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Hisoka's POV

Once again I felt myself waking up to the familiar feeling of being strangled. I felt too lazy to get up so I just tried to push whatever it was away. I stopped the instant I heard a slight whimper and felt the grip on me tighten. I slowly opened my eyes and found that it was still dark. I tried to move to get up and turn on a light, but realized there was something heavy on me. I tried to wiggle out from underneath it, but stopped when I heard it make a noise.

"hmmh...'Soka... you up?" asked a tired tenor I instantly recognized as Tsuzuki.

"Tsuzuki?!" I blushed as I yelled. "What the Hell are you doing in my bed you idiot?!" I felt myself blush even more as I heard him laugh. How could I not? I didn't just hear him laughing... I felt it. I could feel his actual movements over me as he laughed. I could feel his emotions via empathy. Happiness, elation, pleasure... They instantly went away as I felt his shield go up as usual.

"This is my bed." he said in a way which I could tell he was smiling. I felt myself blush more and then realization hit me.

"Tsuzuki. How did we get here from the couch?" I asked confused.

"I'm not telling! ." Tsuzuki said playfully as he got out of bed and turned on the light.

He's still in his work clothes? Oh that's right! The office.

"Seriously you baka! What's going on?" I yelled angrily as Tsuzuki slipped out of the room. He ignored my yells obviously trying to taunt me and walked out of the room.

"I'm gonna take a shower now." he yelled back as I heard the shower turn on.

"Baka..." I sat there muttering to myself wondering once again why I was waiting for that baka... And just why I was in his bed...

Tsuzuki's POV

The second I got in the bathroom I instantly turned on the shower, yanking the cold handle so hard I thought that I might break it. Ever heard of the phrase take a cold shower? Yeah, well, I need a cold shower now! Damn it! Why did 'Soka have to squirm around like that?! It was almost unbearable! Is he doing this on purpose? He must if he remembers how we ended up on the couch and I don't! How did we wind up on the couch anyway? What's going on?! I could feel myself aching down low.

Damn it! He makes me feel my best and worst at once!

As I began to undress I could feel the tightness in my pants. "I need him.." I began to whisper to myself. I knew it was wrong and I knew he could never return my feelings, but I couldn't help it! I wanted and needed 'Soka so badly I hurt! Oh, well. I knew it was just another time added to the multitude of times before that I'd felt this way.

I began once again wondering what 'Soka thought of me, what 'Soka would think of me if he knew how I felt, and what would happen if I told him... In my mind I knew none of the scenarios would work and he'd leave me hurt in the end, but after the dreams I'd had as of late I couldn't help it. I dreamt of myself defiling the angel that sat a mere room away. His presence in my apartment was almost haunting. I began to feel chills as I thought about him. He'd be sickened by these feelings if he knew. To him I'd just be another Muraki.

Just as I was about to get in the shower I heard a knock on the bathroom door. "Tsuzuki. Open up, it's me." I heard 'Soka say. He sounded upset so I wrapped a towel around my waist and opened the door hoping I hadn't done anything wrong.

"What is it 'Soka?" I asked nervously.

"We need to talk..." He said taking another step toward me.

"Oh.Ok! What do you wanna talk about?" I asked in mild surprise.

"I know you probably consider it a game not to tell me, but you need to tell me how we got to the bed. Now." 'Soka said giving me a slight glare. Not wanting to anger him I decided to comply with his request.

"Well, Hisoka when I woke up we were on the couch. We were both in our work clothes and you were laying on top of me. I wondered how we got there, but didn't want to wake you to ask. I decided you looked tired so I carried you into my room. I then lay you on the bed, tucked you in, and then climbed in myself. I decided I'd ask you how we got here in the first place when you woke up." I said in a serious tone keeping eye contact with 'Soka the whole time.

"Oh. Ok... " This new outlook on how things had come to be made 'Soka blush.

"Alrighty then... Your turn! How did we end up on the couch?" I asked rather playfully. I like it when 'Soka blushes.

"Um... Well. What happened was..." Hisoka started. He broke eye contact with me as he spoke. He seemed to be looking everywhere, except at me. He began to play with the collar of his shirt, which opened up more of the view to his collar bones, and I let out a slight groan as I felt myself growing hotter... only 'Soka could ever make me react this way at such a simple gesture.

"Yes, Soka?" I asked trying to get him to look me in the face. I didn't want him to continue looking around or he might notice something he shouldn't of.

"I was in-" Hisoka's eyes had been working their way up to my face when he stopped and blushed furiously. I immediatly knew that he'd seen my unattended arousal. He looked at me with realization on his face and then shot me a furious glare. "Take your shower and then we can continue this conversation later." He ground out in a startled yet firm voice as he turned and walked back out of the bathroom.

"But 'Soka wait!" I said trying to stop him. I was the one who was instead stopped. Hisoka had stopped walking and sent me one of his worst glares. I hadn't received a glare this bad from him since we'd first met. He'd had a gun then, but he seemed scarier now than he had then.

"No. I'll meet you at work Tsuzuki. I'll be late if I don't get home and changed. Do you want me to be late?" He asked me in a serious tone, still glaring at me.

"Of course not, I-" I started.

"Of course not because you'll be there waiting for me so you can make up the work you missed yesterday." With that said 'Soka left the room and I could hear him open and slam the front door behind him.

"I missed work yesterday?" I repeated confused. Last I knew, I hadn't missed work...

Hisoka's POV

I can't believe that my eyes had wondered to the waistline of Tsuzuki's towel... as if that hadn't been enough I'd caught him trying to relax an early morning hard on that I'd probably aggrivated with all my squirming!

