Chapter Two: Bittersweet Memories

By: Brittzers

Shawn left the hotel room angrily and confused, it was easily seen on his redden face. He couldn't understand Hunter any more, they just grew apart…it hurts Shawn to think about it but they may never be the same again, thanks to Stephanie. It was like, when Stephanie came around, Shawn became invisible – Like he was just non-existent. Tonight Shawn is just going to give himself and Hunter a break. It wouldn't be any different since Hunter's been 'breaking' from Shawn for months now. Shawn decided to sleep over at Cena's hotel room, when ever Hunter and Shawn had their arguments, that's where Shawn always ended up – At Cena's.

Shawn walked down the hallway and then down the stairs of the hotel building, deciding against the elevator since their room had only been two floors up from the ground floor. He made it down, chewing on his lower lip, frustrated. He walked towards the entrance/exit doors and pushed it opened, leaving the hotel. He paced back and forward on the outside of the hotel, eventually going and sitting onto the bench. His leg shuddered as if he were anxious for something to happen. He thought about how things have been between he and Hunter. He thought of how things have chanced and how things used to be…before Stephanie – it was beautiful.

-Flash back-

Hunter opened the hotel room door, poking his head inside and smiling a bit at Shawn. Today, they had been in Tokyo, Hunter didn't exactly remember what part but he was going to have to publicly indicate where they were pretty soon. Hunter opened the door a little more in order to let himself in and he stood against the doorway, looking at Shawn.

"Shawn, wanna come with me to the bar? All the guys are hanging out I hear the parting was 'happening' so I figured we could go as well"

Shawn looked up from his book and braised his brows. The year was 1996; this was big party era for the heartbreak kid, not so much for Hunter Hearst Helmsley. Shawn then wrinkled his brows as if he didn't understand what Hunter meant. The corner of his lip turned up into a smirk but it still portrayed a confused look.

"Wow – Hunter - At a bar? This is amazing!"

Shawn said, trying to sound astonished, Hunter almost never went out, and Shawn ended up going out with another one of his buddies when the boy would rather be out with Hunter. For some reason, Hunter didn't like to party, Shawn wasn't digging that trait about him at the time but then again it was always good because Shawn spent more time with him on the inside of the hotel rooms. Boy, were those the fun times! Hunter rolled his eyes playfully and smirked a bit, licking his lower lip and looking out of the door then back at Shawn,

"Yes, now would you come on?"

Hunter rushed him, still jokingly as he laughed. Shawn smiled more and sat his book aside, standing up and stretching. He pushed his hair behind his ear, since it had been hanging out and curly along his shoulders. He walked towards the door after Hunter had stepped out; he turned the light out and fluffed his hair slightly in the mirror closest to the door. He looked forward again and eventually exited the hotel room. Shawn shut the door behind him, encountering a smiling Hunter who looked down at him with big hazel eyes. Shawn's eyes were locked onto Hunters eyes as if Hunter had been hypnotizing him. He can see Hunters lips curling more into the smirk that had already been there as one of his hands lifted up against the door to lean against. Shawn felt a bit weird just staring into those eyes without being inside of a closed space, alone, without anyone around to see so he looked down at his shoes quickly. Hunter reached his large hand underneath Shawn's chin and lifted his chin slightly with his index and middle finger.

"You're cute, you know that?"

Hunter spoke, no louder than a whisper. Shawn laughed gently, licking his lips as his eyes once again lifted from the floor, passing those beautiful shaped lips and then his blue eyes gazed into Hunters once more. He blushed slightly,

"Thanks"

Shawn breathed out gently, he felt his heart race as Hunter's hand grace his hip with the softest of touches that caused his heart to skip a beat. One of his fingers slipped underneath Shawn's shirt, just feeling the skin underneath, smiling and lowering his eyes for a second to look at it, then back up at Shawn. Hunter smiled a bit and prepared to ask him a quick question, this one, still, was nowhere over a whisper,

"Can I kiss you?"

