Nothing Will Ever Change That
Chapter 102: A Day Out
A/N- This chapter was proof-read by Frost-Eva-04.
Asuka/Shinji's Room – A Few Minutes Later
"Sorry I put you through that, I don't know what happened," we were walking back into my room after I left the hospital, "But thanks for getting help…" without giving him time to react, I peck him on the cheek, "You saved my life…"
"I-I… uh… n-no problem…" he blushed deeply. So like him!
"Go ahead and get changed then we can go," he kept his head down as he grabbed clothes out of the closet and walked into the bathroom. After a few seconds, I hear a sound coming from the bathroom… a lot of sound.
"Holy crap!" sounds like he just got a look at his body! Should have seen that coming, he still thinks he's still fourteen… a lot has changed sense then! Puberty sure scared the hell out of him! A few minutes later he walks back out with an even deeper blush, "You could have warned me before I got dressed…"
"Yeah, sorry about that… I got some bad news for you though… you gotta shave. Five-o-clock shadow just isn't your look…" he rolls his eyes as he walks back into the bathroom. Good thing he had an electric shaver! He'd end up walking out with toilet paper all over his face if he didn't! He once again walks out with a clear face.
"Any more surprises?" I chuckle.
"Nah, that's about it. Ready?" he nods and we walk out to the parking lot… I think I should drive! When he sees my car he nearly faints.
"T-This is your car! How did you afford this?" I didn't…
"My husband bought it for me before he passed away… pretty nice huh?" my husband didn't pass away…
"Yeah… really!" he was standing right next to me…
"You gonna just stare at it all day or get in?" my husband was right here…
"Sorry…" why did it take me so long to see it? Shinji is right here, MY Shinji is right here. He might not remember any of it, but we still share a bond that won't – that can't – be broken.
"So, where do you want to go?" he simply shrugs.
"I don't know my way around here, you choose," with a smile, I drive off. I knew exactly where to go.
"Hey Shinji, if you don't mind me asking, what was it like where you used to live?" I never knew about his past before NERV, so might as well find out now, right?
"Well, like I said before, after my mother died I was sent to my aunt and uncle's house… they were both assholes. My uncle was a raging alcoholic – a mean one at that. He would occasionally lose his temper when he was drunk and hit me. To my knowledge, he never hit my aunt though. She was – in short – a bitch. She rarely even spoke to me, but when she did, it was always a command to do something around the house, normally cooking. I learned to cook over a flaming stove at seven. I still remember standing on a chair to reach the stove…" he chuckled a little, "I remember one time when both of them were drunk – my aunt rarely drank, but when she did, it was a lot – I made chili for dinner. Instead of using ground beef for the meat, I used their cat's litter box! Needless to say I didn't eat that night… but they ate every last bite!" he busted out laughing. I had to admit, that was funny as hell. Who would have thought that he went though such hell before he moved here? I wonder if Gendo knew about all that…
"Wow… vengeful brat!" I playfully slap him on the shoulder.
"Yeah well, they deserved it! Man I hated them!" his laughing stopped and he calmed down a bit, "So, where are we going?"
"The beach…" our beach…
"The beach? But I didn't bring any trunks or anything!"
"Don't worry about it; we can just hang out there. I need a tan anyways…" I did too! I was starting to get pretty white! Shinji on the other hand was fairly dark. How Akagi managed to get even his skin color back the way it was before was beyond me!
"Oh… okay…"
"Like I'd let you see me in a two-piece anyway!" might as well embarrass him… I'm bored. His blush once again came on and he didn't say a word, "You really need to loosen up!"
"Sorry…" man I hated that! I need to break that habit of his before he drives me insane! It took me almost a full year before to do that… I hope it's easier this time!
"Quit apologizing for things you didn't do, it's kinda annoying."
"Okay… how about you tell me a little bit about your past? I barely know anything about you!" damn it… I have to tell THIS story again.
