Nothing Will Ever Change That
A/N- This chapter – as always – was proof-read by Frost-Eva-04. Thanks for the help! Oh, and also, concerning The Effects Of Puberty, I haven't been able to update it because of some personal issues. I'll get the next chapter up as soon as possible, the only reason I keep updating this fic is because these chapters are pre-written.
Chapter 105: Guidance
A/N- As much as I like to write with Asuka's first person, it'll have to end here. This fic is based off of Shinji's point of view, not Asuka's. So yeah, say hello to Shinji again!
Asuka's Room – Morning – 8:00 AM
Last night, Asuka was different… normally she would be loud during sex, but last night, she kept quiet the entire time. She stared at me smiling most of the time, it was actually kinda cute. One thing that did catch me by surprise is when she pulled me close to her and asked me never to leave. What makes her think that I would? Okay… stupid question… but I wasn't mentally stable. I wonder if she knows just how much I adore her. Like always, she had her head on my chest with her leg around my waist. This last month had been… interesting to say the least. I met Asuka for the first time again… does that make sense? It was true though, no matter how hard I try, I still see it as my first time meeting her. I got my hand back, which is odd because I remember waking up from my REAL coma after the fight with Gahiji without a hand, then I wake up from the cloning with one… it was weird. Then there was my time with Asuka when I thought I had woken up from a coma. She really opened up to me; sure, it was about OUR life events, but I didn't remember them at the time, so it doesn't really count. She was intense in thought; I don't even think she felt most of it. I had to admit, I liked the peace of mind during the act. I actually remembered to wear a condom last night, so we really didn't have to worry about anything. Sometimes I wish I knew what was going on in that head of hers… but then that'd be too easy, right?
"Shinji, Asuka, can I come in?" I hear Sam knocking at the door… ah crap! I leap out of bed and grab my clothes – which were carelessly thrown across the room – and get dressed as quickly as I could.
"Hold on Sam, I'll be right there," I go back to the bed and wake Asuka up, "Asuka, Sam's here, get dressed," even she goes wide eyed and throws her clothes on. After giving myself a few seconds to slow my heart down a bit, I open the door to see her looking at the ground blushing.
"I… need some help…" I really didn't like the sound of her voice.
"Sure, come in," I guide her inside ad she takes a seat on the sofa.
"Okay, so it's more that I need advice than help… Asuka? When you first got pregnant… how did you feel?" okay, REALLY not liking the sound of this.
"Me? Well, for one I was scared out of my mind, but that eventually went away. Why?" Sam's blush grew a little deeper.
"Well… I'm pregnant…" Asuka nearly falls backwards, me on the other hand… I was simply in shock, "What am I supposed to do here? I mean, I'm scared, but the other side of me actually wants this…" Asuka regains her composure and sits next to Sam calmly.
"Let me ask you one thing…" I feel something bad coming, "Why the hell did you lie to us! I thought you BOTH wore a condom!" Sam is blown away by the sudden burst of sound waves… ouch. But she was right; they did say that they wore condoms.
"We did! But… we didn't tell you that his broke… but we thought that mine would protect me enough!" wait… they had sex how long ago? Sam would have known this awhile ago.
"Sam? How long have you known this?" I finally cut into the conversation.
"Two weeks now… I didn't tell anyone because I wanted to talk with you two…" well, really, who could blame her? We've conceived two children now!
"Hold on a sec, Cass doesn't know?" Sam lowered her head at Asuka's question, "Well then that's the first thing you need to do! This will be his child too, you need to remember that," I think she knows!
"Okay… Shinji? Can you come with me? I don't want to be alone when I tell him…" she gets up and stands next to me, "Please?"
"Sure, but you're going to be the one to say it, not me, okay?" she nods as we make our way out of the room, leaving Asuka behind, "Are you happy about it? Sad? How are you feeling?" I stop her before we go into her room.
"A mixture of both… I mean, it kinda makes me not want to have sex again because even with all that protection, I STILL got pregnant," yeah, even I thought that to be odd.
"Well… let's see how Cass feels," I open the door for her to show him on the sofa watching some TV show, "Hey Cass, we need to talk," he turns off the TV and looks at Sam with a smile.
"Yeah?" Sam made her way next to him on the sofa and held his hand. I stood behind them over watching what is about to be said.
"Please don't freak out about this… I'm…" quit stalling! Cass was starting to get worried! "Pregnant…" to my surprise, the expression on his face didn't change.
"Oh, that? Yeah, I've known for awhile now… you didn't know I knew?" I swear, this is the weirdest friggen couple!
"What? How did you know?" he chuckles a little.
"Sam, we share the same bathroom, right? I kinda noticed the unopened box for the last month!" yeah, I guess that would count as a giveaway… "How do you feel about it? Sorry I didn't ask sooner, but you know, the whole thing with Asuka…" he was obviously happy about it! He's been smiling the whole time!
