Nothing Will Ever Change That
Chapter 72: I'm Gone
A/N- This chapter was reviewed by Frost-Eva-00. Thanks again for the help!
"DIE!" in an instant, he points the gun at her head and a loud bang echoes through the room one last time. Blood shoots behind her and splatters on the white carpet. The sight before me made me fall to my knees sobbing...
"A-Asuka…" I heard Akagi mutter. Asuka's face was white, and her eyes are still open. Her jaw hung loosely as she stared up. I tried to get up, to simply get to her, to hold her one last time, but my legs were utterly useless.
"Asuka, Asuka! God no! FUCK! Asuka… please don't leave me!" I was down on the floor sobbing and pounding on the carpet with my only good fist. Blood continued to run onto the floor.
"G-Gen… do…" I dart my head up so fast my neck cracks. Asuka was talking! She was alive! Wait… Gendo… he was… over Asuka…
"D-Don't… die on me… Asuka…" he had his hands on either side of her head and his chest over her head. "Are you… alright?" he coughs blood onto the floor over Asuka's head.
"Yeah…" he gives a faint smile.
"Good… take care of Shinji, okay?" with a soft laugh, he collapses on top of her. She rolls out from under him and stands up to face Gendo's killer.
"You… bastard… burn in hell!" he once again points the gun at her. She goes wide eyed at the gun aimed between her eyes. He pulls the trigger one more time… and all that is heard was a click. He pulled it over and over, and clicks after click echoed in the room.
"Who puts ONE bullet in a gun? No matter," he brings the gun up and hits her with the butt of it, sending her falling to the floor, "This will do just fine," he brought his foot up, and slammed it on her knee.
"AH!" a scream came from Asuka, and that was MORE then enough to send me over the edge.
"Karsten!" he turns to me as I charge towards him. By either dumb luck or skill I got him to the floor and was able to get on top of him, sitting on his stomach, I start to beat on his face.
"Get the hell off of me!" he tried to cover his face as I blindly punch at it, to no avail. I saw that he was starting to get a bloody nose, a broken nose, and his lip was slit wide open.
"You try to kill Asuka," I grab his lower jaw, "You kill my father," I pull it to one side, sending a cracking noise through the room, "You take my hand away," a loud yell of pain soon followed, "and you constantly beat on my love," I put my hand on one side of his head, "You WILL pay!" I press my thumb firmly into his eye socket.
"AAHHH!" his eye caves into his skull, and he blindly digs at his mangled head.
"Now you want to get away, don't you!" with one more move, I wrap my hand firmly around his neck and squeeze as hard as I could. His whole head starts to turn red, and I could feel him slowly slipping away… and I loved that feeling. I could feel his heart start to slow, his head turning purple, and his soul literally leaving for hell. I loved every second of his pain.
"Shinji, Get off him!" I feel a sharp tug at the back of my shirt. I turn around – my hand still on his neck – to see Akagi, "Don't kill him!" she finally managed to get me off.
"No! He has to die! I have to kill him! Let me go!" I struggle at her grip, but I was just too weak. She held me back as he slowly got to his feet. I stopped struggling when I finally saw him. I've never seen such a mess; crooked jaw, collapsed eye, blood leaking from his nose, mouth and a cut on his eyebrow, even broken cartilage in his ear. It looked like something out of a teen-slasher… and I loved it. With a quick grunt, he runs out of the building. "Asuka, Are you okay?" my heart felt like it was about to burst, my chest actually hurt.
"Ah… no… I'm not… my knee…" she said between breaths. Yet another cut has appeared on her face, sending blood falling to the already blood-stained floor. I look at her knee, and it was slightly bowed at the joint. It just looked like a dislocation to me. Akagi let go of me and went over to her.
"You're fine, just dislocated," thank God, "hold on, I'll put it back," with a quick jolt and a crack, her leg was normal again.
"Mmm!" she squinted her eyes at the pain, "Is… Gendo… gone?" Akagi jumps up and runs over to him.
"Gendo, Gendo!" she picks up his limp wrist and holds it for quite awhile, then drops it to the floor. She collapses on his back and cries into his bloody shirt, "Gendo! Please don't go… we're not done yet… don't leave me alone… not again…" done? Done with what? I go over and help Asuka to her feet.
"Ritsuko…" she whipped around and began to yell at me.
"You father is DEAD! You don't even care, do you? You're turning into a monster Shinji! You enjoyed watching Asuka's father dieing! You were smiling! The look in your eyes was terrifying! You almost killed your father before, and you enjoyed that! God Shinji, what has happened to you? Every life you try to take, you smile! You enjoy killing! You're not the sweet boy I know… you're a… monster… Asuka, take Dietlinde and get away from him! Don't trust him! For the love of God, run!" she goes back to sobbing over his corpse. I literally fell down at her words. My legs just gave out and now I was on my back on the blood soaked floor. Tears flow from my closed eyes as I lay there. She was right; I loved to watch him slip away. I wanted – hell, I WANT – to see him die. Seeing my father dead didn't bother me at all, in fact, it brought me a slight sense of happiness. I was a monster… what made me this way?
