Nothing Will Ever Change That
A/N- This is to one of my reviewers – LISTEN. Do you see 'humor' anywhere in the summary? 'More funny less drama'… um… this story IS drama! This isn't meant to be humor, I may throw in a few funny moments in here and there, but I don't make it a point to. So please, shut up.
A/A/N- This chapter was proof-read by Frost-Eva-04. Thanks for the help!
A/A/A/N- This is the last one, I swear! Okay, you know how I said that there wouldn't be a 400 page marker… um… 400 pages! Yeah, this chapter broke 400 pages… but I'd give this story about 10 more chapters until it's done, so I can guarantee that there won't be 500 pages.
Chapter 113: Explain Yourself
Sam/Cass's Room – Same Time
"Hey Sam, you look upset, what's wrong?" She threw herself down on the bed and planted her hands on her face… that didn't look too good. I sit down on the sofa with Dietlinde and look at Sam.
"Not now Asuka… just give me a few minutes alone…" okay, she was obviously hurting, I've never heard her like this.
"I'll leave if you tell me what happened. Did you and Cass have a fight?" she weakly nods, "Are you okay?" this time, she didn't even respond, "Sam, you need to talk with him about this, your relationship with him is starting to fall apart," I doubt that they will break up, but still.
"It already did… I… broke up with him…" I've been wrong before…
"What! Why the hell did you do that!" she cringes at my yelling, "Sam, it's not even a break up at this point! You're carrying his child!" how could she do that? WHY would she do that?
"I know that… but I realized something last night… all I do for him is cause problems… if we're not together, then that won't happen anymore…" I get up and grab her wrist, dragging her out of the room, "Let go of me!"
"Like hell I will! You're going to talk with him and work this out! Listen Sam, I went through this exact same thing, but I didn't go and break up with Shinji! And if you don't start moving your feet I swear I'll pick you up and carry you!" even though I already had Dietlinde in my other arm, I'm sure I could manage it! She couldn't weigh more then eighty pounds!
"Asuka, let me go!" she rips away from my grip and somehow glares at me, "This is my business, not yours! I can do whatever the fuck I want!" holy shit… like hell she's going to talk to me like that!
"Sam, you're forgetting something, you're not just breaking up with him! You're taking a father away from a child that hasn't done a single thing wrong! Sam, your choices just don't effect you anymore!" she lowers her head and a tear forms in her eye.
"I know… but… just forget it…" she turns around and walks back to her room. I follow her, but she closes – and locks – the door before I could get in… damn it. I slam my fist on the door and yell.
"Sam! Let me in!" she didn't even make a sound. Dietlinde began to whine from all the yelling, so I gave up, "It's okay sweetie, mommy's just a little… upset…" I walk down the hall and into the hospital – I'm obviously not doing anything to help here. By the time I got to Cass's room, Dietlinde had calmed down. When I walk I see Cass staring at the ceiling with tears on his face and Shinji on the chair.
"Oh… hey Asuka… do you know?" I slowly nod, "What was Sam thinking?" how the hell am I supposed to know?
"I don't know… how are you doing Cass?" he closes his eyes and lets a tear fall.
"Can you… take me to her?" he let out a monotone response. Yeah, come to think of it, why hasn't he left the hospital? It's only a broken leg!
"Yeah… let me go grab a wheel chair…" of course there wasn't one in the room – no, that would be too easy – Shinji had to leave me in this awkward room! Damn it! Let me come with you!
"How are you doing Cass?" I take the seat that Shinji was in and look over at his depressed face.
"She just broke up with me… no explanation… no reason… nothing…" he must be going through hell right now. Sam better at least give him a reason for dumping him like that!
"Don't worry Cass, I think she's just starting to get overwhelmed with everything that's been happening. I'm sure that was just a spur of the moment thing…" I hope I'm right… if not for them, for the baby…
"I don't know…" just then, Shinji walks back into the room with a wheelchair. About damn time! Without a word – mostly because none of us even wanted to talk – Shinji rolls the chair to his bedside and he climbs in, "I'd rather go by myself… thanks…" he rolled himself out of the room, leaving us in the dense, awkward air.
"I wonder what's going on in her head right now… I really doubt she's thinking clearly right now," about time he said something!
