His eyes closed for a second and he found himself almost enjoying what was happening, having the warmth of another person's lips on his own when he thought that it would never happen again. In his mind he imagined the two of them kissing, him and Maxie. More than that, he imagined the two of them together again, getting through their problems and finding a union that was so strong that it would be able to get passed everything, no matter the cost. But Damian knew that such things did not exist anymore, it was all just in his imagination.
Brook couldn't help but feel the connection between them. The one that she thought existed from the moment that they met. Their souls becoming intertwined together and building up until they had a union that was so pure and beautiful. The dream of every little girl. To fall in love with the prince that she wanted more than anything else in the world. How many had found that dream? Not too many, and now, Brook was among those who had. Or so she wanted to believe.
When his eyes opened up he realized what was going on. Although it had only been a single flash of time, barely a few seconds, it felt like it was so much longer than that, and he felt like he was cheating on the memory of himself and his ex-girlfriend, which, despite the way that they may have ended their relationship, was not something that he wanted to do. "Brook…"
"What?"
"I'm sorry…"
"For what?"
Damian pulled away from her and turned around, "That shouldn't have happened, Brook. I care about you, a lot. You're a dear friend to me, but that's all you are… that's all you're ever going to be to me."
Brook felt the dream stripped away without any warning. The tears threatened to take her entire body, but she refused to let them win. "Hey… what are you talking about? You know that you've always been attracted to me. I can see it in your eyes, the way that you look at me… everything."
"You're beautiful, Brook."
"Then?"
"Beauty isn't the only thing that I need in order to fall in love with someone, all right?" He was becoming irate. Everything that was crumbling around him just seemed to get even worse. "You're pretty, anybody would be lucky to have you…"
"But I only want you."
"That's a problem, then, because I don't want you."
"Maxie's out of the picture now!"
"And that's supposed to matter?" He asked. "Listen to yourself, Brook. You think that just because I broke up with Maxie that I'm going to instantly jump into the arms of another girl, and, if it happens to be you, that's all the better! It doesn't work like that! I don't work like that! I've fallen in love with one person in my entire life, Brook. A single person, and that person just broke my heart less than two days ago. What do you think I'm going through? Do you even know?"
"Yeah, I do know what it feels like to have your heart broken. I didn't know what it felt like until right now, until you broke mine…"
"Don't do this to yourself, Brook. You deserve someone who can love you the way that you deserve to be loved. You deserve someone who can give you everything that you want in life…"
"You can give me that!"
"No, I can't!"
"Why not?"
Damian rubbed his temples, the migraine that was forming had gone from a dull ache to an almost pounding thud that threatened to render him completely useless. "I'm not ready…"
"I can wait."
"You might be waiting for a long time. Do you think I want to know that you're going to be looking at me with your eyes telling me that you're just waiting for that one moment where I'll actually find a way to be with you? I'm sorry, it's not going to happen. I'm still in love with her, Brook. I can't turn it off."
"I'm not giving up on you… on us."
"There is no us!"
Brook didn't want to believe what he was saying, didn't want to think that everything that she had done was just for nothing. But, the way he looked at her, there was something in his eyes that showed he wasn't kidding around. He didn't care about her, not like that. It broke her heart to see those eyes, especially directed at her. "I hate you!" Her entire center stripped, Brook ran away.
Damian sank against one of the trees that they were near. He didn't even notice it, but they were right by the gazebo. He could see it in the distance. With some reservations, he walked towards it, the emotions churning inside of him, telling him that he needed to do something else, anything else, but he fought them, fought them with all the stubbornness that he had gotten from his father, and Sonny's bullheaded ways were legendary.
When the boy found his way to the gazebo he walked inside of it and looked up at the light that was in the center. Everything that they did when they were together, all the quaint and tender moments that made them who they were, that established their love flashed in that bright light, and he was unable to contain his grief. The emotions poured out of him… and he wept, leaning against the banister, his soft sniffling echoing in the distance.