He asks, Shawn rolled his eyes and giggled, pushing him slightly. Hunter usually gives Shawn surprise kisses, so what was the point of asking? Shawn would say yes anyways, although, if Shawn says yes, that would mean they would be kissing in public…the two have never done that…Well, once, but that was only a joking thing…right now was for real. Shawn's blue eyes shifted from left to right, then back at Hunter, he didn't see any one, but he was still a bit Paranoid.

"Right here? In public?"

Shawn asked, Hunter shrugged slightly and nodded his head, Shawn looked down again and then back up at Hunter. He narrowed his eyes and smiled a bit, giving him a nod to his question, even though he was still afraid of someone catching them and proving Bret right that not only Shawn's character, but also Shawn himself was a "homo". Shawn's heart began to beat even faster as Hunter leaned in, his eyes began to close, Shawn's, on the other hand, had continued to stay open, watching Hunter's every move as his other hand went to the side of his face. Hunter's lips finally pressed against Shawn's, it took, for what seemed like hours for Hunter to kiss Shawn.

He was a bit if-y about it at first as Hunter got into the kiss, his hands searching Shawn's body gently but once Hunter allowed himself to slip his tongue into Shawn's mouth, he closed his eyes and simply melted into the kiss. Shawn's thin fingers found themselves intertwined in the many blond locks of his lover, soon, he felt Hunter press against him, causing Shawn's body to press against the door. Hunter's pelvic area pressed against Shawn's firmly while Hunter's strong arm wrapped tightly around his waist. The kiss held passion as Hunters other hand went behind Shawn's head which allowed him to deepen the kiss. Shawn opened his mouth slightly, giving him the opportunity to let out a breath and a soft moan at Hunter's force onto his own pelvic area. The kiss could've lasted forever but there was an interruption; it was a gentle tap at Hunter's shoulder and then a soft voice,

"Excuse me…"

Hunter pulled away quickly and at the exact same time, Shawn lowered his head, scratching the back of his neck. Hunter turned around; his bigger body covering and shielding Shawn's slightly,

"Uh, yeah?"

He asks, almost irritated and upset that he had been interrupted from his private time with Shawn. He loves being with him; he can't get enough of Shawn. Shawn's like a drug and Hunter's the addicted user – Yes, it's that deep. The fan held up a Degeneration X tee shirt and asked for an autograph, Hunter checked his pockets for a marker to write on the black shirt but he had nothing, he shrugged slightly and told the fan that he had no marker so he couldn't sign it, immediately, within seconds, the fan pulled out a marker. He smiled slightly and signed the tee shirt, he turned around and looked at Shawn and asked him if he wanted to sign too, Shawn just signed it and nodded, smiling, the fan was pleased, but Shawn and Hunter hadn't been since well…you'll see.

After the fan left, Hunter turned around to look at Shawn with a 'I can't believe you!' face. Shawn blinked slightly at the face and pouted slightly, wrinkling his brows and lifting his hands up to give a slight confused shrug,

"What's wrong?"

He asks, Hunter points down at his jeans and Shawn's eyes trailed down and his hands immediately went to cover his mouth in a surprised face.

"Look what you did, Shawn! I can't go to the bar with this just sticking out like a bloated hot dog"

Shawn laughed and agreed, nodding,

"You really can't go anywhere with that pointing like that…It's rude"

"Shut up"

Hunter said playfully and pressed his body back against his, Shawn feeling the 'bloated hot dog' against him. Shawn laughed still, but it was hushed by another kiss, and Shawn just smiled after Hunter pulled away,

"Want Shawnie to fix that right up for you?"

Shawn asked, Hunter nodded slightly, smirking and pressing his hips harder against Shawn's, causing Shawn to hiss slightly. If Hunter was going to suffer, so was Shawn. It didn't take long for Shawn to get in the same shape as Hunter. Shawn turned around so that his back faced Hunter, Hunters hot dog against Shawn's bottom. Shawn laughed at the situation and slid the key card into the lock and opened the door, stepping inside of the pitch black hotel room,

"Then come on in…I'll help out"

Spoke a very seductive sounding Shawn. With no questions asked, Hunter entered the room.

