Nothing Will Ever Change That
Chapter 88: Revenge
A/N- This chapter was proof-read by Frost-Eva-04. Thanks for the help man!
A/A/N- (wipes a tear from eye) Damn I hated writing this chapter…
Asuka's Room – Later That Night – 10:00 PM
This room has been silent for the most part the whole day. We were both laying on her bed staring up at the ceiling. Aside from Asuka feeding Dietlinde, me changing her diapers, and small talk with the baby, nothing was said. Not that I really wanted to talk, mainly because I knew it would be about what happened earlier today. Some things were said that… well… crossing the line just doesn't describe it well enough. Everything came out, Sam even insulted Dietlinde! Seriously, where did that slut thing come from? I'm the only person she's ever had sex with… aside from 'him'. I'm actually surprised that they didn't get into a fight; I could tell both of them were ready for it.
"Shinji…" I damn near jump out of my skin at her sudden comment, "Do you think what Sam said about Dietlinde is true?" I can see how she thought it, but like I said, I'm done with my 'job'.
"Not at all, she was just mad. I mean, if anything I'd be the problem, not you. I really don't see where she got the slut from," hell, Asuka's only had sex five times!
"Yeah, that was kinda random. I'll only be with you," she put a hand on my chest, "and I only WANT you…" I feel the same way. Come to think of it, this was the first time she's said anything like that.
"Yeah… same here," the room once again went quiet. Damn I hate this silence! It's killing me! After a few minutes, I had to break it, "It's getting late, we should go to bed," like hell it was late! It was only ten!
"If you want to…" she reached over and turned off the only light source in the room, leaving the room pitch black. She laid her head on my chest and swung a leg around my body, just like always. I close my eyes and TRY to relax, but my mind kept on wandering. Whether it be from the fight today or the fact that we got married just a few hours ago, I was thinking about it. I can't believe that SEELE asshole ruined my wedding! I wanted that to be perfect, but instead he had to come along. He DID pay for it though! After half an hour, I finally fall asleep, dreaming of my new bride.
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Around 3:30 AM
"Mmmmm…" I wake up to Dietlinde whining, and it sounds like she was about to cry. I start to get up out of bed, but Asuka grips me tight, making it impossible for me to leave.
"Just give her a second… I want to see if she'll get over it on her own," testing Dietlinde mental strength? She's a baby!
"MmmMMmmm… mmm…" she seemed to calm down after that. That first whine got pretty loud, but we both brushed it off.
"See? Our daughter's strong on her own. I know that we both love her, but she needs to learn to become strong. We'll always be there for her, and we'll never let her get hurt, but we have to stand back every now and then. Okay?" well, she WAS Asuka's daughter! She was right though, we had to act like more of a guardian angel then a shield. With a smile, I lean back and relax. Soon enough, I fall back asleep.
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Morning – 10:00 AM
"Hey Shinji, wake up," I slowly open my eyes to see Asuka staring up at me with a smile, "it's getting kinda late, we should get up."
"Do we have to? I'm comfortable…" I start to close my eyes again, wanting nothing more then to fall back asleep, "Just give me ten more minutes, then we can get up, I promise…"I couldn't help but shiver a little. It seemed really cold in here.
"Okay, fine… just move your arm, it's kind of annoying me now," my arm was draped over her shoulder, but she never seemed to mind before. I take it away and rest it on my stomach. Her smile turns into a glare.
"Oh come on, you know damn well what I'm talking about! You're elbowing me in the stomach!" what the hell was she talking about? Both of my arms are on my stomach, one above the sheets and one below.
"No I'm not, is it a pillow or something?" she rolls her eyes.
"No! It's not!" with a quick thrust, she rips the covers off of us, trying to prove her point. I don't avert my stare at her as she does though. She looks down and instantly goes white as a ghost. Her eyes were also wide. I could feel her starting to breathe heavily as she stared down.
"Asuka? Are you okay?" I look down and go just as white as her.
"D-D-Diet…" I grab her and leap out of bed, throwing the covers back up as I do. She still stared at the bed as we stood in the middle of the room. My heart felt like it was about to bust out of my chest, and my knees began to feel like water. Asuka fell to her knees and began to sob fully into her hands. I still stood there staring at the small lump under the sheets. A large red spot was surrounding it. Right next to her, I fall to my knees, finally succumbing to my weight. I felt two small streams of tears start to run down my face, "Dietlinde!" Asuka was still sobbing into her hands. Slowly, I get up and walk to the side of the bed. I grip the top of the sheets and pull them off.
There in the middle of the bed, surrounded by a large red spot, was the head of an infant… Dietlinde. Her eyes were still open and blankly looking up at me. Please… for the love of God… let this be a dream…
"Dietlinde…" I stare down at her, now with fully flowing tears.
"FUCK!" I hear Asuka slam her fists on the floor, but I don't look at her. I look down at my clothes, now stained from the chest down to my pelvis with blood. Asuka was the same way. Out of nowhere, I hear a knocking at the door.
"Asuka? I was walking by and heard you scream, are you okay?" it was Akagi. Neither of us moved, we both just stayed in place crying. Once again, my knees give out, ending with my sobbing into the bed sheets, "Hello? Are you okay?" still, neither of us said anything, the only thing that could be heard was a heavy whimpering, "Answer me now or I'm coming in!" after two more seconds, the door swung open, "Asuka? What's- oh my God!" I bring my head up and look at her staring down at Dietlinde.
