his word. After he was through with Sesshomaru, he was going to kill everyone else that was left.
"He shouldn't have risked his life for me, Lady Keade!! I don't deserve to live after what he went through for me!!" Rin cried harder
"Rin, what are you saying?" Keade asked in disbelief of her words.
"If he ever recovers, I think he might hate me…I don't know, but I just have this bad feeling that he might resent me for hurting his pride like that." She said.
"Listen to me Rin. I saw everything that had happened and from the look in his eyes, you could tell he knew what he was doing. He was protecting everyone he cares for…especially you Rin. You heard what he said to Inuyasha. He said that he wanted you to live a full, rich life. Does that sound like someone who would hate you just because of a little pride-loss?"
Rin shook her head, she felt as if fifty pounds was just dropped off each shoulder. "Rest now child, you don't have to sleep, but you do need to rest those tortured eyes or yours."
Rin smiled at her and rested beside Sesshomaru. Lady Keade walked out of the room, but stopped out at the doorway and turned around. "Don't worry child, first love is always the hardest, but it always has a happy ending, no matter what the outcome or situation is…" Keade turned around and left the room.
Keade walked out of the hut to be greeted by Miroku, Sango, and Shippo. "How's Rin doing?" Shippo asked. Keade shook her head. "Poor dear. She's been through so much emotional pain." Sango looked at Miroku, then at Shippo. "I had no idea she loved him that much." She said. Keade nodded. "Although, I do have a very good feeling that Rin and that young demon male will live a long and happy life."
Sesshomaru…
Sesshomaru kept falling…from darkness and into more darkness. Never stopping.
Suddenly, he hit a hard surface and it literally knocked the breath out of him. As he struggled to get up, his body felt cold and stiff. He was soon paralyzed. 'What's happening to me? Why can't I move?' He thought. He suddenly heard cries from a female voice and he looked up to see someone that made his heart skip.
Rin.
He tried to say her name, but when his mouth opened nothing came out, no matter how hard he tried, he could say anything. He was mute and paralyzed.
But something else was wrong. When Sesshomaru looked into Rin's face, he didn't see that sweet, innocent smile that had always warmed his heart, no, it was worse. Her face was stained with tears and her eyes showed utter horror. What was wrong with her? What was wrong with his Rin?
Then suddenly, two figures appeared. One on each side of her. He suddenly realized who these figures were and snarled in disgust.
O-Kaitsu. Tarakun.
They were looking down at him, laughing themselves silly as Rin cried and outstretched her hand out to him. 'What was so funny to those two demon bastards!?' He suddenly saw red liquid seeping around his body and forming a pool of crimson. Blood. His blood! From their eyes, Sesshomaru was on the ground, bleeding to death. That's why O-Kaitsu and Tarakun were laughing at him. That's why Rin looked so traumatized.
Sesshomaru struggled to move, but failed. He tried to roar out Rin's name…but failed. He just laid there and watched as the three figures disappeared and Rin screaming his name over and over saying: "Don't die…please don't die Sesshomaru!!" 'Am I…am I really dying? Was Father wrong about me living? Would I die in the process of coming back to consciousness…? NO!! I, Lord Sesshomaru, Lord of the Western Lands will NOT die like this!!'
Just then, the flat surface underneath him gave-way and Sesshomaru started to fall again. He could screaming, tortured screams and men's laughter. 'Oh no…please no…those demon brothers…what they're doing to Rin…they're…NO!! I won't them touch her like that!! Rin!! Before he knew what was happening around him, he landed on another flat surface, this time, on his feet. Sesshomaru could now move. He could now talk. He turned around multiple times, trying to peer through the darkness and find Rin. Nothing. Silence. Darkness. Just then, he heard a voice, it sounded depressed and fragile, yet, calming and feminine.
Rin…
She was talking. But he couldn't make out what she was talking about, so he stood there and listened…
The Next Day…
Rin sat down in the chair next to the guest bed that held Sesshomaru's unconscious body. Kagome had heard about all the emotional trouble that Rin has been going through by Keade and she dragged Rin outside for some fresh air and sun. Kagome had filled her in about the events that happened during her stay in the guest room, watching Sesshomaru.