-End Flashback-

Shawn rolled his eyes and bit onto his lower lip, that is one of Shawn's fondest memories between he and Hunter. That's was a time when they were perfect, it felt like nothing in their lives could go wrong at that time, but oh Shawn was so wrong…Oh so wrong. He shook his head and looked over at the door, he wanted to go back to Hunter – Just to see him…to hold and touch him, but it would be idiotic and pathetic. Shawn refused to cave in to his need and want of his lover; Shawn looked away from the door and sighed slightly. It wasn't always paradise after Stephanie, actually, it was hardly ever paradise when Stephanie came into the picture – it felt like hell.

-Flashback-

The shower ran loudly as Shawn lay on the bed; Hunter had jumped in the shower as soon as he had made it back to the hotel room. It was obvious to Shawn what Hunter and Stephanie had done in their private time, but then again, assuming is bad, Hunter probably just feels dirty. I mean, I would too if I were married but sleeping with some one else…someone far more cuter than my husband or wife would be. Hunter must feel really dirty since, well, he had been in there for over an hour, now.

A little later, Shawn had fallen asleep on the bed during the time he had been waiting for Hunter to exit the bathroom. Hunter sat on the bed, causing the bed to sink in slightly, which woke Shawn up easily. Shawn smiled a bit, crawling behind him and wrapping his arms around Hunter's neck, kissing the side of his face, then the corner of his mouth. After a few seconds, Hunter kissed Shawn's mouth gently, and then pulled away within seconds. He felt too cheap to do anything with Shawn at the moment.

"Hey baby…"

Shawn whispered into Hunter's ear and he went to bite and suck gently onto Hunter's ear lobe. Hunter pulled his head away slightly and gave Shawn another kiss on the mouth and he stood up, stretching slightly and getting dressed into sleeping clothing. Shawn wrinkled his brows, usually Hunter was very aggressive and he probably would've kissed him as soon as he walked in…but today he didn't. It wasn't weird because Hunter always gets this way when he leaves from hanging out with Stephanie. Hunter didn't respond to Shawn, he just continued to put on clothing for the sleeping,

"What's wrong, Hunter?"

Shawn asks,

"Just tired, Shawn…"

He said, yeah, he sounded tired…he actually sounded more exhausted than tired - it made Shawn sad. Shawn laid back down onto the bed, looking up at the ceiling and sighing slightly, rolling his eyes,

"Stephanie is uh…really keeping you busy, huh?"

"Yeah…but I had a good time, though, we just chilled out in her hotel room all day…we talked…you know"

"Just talked?"

"Yah…"

"That's it?"

Shawn asked, Hunter sat onto the bed and looked behind himself at Shawn, narrowing his eyes,

"Yes, that's it! What's with you Shawn?"

"I just…I don't like hearing that the person I really care about is out banging some chick"

"Shawn, you don't get it – She's not some chick, she's my wife…and frankly, I don't think it's any of your business who I fuck or not!"

Shawn was confused,

"Then why do you fuck with me, Hunter? Why do you do this to me? Over and over, my heart is torn into pieces…because of you!"

"I'm sorry, Shawn…I love Stephanie…I vowed to be with her forever – Stephanie and I…we have a kid, Shawn…I can't be with you the way you need me to be"

Hunter looked away from Shawn; he couldn't bear to see the tears that he noticed form in Shawn's baby blues. He felt bad for telling that to him, but it was the truth, he did marry her. If the situation were different, if Hunter hadn't been married…things would be much better for he and Shawn…they would be happy. Shawn let tears fall from his eyes and down his cheeks, off of his face and soaking the sheets. He didn't say anything, instead, he got off of the bed and walked over to the couch and lay down onto it. Hunter didn't need tension in the room, he didn't need Shawn upset with him. He stood up as well and walked over to the couch, getting onto his knees and crawling over towards him. When he got in front of him, he leaned down to give Shawn a kiss, but Shawn just turned his head over, looking away.