"Wow… you're asking a lot here. Okay, this is a long story, so get comfortable. I was raised in Germany from the time I was born until I was deported to Japan when I was fourteen. My good for nothing father walked out on my mother, leaving her a single parent. She was half Japanese herself, and my father was full German. Well, up until I was seven my mother was fine, but then she went mentally insane from the stress of being a single parent. That's how NERV heard of me. I had only one parent that the government knew of, and the other one wasn't able to care for me. So they took me in and began to train me to pilot an Eva. That's a whole different story though. Well, I would visit my mother every day to see her. Remember, I'm only seven at the time; I was still very attached to her. Then when I was getting closer to eight I run into her room to see her hanging from the ceiling…" I hear a small gasp escape from his throat, "Yeah… well, she also had a doll with red hair hanging next to her… she saw that doll as me. She wanted to kill me…" saying that really doesn't affect me anymore. I really don't care what she did; I have my own family now.
"Wow… so then after you moved to Japan, what happened?" I was fairly surprised that he wanted me to go on.
"Oh yeah, okay, well when I moved here I had already learned Japanese, so I was fine. Then I met my husband for the first time… he was such a wimp back then. I actually hated him for a short while. I ended up having to move in with him and Major Katsuragi – she was the commanding Major of NERV. Life went on as normal, we fought angels, we fought each other, typical behavior," yeah, for a superhero! "Then, after the fourteenth angel, Shi-…" I stop myself from saying his name, "He got us into a collage party by flashing his NERV ID. We both thought it was a fun idea, you know, hang out with older, seemingly 'cooler' kids then us, what could go wrong, right? Well… a lot went wrong…" memories of that night come rushing back to me, "I… I was... raped when we were there…" another gasp emits from him.
"Oh my God…"
"Yeah… I was only fourteen, and I had just lost my virginity to some eighteen year old stranger… I was terrified. My husband-to-be beat the living shit out of the guy and took me home… he took care of me that night… he never left my side…" that wasn't entirely true, but it was close enough, "Not too long after he told me that he loved me at the very beach that we're going to right now. 'Nothing will ever change that.' That was his promise to me. He said that he'd love me no matter what, and that held true until he died. So yeah, that is Asuka Langley Ik-… Souryu…" damn it… again!
"You really loved him, didn't you?" I still do love you…
"Yeah… I did… with all of my heart…" look down at my wedding ring, "And I know he still feels the same way…" I KNOW he does…
"I'm sure he does. He sounded like a great man, Asuka… you were lucky to have him," I'm lucky to have him now… God I want to say 'I love you' so badly right now…
"Yeah…" the rest of the drive – which was only a few minutes – was in silence. When we finally got to the beach I took him to the exact same spot we were that day, "Well, this is it. This is where he finally said those three words to me," sadly, I didn't say them to him.
"Wow… nice choice of setting on his part!" he fell back onto the sand and put his hands behind his head.
"Yeah, it was," instead of lying down, I sit down and hug my legs as I stare out at the rippling ocean, "I'm never going to forget that moment, I loved it."
"Hey, mind telling me about your wedding? I noticed your ring, pretty nice."
"Sure and thanks. Well, during our vacation to Miami when we were fifteen, we were celebrating our year's anniversary of admitting to each other how we felt. It started with a simple dinner, and then we went into the hot tub and relaxed for a little bit. After that, he went into the shower. I… okay, I'm not going to lie here, I was planning on what happened since we planned the vacation. When he was in the shower, I got into a pair of black bra and panties, and then waited for him to come back, pretending I was asleep… when he finally got out of the shower… I'm not going to sugar coat it, we had sex. I still don't regret it, but I feel that I could have made some better choices. When he was about to pull out, I wrapped my legs around him and made him come inside me… I still don't know why I did that, but I don't regret it. Well, two weeks later I was late… really late. I was pregnant with my first child, Dietlinde. When I was seven months pregnant – and having my baby shower – he proposed to me. He proposed to me in front of everyone, at least thirty people saw it… and I said yes. When he put that ring on my finger… my heart sank. I knew that I'd be spending the rest of my life with him… and I was happy. Our wedding came a lot later. We… kinda went through some stuff… I'll tell you later. Anyway, we had fifty million Yen for the wedding, and we barely used half of it! That was the happiest day of my life… my daughter was there… she looked so happy for us, even though she was still very young. On our honeymoon – which took place in out room – we had sex… a few times actually… we conceived our second child that night, the one I'm carrying right now… I guess I went a little too much into detail, huh?" I basically told my life story today! When he didn't respond, I turn around to see him sleeping with a smile. Smiling myself, I lay next to him propped up on one elbow, "I love you Shinji Ikari… nothing will ever change that…" I gently kiss him on the lips and lay on my back.