"Happy… I think… I mean, seeing how happy Asuka and Shinji were with Dietlinde kinda helps this…" looks like our child is going to grow up with a friend! They're going to be born not to far away from each other; my child will only be a couple months older then theirs.
"Good, because I'm excited as hell about it," he pecks her on the cheek, leaving both her and me dumbfounded. When I first found out that I was going to be a father, I'll admit it, I flat out freaked.
"So… you're okay with it?" Sam finally smiled!
"I'm more then okay with it!" Sam latched onto his neck and hugged him tight, "Sam… can't… breathe…" she chuckled as she let go, "Remind me not to piss you off…" they both had a good laugh as I walk out of the room. I wanted to leave them alone; this was their business, not mine. When I walk back into our room I see Asuka rolling on the floor laughing.
"Asuka? You okay?" she slowly got to her feet and wiped away a tear.
"H-He… he already knew! She was freaking out about telling him!" I fail to see the humor in that…
"Yeah, but I guess it was easier for her that he already knew. I'm glad that they both want it," when Asuka first got pregnant, I'm still not sure if she wanted it or not. I mean, I know that abortion was out of the question for her, but still. I know I wanted it at least.
"Yeah, but you have to admit that it's funny!" I plant a fake smile.
"I wonder if our child and theirs will get along…" she suddenly perks up, "It's a nice thought, huh?"
"Actually… yeah. With our luck they'll be opposite sex! Watch them get married later on in life!" she's thinking WAY too far into the future!
"Eh… as long as ours is the boy in the marriage, I'm fine!" she tilts her head a little in confusion, "Remember? The brides parents are supposed to pay!" she chuckles a little. Hey, we'd have to go through that eventually!
"Yeah well, as long as they keep their hands off of each other I'm fine! I don't wanna end up a thirty-five year old grandparent!" well, if one of them got pregnant at the same age Asuka did, that could actually happen!
"Do you have any idea how far into the future we're looking?" I can't believe we're talking about marriage for an unborn baby!
"Yeah, but we're going to have to deal with it sometime, aren't we?" but this early!
"We don't even know the sex of out baby yet!" she gets her normal 'I know everything about everything' look on… uh oh… I'm about to get showed up, I just know it.
"Ever heard of mother's intuition? I already know the sex!" of course she did…
"Okay then, what will it be?" she smiles even wider.
"We're going to have a little baby girl… say hello to Asuka Ikari…" I wonder if she's actually right about it being a girl… in truth, I'm hoping for a girl myself. Even before I met Asuka I've always preferred a daughter over a son, I'm still not too sure why though.
"Looks like I'm going to have to be more specific when I call you now, I'll have my daughter coming when I call you!" the feeling of becoming a parent is once again starting in. That feeling of gratification that YOU will be raising a child, that you brought them into this world… I love that feeling. We both sit down on the sofa and Asuka losses her smile… ah crap.
"Shinji, I need to talk with you about something… Ritsuko offered this a few times when you were away, but I simply didn't answer… do you want to have a funeral for Dietlinde?" my heart instantly sank. Why didn't I think of that before? It didn't even cross my mind even once… how could I forget?
"Um… yeah… but what exactly would be in the casket?" Asuka looked to the floor and frowned a bit.
"What was left of her…" I really wish I hadn't asked that question. I look down basically in shame and end up staring at my left hand… hold on, if I was cloned…
"Wait… they still have her?" she looks up at me – obviously holding back tears – and nods, "Well then why can't Akagi just make a clone of her like she did for me? I mean, she did it fine with me!" Asuka gasps a little, "Even if Dietlinde does end up losing her memories, they won't be that hard to get back, she was only a few months old!" I could actually get my daughter back!
"Shinji…" I grab a hold of her hand and guide her out of the room.
"We're going to get Dietlinde back!" Asuka let out a wide smile.
"You think that'll really work?" why wouldn't it?
"I don't see why not! I mean, all of her was there, compared to me, where chunks of my body were missing! Asuka… we're going to get our daughter back!" I knew the smile on my face was ear to ear, and why wouldn't it be? When we finally get to Ritsuko's office, I bust through the door, not bothering to knock.
"Shinji! Don't just come storming in here without knocking!" with Asuka at my side, I walk in front of her desk.
"You cloned me, right?" with a raised eyebrow, she nodded, "Well then clone Dietlinde…" she looked down at her desk and closed her eyes…
A/N- That's all ya get for now! Sorry for the cliffhanger, but this is where the chapter ends. What do you think Akagi will do? Will she make a clone of Dietlinde? Will she deny Shinji and Asuka of their first child? Find out in the next chapter; My Baby, until then, keep on keepin' on!