"Shawn…"

Hunter whispered softly, in response, Shawn turned over, exposing his bare back to Hunter. Hunter crawled onto the couch and laid down behind Shawn, getting comfortable in the spooning position behind his Shawn. Hunter kissed Shawn's neck softly and Shawn shook his head,

"No…Hunter…"

He whispered, sniffing, crying still. Hunter could feel his body shudder and shake as he cried. Hunter wrapped his arms around his waist, holding him closer and kissing the back of his shoulder. Hunter breathed gently onto his skin and rubbed his nose against the soft skin,

"I'm sorry, baby, I'm sorry…"

Shawn always fell for the apologies, especially when Hunter holds him like this…he just melts. Shawn turned over in his arms, exposing his bright red face and teary eyes. He sniffed softly and kissed Hunter's mouth gently and then snuggled his face against Hunter's neck. He felt Hunter's arms wrap tighter around him and he sat there, quietly, still sniffing, trying not to cry again. He hated feeling like he were nothing compared to Stephanie. No matter how many times Hunter would tell him that he loves him and that he wants to be with him…he still feels like there's no one better in the world, to Hunter, but Stephanie. Shawn kissed Hunter's mouth once more, deeply, his hand going and touching his cheek. The kiss turned passionate within seconds, Shawn began pressing his thin body against Hunter's and Hunter's arm searched Shawn's body and he continued to pull him closer. Heat began to boil into place, bodies began to shudder, and faint moaning began its rhythm. Make up sex. It wasn't long, but it was satisfying and to Shawn, it meant something, something big. That's how arguments played out sometimes, they either end up in make up sex or Shawn goes to Cena's hotel room, just to cool off. Either way, they made it back to a "Shawn & Hunter" relationship instead of a…something else.

-End Flashback-

Shawn sighed again, he kind of wished tonight would've ended up in a make up sex session, but then things wouldn't have gone solved, they usually talk things out in the morning when they have these types of arguments, minus the sex. Shawn stood up; stretching slightly, feeling slightly better and he allowed himself to go back into the Hotel building. He walked up the stairs, the first hotel room as soon as he makes it up the stairs was His and Hunters…he reluctantly walked past it and walked towards Cena's hotel room but his plans were interrupted by a glass shattering on the wall. He knew it was one of the wrestlers because they were the only ones in this section of the hotel. Shawn wasn't close with most of the wrestler but he would hate for them to get in trouble for something stupid. He rushed towards the open door and stopped at the door way, seeing Edge, sitting on the bed, just crying while Lita stood, trying to apologize to him. He wondered what happened before he had got there, but he decided not to ask. Edge looked up at Lita, reddened eyes,

"I can't believe you…"

"I said I was sorry, Edge, I don't know what else to say…"

"How about a fucking explanation!"

"For what? It's not like you care! You didn't care about anything while we were together and now all of a sudden, you're worried about every aspect of my goddamn life!"

She yelled at him, Edge stood up tall in front of her, stepping close to her but Randy stepped in front of Edge, disabling him to do whatever he was thinking of doing. Edge shook his head, looking into Randy's eyes angrily,

"And you…you were my buddy…and you go and do something like this? How could you?"

Edge said, Randy started to talk, but Edge just cut him off,

"No – No, don't answer that. You'll learn…you see, Lita has done something like this once before. It'll be too late when she sacks up with one of your best friends and you're forced to marry a cougar around the way. What you don't understand, Randy, is that…Lita's the companies bicycle…everyone's had a ride"

Harsh, but true. With that, Lita and Randy stormed out of the room, holding hands. Randy brushed past Shawn roughly, although Shawn didn't ask about it or comment on it, he just looked at Edge whom had broke down and cried again. Shawn entered the room but still stood in front of the door,

"Are you alright?"

