Neon Genesis Evangelion - Nothing Will Ever Change This

Disclaimer- I do not own Neon Genesis Evangelion or any of the characters. I do, however, own the characters that I introduce into the NGE storyline.

Chapter 10- My Fault

"I'm coming Asuka…" I say aloud. Starting to push on the knife, I start to feel the sharp tip of it stat to puncture my skin, "I'm coming…" suddenly, I hear a woman shout and grab my hand. It was Misato.

"Shinji! What are you doing?" What does it look like?

"Misato… I killed… Asuka… Rei…" I can barley talk. I just wish she would let me go.

"Killed? No. The dumm…" I elbowed her away. I did not want to hear any excuses right now.

"I let the dummy plug take over! Did you see Asuka's face? DID YOU! She was terrified of me and I killed her! I promised to protect her with my life, but I was the one that killed her! I also killed Rei, I owed her my life and I killed her! Don't you ever say that it wasn't my fault… because it was." I was sobbing, knife still in hand.

"Asuka… is not dead," She better not be kidding.

"You'd better not be fucking with me Misato…" was she serious?

"Do you want to see her?" I answered quickly.

"YES! Take me to her now!" her eyes were full of concern.

"She… I wouldn't see her right now," To bad.

"Who cares what the hell you think? I'm leaving!" I get up out of bed and run down the hallway, looking into each of the rooms. I finally find Asuka's hospital room and go inside. I walk slowly to the edge of her bed, making sure this is not a dream.

"Asuka?" I ask, praying she is okay. She slowly turns her head towards me. The same face I saw before struck her.

"No… get… away… NOOO! Get away from me! Help!" I jumped back, scared out of my mind.

"Asuka… please…" I can't believe what I'm hearing. Is she really that afraid of me?

"Don't hurt me… please… don't kill me…" She is breaking my heart, hearing her beg like that is horrible.

"Asuka, I would never…"she cuts me off.

"LIAR! You said you loved me… and you tried to kill me. You don't love me… all you care about is Eva!" nothing could be farther from the truth. I grab her by the shoulders and make her look me in the eye.

"Asuka! Stop it! I do love you and nothing will ever change that! Remember those words? We both said them, and we both meant them!" she is silent now. Nothing is said for several seconds. "I love you…" I muttered. She says nothing, so I take action. "Damnit!" I lunge forward and embrace her in a tight kiss. After a couple of seconds, she loosens up and melts in my hands. I lean back and look in her eyes. "I love you, Asuka."

"Shin… Shinji? Why did you want to kill me?" with that, she fainted.

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NERV Hospital- 1 Week Later

I haven't left her side since that day. She has asked me too a couple of times, but when I refused, I would see a faint smile on her face. I explained to her that the dummy plug was the one that tried to kill her, she has accepted that and so have I. To an extent, I will always feel partially responsible for what happened, but not fully.

"Shinji?" She was trying to get my attention. I walk over to her bedside and kneel next to it.

"Yeah? Ya need something?" Lately, she has been more open to ask for something if she wants or needs it.

"What compels you to stay with me? I am in this hospital, and not to long ago I was terrified of you. Why do you want to be with me so bad?" she was having an emotional breakdown recently, so I've been trying to help.

"I already told you, you're everything I'm not. I need you around to keep myself going. I know that sounds selfish, but it's true. I need you just as much as – deny it or not – you need me." Another speech.

"I love to hear you say that…" she's actually telling me what she likes? That's something new.

"You're gonna be able to go home soon, 1 more day I believe Dr. Akagi said." And then I get to be with the real you again.

"Yeah, my birthday is also in six days. Don't think I forgot about your gift!" That's the girl that I love!

"You still have to tell me what it is you're having me do," I still had no idea what I was supposed to do.

"I'll tell you when the time comes… for now, I'm going to sleep." And she did so holding my hand.

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NERV Hospital- The Day After, 3:00

"Bye Dr. Akagi! Thanks for the help!" I called out to her. She saved Asuka, and was able to save her from physical scarring.

"Remember not to stress Asuka out, she is still recovering." Still recovering. I disagree with that. She seemed fine in my eyes.

"Shinji… can you carry me to my bed, like you did that one night? I feel comfortable in your arms." I did what I did before, I turned around and linked the back of her knees with my elbows, she wrapped her arms around my neck and we were off.

"Mmmm… this is nice…" she moaned as we entered her room. She looked so peaceful. I set her down on her bed, and started to walk off when she grabbed my arm.

"I said I wanted it to be like the other night… you slept with me didn't you? Well then come on, you look more tired than me." I got in and we took our normal pose of her arm and leg around me. I always fall asleep fast like this.

"Thank you Shinji… I love you," she said before falling asleep.

A/N- Scared you didn't I? Well, there both alive and back together. Sorry to all Rei fans out there. What does Asuka have planned for Shinji? Will her birthday be worth while? Find out in the next chapter; Asuka's Wish, until then keep on keepin' on!