"Please… let this be a dream…" I'm practically begging her. She stood there, simply staring at Dietlinde with wide eyes. Slowly, she made her way over to the crib. She peeked inside and instantly vomited onto the floor.
"AHHH!" Asuka screams into the air as she sobbed. That whining last night… it wasn't her crying… it was her asking for help… someone got in here. Someone killed my daughter. I should have gotten up… I should have gotten up and just ignored what Asuka said. I could have saved her…
"G-Get me… security… in Asuka's r-room…" I saw Akagi talking into her phone, tars flowing down her face. Within a few seconds, the room had four large police men in it.
"Holy shit…" one of the men stared at the bed while the rest were over the crib. Slowly, I get up and get down next to Asuka. She instantly lunged at me and cried into my chest as we sat there.
"Dietlinde! AHH!" she once again screamed. Asuka held me tight as she possibly could, and I had my head resting on hers. Tears dropped onto her hair as I cried freely. How could I let this happen? What did Dietlinde do to deserve this? She was just a baby…
"Sorry, but I'm going to have to ask you all to leave…" one of the men walked up and put a hand on my shoulder.
"She… was my daughter…" he looked down on me with uncaring eyes, "I won't leave…" I wasn't about to just up and leave this room.
"Yes you will. Hey Sai, get these kids out of here," a men walks up to me and grabs my wrist.
"Okay, time to go," he began to drag me and Asuka away. I didn't really fight too much, not that I was even able. I could barely breathe, let alone fight. He took us out in the middle of the hallway and simply left us there. he walked back into the room and slammed the door shut.
"Asuka…" that was all I could mutter. Nothing else came to mind. Seeing Dietlinde… God… that's going to haunt me for the rest of my life. Her beautiful blue eyes stared up at me lifeless, and I couldn't do anything about it. My child was dead… and I can't do anything.
"Please… don't tell me she's gone! Just tell me that I'm asleep…" I wanted to so badly, "Just fucking kill me!" she punches at the wall an actually leaves a hole, "I can't take this! Just kill me… we were going to raise her together… she looked up to us as parents… don't tell me she's dead!" her eyes were shut tight as she screamed. "AAHHHH!" she let out another scream as she cried.
"Why didn't I get up… why didn't I help her…?" she continued to cry, and so did I. Why did this have to happen? Who did this? YY? One of T-Bone's guys? No, none of them knew my name. Sam? She may have been pissed, but not that bad. Suddenly, it hit me like a ton of bricks, "SEELE…"
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Akagi's Office – One Hour Later
We were all sitting in Akagi's office. Both me and Asuka were still crying, but I tried to keep my composure. Asuka on the other hand was sobbing. Ritsuko said that she needed to talk with both of us. Hell, even she was still crying.
"O-Okay… we know what h-happened… as you know, Shinji is being hunted by SEELE…" she took a long pause.
"SEELE did this! Why the fuck did they kill Dietlinde? Why didn't they just kill us!" Asuka had that raging fire in eyes.
"It… was a warning…" a fucking warning! "They're telling you to drop your position. They tried this with Gendo, but he brushed it off." They tried it with Gendo? I'm his only son! Forget it, I need something else right now.
"Let me see the MAGI, now. No questions, now comments, just take me to it." She looked at me with a confused face, "What is so fucking hard to understand about that? Do you speak Japanese? Take… me… to… MAGI." With a shaking head she gets up.
"Fine, do what you want," with Asuka still clinging to my body, I get up and follow her out of the room. We silently made our way to a large room with a huge screen on the wall. Without a word, Akagi left us alone.
"What… are you doing?" she releases me and I walk over to the keyboard.
"Finding SEELE. If they are above NERV, then this thing should at least tell me where they are." Slowly, she made her way over to my side. After a few minutes of poking around in files and documents, I finally find one of SEELE. At the bottom of the screen were a few numbers that said '143 E, 40 N'. "Okay, that's enough. I'll be back later," I get up and start to walk out of the room.
"Please… don't leave right now… I don't want to be alone… I can't be alone…" I turn and look at her still teary eyes.
"You can stay with Akagi, I'm going to SEELE. Like I said, I'll be back later. Love you," I give a wave and walk out of the room. I hear the door swing open soon after I close it.
"You're not going…"what was she saying? Of course I was going! "Unless you take me with you…" I turn and look at her, now with a mildly proud look on her face.
"No, I'm not going to lose you too. Just wait here," I once again begin to walk off, but she grabs my hand.
"I'm going…" she still had a pale face and tears in her eyes.
"You could get killed, you know that, right? This isn't going to be like fighting an angel." She shakes her head.
"I'm going… drop it…" That voice tone – for some reason – made me accept her demand. I knew that she shouldn't be going, but her of all people wanted revenge. I had to make a stop first.
"Okay, but I need to talk with an old friend. You can come with if you want," we both walk out to my car in silence. When I finally start up the car and begin driving, she speaks up.
"W-Where… are we going?" the last of her tears are drying up. I swear to God, SEELE is going to pay.
"We're going to Rei's…"
A/N- Just so you know, I actually cried during this chapter. That's right, I literally started to cry as I wrote. Find out what happens in the next chapter; That Song, until then, keep on keepin' on!