I eventually fall asleep myself, hoping that this all was a dream in itself… too hopeful thinking…
A/N- It's that time again people! Flashback! Since it will all be a flashback, I won't be using italics. This part does classify as lemon, but it doesn't go too far.
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Collage Party – 2015
"You want something to drink Asuka?" we were just walking into the house – which was filled to the rim with booming sound waves.
"No, and don't think that you're going to make a move tonight Third!" I really hated when he acted all friendly with me! Knowing him he'd probably drop a roofie in my drink!
"I won't… I'm going to get one though," with his head hung low, he walks to the table filled with food and drinks. That's right Third, keep on walking! Nothing but a house-broken male!
"Hey beautiful, how ya doing?" I turn and end up having to look up to a man staring down at me with a smile.
"Whatever…" friggen collage students.
"Aww, come on, this is a party! You should be having some fun!" I don't care how much bigger then me he is, I'm not going to be treated like this by him!
"Okay, listen close, because I'm not going to repeat myself. I know how all you men are, all you want is sex, well guess what? I'm not giving up any!" he smiles and holds up a hand.
"I'm not like that, don't worry. Sorry if I came off a little strong, how about we start over?" he holds his hand out to me, "My name is Muysuko, and what's your name?" I bust out laughing.
"That's a girl's name!" he scratches the back of his head nervously.
"Yeah… my dad wasn't exactly smart…" we both have a pretty good laugh. This guy wasn't half bad, I had to admit.
"The name's Asuka, Asuka Langley Souryu," I shake his hand with a smile.
"Nice to meet you Asuka. You have a beautiful name by the way," guys goggling over me, what's new?
"I know! So, how about you be a gentleman and get me a drink?" he smiles warmly… I like this guy! Not like that dumbass Shinji!
"Sure, what do you want? I think all we really have is Coke and beer… ever had beer?" I'm fourteen… what does he think?
"No, not really… is it any good?" I see Misato drink it all the time, so it's not like it was anything new for me. She says it 'cleanses the soul'; all I see it cleansing is her stomach when she vomits!
"Eh, it's okay… want one? I can sneak one to you if you want," like he said, it's a party. Might as well.
"Sure, why not?"
"Okay, but you'll need to go into a room. A guy will call the cops in a second if he sees you drinking it. Just meet me back in the room down the hallway and to the left, I'll be right back," with that, he walked off. I did as I was told and walk into the small room.
"Wow…" I muttered at the sight before me. It was actually spotless even with this party going on! It had a single full-sized bed in the middle with a TV in front of it. I sit at the foot of the bed and wait for girly-man to come back. After a few seconds of waiting, I see the door open.
"Hey guys, I'll get back with you later, see ya," he closes the door behind him and pulls out a beer from behind his back, "Here ya go, hope it's not too strong." He tosses me the un-opened can… okay, no roofie.
"Thanks…" I stare down at the can and hesitate before popping open the lid and taking a small sip. A little bitter… it's kinda nasty, "Ew… okay, I'll pass on the drink, thanks though." He sits next to me and takes the can, then downs the whole thing with one gulp.
"Yeah, it's kind of a mature taste… either that or my taste buds are worn off!" we both laugh a little… did he just dink after me? A little odd, but I brush it off.