Corinthos Household-
Carly was still unsure of how she was going to deal with everything that was on her platter, still unsure if she could even do it. Her father… her father wanted to find a way to strip her of everything that she knew, everything she loved. Just so that she could be protected by her daddy for one time in her life. Carly didn't need saving, not from anyone. She was her own woman, she didn't need the help of anyone… or did she?
Seeing Sonny walk in made her realize that she did need someone. She got up and ran into his arms, the pent up rage and anger coming up and out. She sobbed, "Sonny…" she whispered his name over and over again.
"What the hell is wrong with you?"
"What are you talking about?"
"I got a call from Mike saying that you just decided to leave our child, the child that you wanted to spend time with alone, over at Kelly's, for no reason at all…"
"You don't think that I had a reason?"
"I don't think that there could ever be a reason that is good enough for you to just up and abandon Morgan like that!" To Sonny there was no job more important than being a parent. He would make all the sacrifices in the world just to do that job, and, in some ways, he had. "So why don't you give me one good reason why I shouldn't be upset at you for doing something like that to our baby!"
"I didn't abandon him! How could you even think that I would do something like that? I fought tooth and nail to keep Morgan safe while he was in my stomach, do you think that something like that would change the minute he came out?"
"Give me a reason!"
"You want a reason? Fine, I'll give you a reason! I found my father, Sonny!"
Sonny did not expect that as an answer. There were some things that he couldn't prepare for, and Carly finding her father, that was one of them. "That still doesn't excuse your actions…"
"My father is John Durant."
"What?"
"You heard me, Sonny. My father, your father in law, is the man that wants to take you down more than anything in the world. John Durant is my father. I'm a Durant, I've got a legacy of taking you down…"
"Carly…"
"So do you see now why I decided that I couldn't have Morgan around me? Do you realize the pain I've been going through ever since I found out? I didn't want Morgan to be scared, I didn't want him to know that something was wrong. But I know he did, and I didn't want to make it worse."
"How…"
"My mother," Carly said with spite in her voice. "She knew the whole time. She said that she's always known from the moment I was born that John was my father… she knew when I asked her, too. But she kept it hidden."
"Why would she do something like that?"
"Because she decided that she could play God with my future… with the wellbeing of our children."
"Carly…"
"No, don't try and defend her, Sonny. We both know that you can't. What my mother did… it's something that I can't forgive her for. Certainly not now, maybe not ever. She knew how nervous I was about what could happen. She knew what I wanted to do, why I wanted to find my father… it wasn't for me, it wasn't because I wanted someone to send me a Christmas present that I could say was from my daddy. It was so that I could protect my children in case something came up! I explained that to her time and time again, and all she did was ignore me. She didn't care…"
"She had to have a reason." Sonny wasn't sure that he agreed with the reason, but Bobbie certainly wasn't her daughter. She didn't act on her impulses, not anymore at least. No, she had more important things to do, like be a mother, be a nurse, and be a grandmother. "I'm sorry, Carly."
"You should be sorry. I want your support, and you attack me."
"You should have told someone."
"I needed time to be alone, why can't anyone understand that? Don't you people realize what I'm going through?"
"No, Carly, we don't. Because we don't know what it's like to be related to John Durant…"
"Neither do I!"
"Maybe I can use this to my advantage…"
"Sonny, you can't! He wants to take you down, don't you understand that?"
"I know… but if he wants to have a relationship with you, with our children, do you think that's going to happen if he decides to destroy my life?"
"I don't know…"
Sonny turned away for a moment, looking as Max brought Morgan in. "Thanks for taking him while I talked to my wife, Max."
"No problem, Mister C." Max liked Morgan a lot.
Sonny moved over to the wet bar and picked up a glass. He was thinking about the possibilities. His wife was John's daughter… yes, there were ways that he could use that. He finally had something that he could use against Durant.
Carly looked at her husband, his back turned to her, and she knew that his mind was focused on something else. The only problem with that was that she was also certain that he wasn't focused on her problem. No, he was focusing on something other than her. What happened to the support? She needed the support.