Edge looked up and sniffed slightly, standing back up from his fallen state. He nodded slightly, although he was lying,

"I-I'm fine…"

He tried to stay strong as he stared into Shawn's eyes; it only took him seconds before he leaned against Shawn, crying hard. Edge was never an emotionally strong guy; you'll notice that by watching Unforgiven, Edge will cry in a second. Shawn knew it, still, he wasn't very close to Edge, but it would be rude to just…leave him when he really needs support. He wrapped his arms around his waist, locking his hands there. Shawn rubbed the side of his face against his temple gently and closed his eyes,

"It'll be alright…'kay?"

"No…no it wont…I feel like shit…its karma…"

Edge whispered. Shawn kicked the door shut and walked towards the bed, sitting down and holding Edge still. Shawn looked down at Edge and lifted his head with his fingers and looked into his eyes,

"It will be okay…you'll get over it. I know you loved her…I know how it feels…"

"No you don't – You've never been cheated on…I know it. I can tell."

"Well, I've always been the shy guy…so I barely had relationships anyways…There's always been one person who I love to be with and they love being with me…but we're having…troubles…So I know what you're feeling. You're feeling hurt…depressed…and you could quite possibly be thinking of drinking gasoline –"

"- As a matter of fact…"

"Look at me, you're still a growing young man, you've got plenty of time to find the one…Lita – just wasn't it. She'll learn from her actions…you'll see. Now, you lay down, we've got to go over plans for Monday, okay?"

Shawn said, taking the sheets and tossing it over, he put Edge into the bed and covered him with the blankets. Shawn stood up and waved at him, smiling only slightly before turning towards the door, opening it and as he almost made it out, he heard Edge call out softly to him.

"Shawn?"

Edge whispered, Shawn turned around and looked at him and raised his eyebrows,

"Hm?"

He asked. Edge scooted over slightly and patted the bed beside him and whispered again,

"…C-can you lay here with me?"

Shawn paused for a bit and then shut the door,

"Only until you fall asleep, okay?"

Edge nodded at Shawn's words and scooted over more and Shawn slid into the bed with Edge. Shawn lay down beside him; it was a bit uncomfortable and awkward. He didn't know what to say or do; he just listened to him as breathed. Eventually, Edge wrapped his arms around Shawn's waist; he closed his eyes and rested his head against Shawn's chest. Shawn stroked his blond hair, instead of leaving when Edge fell asleep; he ended up falling asleep as well.

In the middle of the night, Edge pealed himself from the bed slowly, trying not to wake Shawn and he walked into the bathroom, looking at himself in the mirror for several seconds before rolling his eyes and leaving the bathroom. He walked back towards the bed and sat at the corner of the bed, he placed his hands onto his face and began to cry again. Oh the boys so sensitive about things like this. He doesn't like getting his heart broken, this wasn't the first time, but this was defiantly the worst. Shawn seemed to notice, Edge wasn't exactly being soundless when he cried, his soft whimpering woke Shawn up. He sat up and crawled towards Edge, rubbing his back and rubbing his shoulder seconds later, trying to get him to stop crying,

"Why aren't you sleeping?"

He asked,

"It's 1:30 in the morning"

Shawn continued, whispering and sitting beside him, allowing his hand to drop around his waist. Edge looked over at Shawn for a second, he didn't say this angrily, but he asked it,

"Why are you still here? You said that you were leaving after I went to sleep…"

He whispered, looking at him, Shawn shrugged,

"I just decided to stay…"

He said, and then he continued on to say,

"You're going to be exhausted in the morning, come to bed…"

He said to him and Shawn went to Edge's spot on the bed, leaning against the wall and Shawn looked up at Edge as he willingly lay down beside him, underneath the blankets.

"Thanks for caring"

Edge said as Shawn readied himself to go back to sleep by closing his eyes. After Shawn spoke a soft 'you're welcome', Shawn appeared to be sleep. His breathing had softened and his body had begun to get comfortable. Edge took it upon himself seconds later and kissed Shawn innocently onto his mouth, figuring that he had been sleeping. Little did he know, Shawn hadn't been asleep, he was just so surprised by the kiss that he didn't know what to say or do…

That's going to be an interesting conversation in the morning.