"You know, you're not like a lot of the guys I know. You're not an asshole!" I think I just sounded a little too friendly right there…
"Thanks… you know, you're pretty mature for your age…" he set his hand on top of mine.
"Whoa! Back up!" I get up and start to walk out of the room, but he grabs my wrist.
"Oh come on, lighten up!" I try to get my wrist away, but he was WAY stronger than me. I go to kick his groin, but he just moves to the side and dodges it, "Damn, feisty, aren't we?"
"Let go of me you asshole!" he whipped my body towards his and pulled me into a deep kiss. He thrusted his hand behind my head and made me lay down on the bed. I struggled to get up, but I couldn't. He slipped his tongue deep into my mouth, forcing me to realize exactly what is happening. He pulled back and held my other wrist tight against the bed, "What the fuck is your problem! Let go of me!" I couldn't get away… I really couldn't get away…
"I thought you liked me…" he reached down and grabbed my right breast and started to message it, "Like I said, mature…"
"Stop it you pervert!" I roll over – making my shirt tear. Nice one Asuka! Now I'm on my Goddamn stomach!
"You're hurting my feelings Asuka…" he rolled me over and held both of my wrists in place with one hand. He reached down and undid my zipper and the button of my shorts, "Come on, have a little fun…" he pulled them down to my mid thigh.
"Get off damnit!" he held both of my legs in place by sitting on them… I was helpless… please help…
"No, I'm pretty comfortable right here…" he reached for the bottom of my shirt and pulled it up to my neck, "Nice rack…" he brought his hand down one last time and undid his jeans, throwing them off as he did.
"NO! Stop it! Get off!" while his hand was down there, he pulled my panties down along with my shorts, "Don't do that! Stop! Please stop!" I'm basically begging him at this point.
"Please won't do it Asuka… this'll go easier if you just stop struggling…" I could feel him pressing against my thigh.
"STOP! Don't do it! Please stop! Please!" the look in his eyes were demonic… it was scary… my eyes were teary at this point. He just smiled down at me, "Please… I-I'll do anything! I… I can have NERV pay you! Anything you want! Just don't do this!" he just chuckles.
"I don't care about money…" he reaches down and positions himself.
"NO!" I feel him thrust in quickly, "AHHH!" my eyes clench shut in pain… it hurt so bad… he just broke me…
"Yeah… that's sexy…" he begins to thrust in and out.
"S-Stop it… uh… STOP!" tears are rolling down my face freely. It hurt so Goddamn bad… someone make him stop… "G-Get… off of me…!" my struggling went to waist… he continued and never even stopped for a breath.
"I know you like it…" after a few minutes of struggling and screaming, I was getting seriously tired… but I had to get away! "Just let it go Asuka…" I won't give that son of a bitch the satisfaction! I won't…
"AHHH!" I just did…
"There ya go…" he goes inside me one last time… he didn't even pull out… he just… oh God… what if I just got pregnant? "Wow… not bad Asuka…" he pulls out and hovers over me.
"Y-You… fucking… asshole…" I finally got in the position to knee him in the stomach, and that's exactly what I did. He falls to the ground and I leap up. I pull up my shorts and pull my shirt down as I run out of the room sobbing.
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Beach
"Asuka! Wake up!" my eyes jet open. I was panting and sweating heavily just like this morning… only this time I was crying… Shinji was hovering next to me with a concerned look on his face, "Are you okay? You were talking in your sleep…"
"Oh God…" I bury my hands in my face. That was the first time I've had that dream… I never want it again… I don't want to relive that… to my surprise, Shinji takes me into his arms. Without thinking, I hug him back.
"You're okay Asuka…" I wasn't exactly sobbing, but I was crying, there was no getting around that.
"I lost it to him…" one simple choice made me go through that… I should have treated him better… if I had… none of that would have happened…
A/N- I've been dealing a lot with emotions lately, and expect that to continue for awhile. So, do you think Asuka will get closer to Shinji? Will Shinji even make a move now? Find out in the next chapter; Truth, until then, keep on keepin' on!