"She isn't, I can tell you that. She couldn't even give me a reason for why she left him. Truthfully, I thought about leaving you when I first got pregnant because it was too overwhelming. Trust me on this one, she'll come to her senses eventually and turn out fine," I look down at Dietlinde to see her silently asleep… I wish I was her right now! How she got asleep with all of this going on I'll never know… well, I guess she could have fallen asleep during the painfully awkward silence between me and Cass… eh, like it matters.
"I hope you're right… wait… you thought about leaving me! When were you going to tell me about that!" just by the look on his face a let out a small laugh, "Oh yeah, real funny Asuka!"
"Oh quit it, we're married, remember? I obviously got over it!" I never get sick of hearing that we're married!
"I guess… but still… anything else you'd like to tell me?" we start to walk out of the room and towards ours.
"Um… let me think for a sec…" I take a short pause, gathering my thoughts, "Well, for one, I used to be a lesbian…" he tripped over his feet and landed flat on his face. With a pale face he looked back up at me and I busted out laughing, "Oh come on, lighten up! We got together when we were fourteen! You know that's not true!" man he's too easy! He crawls to his feet and takes a deep breath.
"That was just wrong Asuka…" oh crap… he has that look… "But, you know, if you wanna keep that… say… in bed, I'd be fine," I slap his shoulder and he finally laughs.
"You're such a little perv, and don't even hold your breath on that," did I just call HIM little? He's a good half foot taller then me!
"Hey, it was worth a try right?" actually, no! "Anyway, I've been meaning to talk with you about something…" he opened the door to our room – which was surprisingly quiet, seeing as we're next to Sam and Cass – and let us in. I set Dietlinde carefully in her crib and sit on the sofa, next to Shinji.
"Yeah? What about?" I lay my head on his shoulder and get comfortable. He wraps his arm around me and pulls me a little closer… I loved being with him like this…
"Well, you know how we never really had a honeymoon?" I smile at the memory of our fake honeymoon.
"I would call what we had a honeymoon… I mean, we DID conceive the new baby…" hell, most newly weds mainly have sex on the honeymoon anyway! It's SUPPOSED to be the first time a couple has sex but… we kinda missed out on that!
"Yeah, but we didn't get to really go anywhere. I was thinking about going on a real honeymoon sometime, something we can actually look back on as more then just sex… even though that is nice!" is he in the mood or something? He keeps on making these jokes!
"Yeah, I guess… but where would we even go? And when?" I decided against making a remark at his comment.
"Well, as for where, that we would have to talk about and when… I was thinking our first anniversary, but that's too close to when the baby is being born. So then I thought about going on your birthday… how's that sound?" talk about an anniversary present!
"Yeah, that seems okay, but pretty far away… I guess we don't have a choice though. So yeah, that sounds pretty nice. Now we gotta figure out where…" we both take a few seconds before saying anything.
"How about America? There's plenty of things to see there. Sam speaks pretty highly of it too," though we've already been there, we were only in one city. That was great though, so I can't imagine what the rest of America is like!
"You probably just want to go there because you lost your virginity there…" I'm sure he's blushing like hell right now!
"Hey, so did yo… sorry…" did he have to bring that up?
"Don't worry about it, I see it as my first time anyway," I wonder what it would be like to lose it to him… I'm sure he'd be afraid to hurt me… I would like to know what it would be like to actually lose it to someone I loved… a little late for that.
"Good, I'm glad you do. What happened to you at the party… it was just… it scared the hell out of me. And if I was going through that, I can't even imagine what you were going through…" I position myself so I was looking into his worried eyes, almost to the point of tearing.
"You don't even know the whole story of what happened, do you?" have I even told anybody? I guess not… that can't be healthy…
"Well, aside from him giving you a drink, no. I left to go grab some drinks for us, and when I came back, you were gone," wait… he got drinks for both of us? Well don't I feel like shit!
"Yeah… sorry for talking to you like that when you tried to get me something. How you were attracted to me before I still don't understand," he smiles and pecks me on the lips.
"Me neither, but I was… I wonder what's going on in there…" he looks in the direction of Sam and Cass's room, "Are they even talking?