Rin felt as if she wouldn't be able to see a sun-shining day without bursting into tears. Smiling one of those large and truly happy smiles sent a wave of depression through her being. Smiling while Sesshomaru laid like this? When he was on the brink of death? Was she insane? The others went on with their lives, but not her. None of them, not even Inuyasha, knew Sesshomaru like she did. The cold-hearted, ruthless, blood vicious killer was what all the other beings in the world saw him as. But she saw that he was a gentle person inside. After all, would a ruthless, cold-hearted, blood vicious killer revive an eight-year-old orphan girl after being torn to shreds by a pack of wolves? Of coarse not! In the long, nine years that she had known him, he never showed any hatred toward her. Jaken, at first, gave her the cold-shoulder and ignored her questions and conversations, but Sesshomaru always listened, although it didn't look or seem like he was listening, he was and he was always there to help her from her pain. Emotionally and physically. She remembered the first time she became a woman, and that was something that she would never forget. When she told him about the bleeding and the painful stomachaches, he carried her to Inuyasha's village and Kagome and Sango helped her through everything. Once she learned what was happening to her, she was sure that Sesshomaru was going to send her away. She was terrified of the thought. But he never did send her away. Actually, he acted more gentle and open to her. He became a lot more overprotective of her.
Rin shook her head wildly, trying to forget all of her depression. She needed to get her mind off of all the memories of them together. Even if that meant talking to an unconscious person, she would get her mind off of everything.
"It's been almost 3 days since that day, Sesshomaru." Rin said to him. She knew she sounded like an idiot, but it actually felt good to talk to him. "Kagome filled me in on what's been happening. After Kagome popped Inuyasha's arm back in its socket, Inuyasha began to help the villagers rebuild on some destroyed parts of the village. Miroku's head injury is healing nicely. He doesn't have a concussion anymore. Oh yeah, Kirara and Ah-Un are doing fine. After they felt better from the paralyzing trance, Ah-Un fled to the Western Castle to fetch Jaken. Him and Ah-Un should either arrive soon or are outside and Jaken is throwing a fit."
Tears blurred Rin's vision. Who was she kidding? She tried to forget everything, but it just came back and slammed her with more sadness.
Rin sat on the bed on her knees and gently rested Sesshomaru's head in her lap. She brushed his bangs out of his eyes and continued running her fingers through them. Tears continued to stream down her face, but she quickly wiped them away before they could fall on his face.
"Sesshomaru…I want you to promise me something even thought you can't hear me." She calmed her crying and began. "Please promise me that…you'll wake up. Please promise me that you'll heal over this. I can't stand to see you like this, I just…I just can't take another day of seeing you struggle for your life." Rin held back a sob, which formed a painful lump in her throat. Her jaw quivered. "You have to promise me that you won't die. I can't live in my life knowing that you're not in it. Promise me that we will still be together after this. I can't live without you Sesshomaru, I…I love you."
Rin hung her head and closed her eyes and in a timid whisper, she repeated, "I love you."
Sesshomaru…
"Sesshomaru…I want you to promise me something even thought you can't hear me. Please promise me that…you'll wake up. Please promise me that you'll heal over this. I can't stand to see you like this, I just…I just can't take another day of seeing you struggle for your life. You have to promise me that you won't die. I can't live in my life knowing that you're not in it. Promise me that we will still be together after this. I can't live without you Sesshomaru, I…I love you."
"I love you."
Sesshomaru heard these words. He was shocked. 'She loves me…she loves me! I had no idea. Rin…'
Sesshomaru thought for a solution. A way to get out of this coma? How? Then, an idea popped in his head. Sesshomaru closed his eyes and concentrated. He inhaled deeply in through his nose and let the words he wanted to say to Rin flow through his mouth.
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"A promise is a promise." Said the unexpected, yet familiar voice. Shock instantly ran through Rin. She knew that voice.
TO BE CONTINUED…
Next chapter: Chapter 6: A Promise Is a Promise part 2
A/N: dun dun dunnnnn! Another cliffy!!! Sorry about the long waiting for this chapter, it's longer than my other chapters. Sorry about the ending, it was 2:00am on a school night when I finished this thing. I hope you enjoyed this chapter, the next chapters supposed be a humor/romance/drama.
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