It's no wonder he left so quickly!!! Gods! I can be so dense sometimes! To make matters worse I had to act like an asshole to cover up for the damn blush I could feel crossing my face... Tsuzuki probably thinks I hate him now or something! I thought to myself as I ran up the last few stairs to the front door of the summons department. I couldn't believe how stupid I could be... I'd yelled at Tsuzuki only three hours ago about being on time and here I am an hour late! I just couldn't bring myself to face him earlier...

As I reached our office door I slowed myself to a walk and evened out my breathing. I then entered the room and was surprised to find Tsuzuki asleep at my desk... That wasn't really the suprising part, that happened often after all. What surprised me was that he was shaking and fidgeting. ...A nightmare.

He's definetly having a nightmare. I thought to myself as I walked to my desk and looked at him. He looked scared and lost so I did the only thing I could think to do. I stroked his cheek. After a couple times doing this he seemed to calm signifantly. I figured that would calm him. He'd done it for me many times... when my dreams of Muraki had returned. He'd always been there to comfort me. Or at least most of the time. It was strange how he seemed capable of protecting everyone, except himself.

"Don't worry. I'll watch over you Tsuzuki." I whispered as I stroked my fingers through his hair. I watched as his eyelids fluttered slowly and opened. I felt like I was under a spell as he woke and slowly turned to look at me. I was surprised he'd woken, but I continued stroking his hair as if he hadn't.

"Soka... What are you doin'? Tsuzuki's rough tired voice ripped me from my enchantment and I began blushing.

"You were having a nightmare." I said quietly. Tsuzuki's eyes seemed filled with surprise and then hope.

"So your not mad at me?" He asked in an almost pleading tone.

"No." I said after a moment of contemplation. This made him give me a slight smile and I smiled back as he fell asleep once again. This time no nightmares seemed to come. I decided to let Tsuzuki sleep until around lunch since he seemed so drained.

My decsicion of letting Tsuzuki sleep fell through about an hour and a half before lunch when Watari ran into the room and informed me that Tsuzuki and I were needed for field work. Nodding I got up from Tsuzuki's desk (which I had cleaned while he'd slept) and turned to my own to wake him. After a few nudges, he just grunted which made Watari laugh. I sighed and began shaking him.

"Mmm... Soka hold still... This is only a twin matress..." Tsuzuki grunted out making me freeze and blush. Watari on the other hand cracked up laughing. Watari's laughter seemed to wake Tsuzuki seeing as he sat up and asked what was soo funny. I immediatly glared at him and smacked him with one of the many reports I'd finished while he'd slept.

Tsuzuki whimpered and turned to Watari with one of those 'What did I do?' faces. Watari opened his mouth to answer and froze as I quickly glared at him. He fortunatly got the message. Unfortunatly this is Watari so he quickly bounced back.

"Well Tsuzuki, I tell ya what. If ya try my sex-changing potion, I'll tell ya!" Watari said with a grin. 003 chirped at this announcment. Tsuzuki instantly made a hmm... sound like he was actually thinking about it!

"Ya gotta be kidding me! Come on Tsuzuki! We've been summoned!" I said quickly grabbing Tsuzuki by the arm and pulling him toward the door. I then stopped and turned back to Watari.

"Be careful who you cross... You wouldn't want Tatsumi to find out who's been stretching our budget on-" I cut myself off as Watari turned pale began shaking his head furiously with a resounding message of 'No! Please No! I'll behave!'.

"Good." With that I turned and pulled Tsuzuki down the hall toward Konoe's office. It's times like those that I'm glad I gathered material to use as blackmail againt him.

Hokkaido

Tsuzuki's POV

'Soka and I have been sent into Hokkaido due to several mysterious disapearances of people who were supposed to be on the Kiseki (catalog of the dead). We decided to start in the area of the last disapearance. Turning to look at Hisoka, who for the milionth time glared at me, I asked about the latest victim.

"Carole Mackenzie. Age 26. She's a foreigner who just moved here to be with her husband who works in medicine at Meio Hospital. They have no kids. She was suppose to die in a car accident after fleeing the scene of her husband having an affair with a nurse... Instead she never arrived and her husband died while "performing". He wasn't on the kiseki yet." I could see the disgusted look on 'Soka's face. He didn't like these kind of cases.

"What about the nurse?" I asked seeing as there was no mention of her.

"He's been missing since the incident." 'Soka said with a grimace. Shit. I could tell already this was gonna be a rough case for him. He didn't like the cases that dealt with-

"Wait a minute! Did you just say he?!" I asked with surprise. Hisoka just stared at me with hurt eyes which he quickly hid and nodded. He then continued walking ahead of me to the hotel the ministry booked for us.

I couldn't tell if the hurt look was from my reaction to the case info itself or my reaction to the fact that both our victim and the nurse were male. Of course I was sure it was due to his overall discomfort working with cases such as these. Even after the case with the priest and and boy 'Soka's age at the all-boys school neither of us were really used to these awkward ones. Sighing to myself I moved forward and patted 'Soka's head.

"C'mon 'Soka. Cheer up and I'll take ya to get ice cream!" I cheered with a grin on my face.

"Quit treating me like a little kid!" 'Soka protested knocking my hand off.

"But you are 'Soka! And kids love ice cream!" I grinned loving the blush that spread across 'Soka's face at that moment.

After a couple minutes of taunting and begging, I finally manged to convince him to agree to get some icecream with me after we checked in and reported back to the office for another briefing on suspects and their current locations.

Hey there folks! This is #BakaShinigami# ! I'm here to update for my buddy EmoCloud, so please try to be kind to me while he's off from writing, k? Ok, well I hope you enjoyed the update, if not... let me know and I'll try again later, if so... I'll update again soon and give you more bishie love! Alright well check ya later ///////#BakaShinigami# P. S - Early Merry Christmas!