"Doesn't sound like it… I think we should leave them alone for a li-" we hear the door slam shut, sending a loud echoing vibration through our room, "Yep, they WERE talking…" thank God Dietlinde didn't wake up!
"Yeah… I still think we should leave them alone though; they need to work this out by themselves… you wanna go out and do something? It's going to get boring staying here all day…" I sit up on my own and put both of my hands behind my head.
"I guess… but what? We kinda already had a bad experience at the lake, so I don't wanna do anything outside… and there's not much to do with a baby…" he copies my action and we both end up looking at the ceiling thinking.
"You hungry? You didn't eat much for breakfast," oh yeah, real exciting.
"I guess… you?" we really are turning into the typical husband
and wife! Damn it! I never wanted to end up like that!
"Yeah, sure… how about we go out to eat? We can take Dietlinde as
long as it's not a high quality restaurant. I know of a good
breakfast place a little up north, how's that sound?" actually,
that sounded pretty good.
"Sure, I'd like that. Dietlinde hasn't really gone anywhere public, so we better get her used to that. Just let me take a shower and we can go… I think you need one too…" I only sat up because his BO was killing me!
"Yeah, sure, I'll go in after you," with a quick peck on the lips, I get up and walk into the bathroom. I go through the normal things, de robe and turn on the shower. When I get in the shower, I find my mind wandering to other topics aside from my family.
What's going to become of Sam and Cass? Sure, I talk all high and mighty, telling everyone that she's just freaking out, but what if I'm wrong? That's what I went through personally, but what if her feelings don't fade? What if they actually get worse? I pray that the baby doesn't have to go through having split parents… the baby… my heart sinks at a sudden thought. What if she gets an abortion? Would she do that…? That would kill Cass… he wants this child so much… she couldn't do that… could she? I need to stop thinking so deep, this isn't my problem, it's theirs. I finish up in the shower and step out, throwing on my robe.
"Okay, you're up," I walk out and leave the door open. Shinji walks past me and the shower once again turns on, "You're welcome…" jeez, that was rude! He didn't even say anything!
I brush off what happened and take off my robe, beginning to get dressed. Just as I get my bra on, I once again hear the door slamming… someone came back! Might as well go check it out… as much as I don't want to… I finish getting dressed and walk out of the room to see an empty hallway… is that a good thing?
"If you would just explain yourself we could work this out! Why won't you tell me? Did I do something wrong? Was I hurting you somehow? What?" yeah, Cass was pissed! I put my ear up against the door – being nosy as always – and listen into the conversation… well, yelling contest.
"I'm leaving because I'm scared!" leaving? She already left him! "Ever since I came here my life has gone downhill! The only upside that I've ever had was meeting you, and even that has turned into hell! I'm pregnant Cass, do you understand that? I'm only seventeen!" I think he realizes that she's pregnant… he was the one to do it!
"Of course I do! So what if you're seventeen? Shinji and Asuka had theirs at sixteen, and look at them now! I've never seen a couple so happy! Sorry Sam, you'll have to do better then that," well at least one person thinks highly of our relationship!
"Cass… I'm sorry…" they both keep quiet for a second, and I hear the release of a kiss, "I love you…" the door slowly opens and she walks down the hall with a suitcase in her hands… oh shit! I start to chase after her, but Cass grabs my wrist.
"Let her go… just let her go…" his eyes were full of tears, and his face was pale… well, looks like we're not going anywhere.
"But Cass-" he cuts me off with a raspy voice.
"She has to work some things out on her own, she'll be fine…" he released me and closed the door… what just happened here? Did Sam just walk out on him? I walk back to my room, dragging my feet all the way. Where is she even going? Back to America probably… but what about the baby? I lay down on the bed, which only made things all the worse; I could distinctly hear Cass crying to himself… alone.
A/N- Oh… that has got to hurt. This is the first time Cass has cried, isn't it? Everyone seems to get fucked up at one point or another, and here is Cass's point! Do you think she'll come back? Will she even make another appearance in this story? Find out in the next chapter (or maybe not); Tests, until then, keep on keepin' on!
A/A/N- By the way, just as a heads up, next chapter will be pretty long, so give me more then a few days to update!