"Shinji… come on, let's go back to my room, we both need to get cleaned up," she offers a hand to help me up.
"How do you feel safe around me?" my voice was uneasy, I was still crying. She gives me a warm smile.
"Because I love you, now come on." I take her hand and we walk out together, leaving Akagi to mourn. The walk to her room was a long one. Her knee still hurt, so most of her weight was on my left shoulder, causing us to go extremely slow, but when we finally got to her room, my heart sank. We left Dietlinde after Asuka got done yelling her lungs out. She was still crying after all this time, "Shhh… its okay, mommy's here," she picked up Dietlinde and cradles her. The crying eventually subdued and Asuka put her back in the crib.
"Can you help me? I don't think I can clean this cut by myself," how was she acting so calm? My adrenaline was still pumping so hard I could lift a truck, and here she is cradling Dietlinde and asking for help with her wounds. It was beyond me; I just go to the bathroom and grab the first-aid kit. I come back out to see her sitting on the bed awaiting my return.
"I'm… sorry you had to see me like that…" I try and make up for my actions as I get the peroxide ready.
"He deserved it! Hell, I was about to kill him!" it was WAY different in my eyes. I literally tore him up; all she had to do was pull a trigger.
"Hold still for a second," I rub the cotton ball full of peroxide on her cut, and it instantly starts to bubble. She cringe a little as it did, but that soon went away. I wipe off the liquid and put a band-aid on it.
"You know what Akagi said wasn't true, right?" yes it was.
"Asuka… she was right… I loved watching him die… I wanted to feel his heart stop so badly…" she stared at me with wide eyes.
"Please don't say that… it's… scary when you say it like that…" she squirms in her seat, "Seriously, stop…" Once again, Akagi was right. I was scaring people around me.
"Sorry… look I just need some sleep; I need to get some stuff off my mind. You up for a nap?" she nods slightly. I start to take off the sheets to her bed and crawl in out of habit.
"Shinji?" she says my name as I get under, "Do… you mind sleeping… on the sofa? I think I'm going to need to prop up my leg, and I don't…" I cut her off. I didn't need to hear any lies.
"Sure," I crawl out of the bed and head for the sofa. She was afraid of me now, just great. The only person that had ever cared for me is cared of my very presents. What's the point of even trying anymore? Why do I care? I flop onto the sofa and fall asleep with thoughts of grim circumstances.
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Four Hours Later
I'm just waking up from my horrid sleep. I dreamt of nothing but Asuka's pain and fear. I was drenched in sweat to the point of my shirt actually becoming heavy. I look over at her bed to find that she was gone. Dietlinde was in her crib sleeping, so Asuka wasn't out with her. I check the bathroom and find that it was empty. The only other place I could think of was Sam's room, so I head down there after locking the door – I at least had to protect Dietlinde. When I get to Sam's room, I give a loud knock.
"Come in!" I open the door to see her 'watching' a comedian on TV, "Oh, hey Shinji, you need something?" how the hell…?
"How did you…? Forget it. Listen, have you spoken to Asuka lately?" she shook her head.
"No, I haven't talked to her all day, sorry. Is everything alright?" I start to walk back out of her room.
"I hope so," I mutter before I close the door back up. The only other place I could think of was the person I least wanted to see right now…Akagi. I had no other choice, so I headed to her office. "Ritsuko, Are you in there?" I hear a small hum. I walk inside to see her draped over her desk with a beer in hand and about seven on the ground, "Real nice… have you seen Asuka?" she looked up at me and laughed a little.
"I… told you about… Germany… she's gone, she ain't comin' back either," I walk over to her desk.
"You'd better be kidding me!" she slowly shakes her head, "Why the hell didn't you… forget it… where is she now?" she once again laughs, "I'm not joking here!"
"Whoa, calm down, she's fine. My guess is that she's somewhere above the Pacific right now," Fuck! They did take her back!
"When the hell did this happen!" she tried to stand up, but fell back into her seat.
"About three hours ago. The German Embassy came and demanded to see her. I called her down here and they took her on a plane in cuffs…" they hand-cuffed her?
"Thanks for the fucking help bitch," I mutter as I walk out. That was met with a small giggle. I had to catch a plane to Germany; I had to get there somehow. I had no money though! I can't work with one hand and I doubt NERV will pay for it! I had to do something about this… and I had an idea.
A/N- Like the little joke I played? Are you going to stop sending hate/flame mails now? Please? Well Asuka's gone NOW. How will Shinji get to her? Will he get to her? What was his idea? Will I pass my test tomorrow? Find out in the next chapter; I'll Do Anything, until then, keep on keepin' on!