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--Sara

Broken inside

All of your pain you hide

No one knows you

But you don't care who

Forgets to say goodbye

Or say hi

It touches you and makes you stronger

Lets you live life longer

Lonely and sad

With a past that was very bad

Don't want to look in others eyes

For others you despise

They hurt and don't care

Your heart they do not spare

By 7:30 I was ready, wearing jeans this time. Just to play it safe. His hand had scared me last time, I was kind of relieved they had came back. Which probably isn't good on my part. I paced around, looking at the clock. The door bell rang and there he was, looking like a tough guy. The baggy jeans, the backwards cap and of course the black hoodie. He led me to his car not saying a word, even when I had said hi.

"Well where are we going?"

"To hang with my friends"

I just nodded to him politely.

"You should loosen up, when I was 14 I was nothing like you"

"Well when I'm 16 I'll be nothing like you too"

"But you might be" He was smirking as he said that

'But you might be' what did he mean by that? I kept asking myself till he pulled into a parking lot to what looked like a park.

"Here we are". We got out of the car, something had stopped me from asking questions. I don't know what but something did.

"This is Benette park, we hang out here"

"Ok"

He led me to a table where all of his friends were. Sitting around, drinking and smoking. Some doing drugs. I had no desire to be here, except for the fact that I was with him. He handed me a beer and I just looked at it.

"What? You don't drink"

"Not particularly no"

His friends started laughing. "Nice catch, Jay" One boy said.

I could feel my face getting hot and red. So I opened it, taking a sip. Ugh it tasted vile but sweet at the same time. So I took another. Getting myself used to it. Jay was smiling the whole time.

"Don't go to fast now" He said as I finished. I started hiccuping and he handed me another, as he opened another. The smoke surrounded us, everything was cloudy. I was in a daze when he took my hand, pulling me up. I followed, willingly.

"Where are you leading me?"

"Eh, I thought I could see you alone, that's all"

"Ok"

We walked a little ways away from everyone to a van. A bright orange van. Looked as though it was from the 70's. I stopped walking and he turned.

"What's in the van?"

"What do you think is in the van?"

"Smelly shag carpeting from the 70's, beer hiccup , more beer"

"Let me show you"

He pulled me into the van and we sat on the floor. He was pretty close to me.

"We use it for hooking up"

I looked up at him confused "W-what?"

"You know blow jobs, sex, that stuff"

"Oh"

He leaned in and we started making out. This time he was on top of me right away. Pushing up against me. Moving his body back and forth. It was starting to feel good to me, so I followed his lead. He smiled, into our kisses. Letting out a little moan. This made me smile, doing it faster for him. He seemed to like it a lot more. I could feel him getting harder. He slid his hand up my shirt as I slid his off.

"Tell me if this is ok"

"Ok"

I didn't know what I was doing, maybe it was the beer but I really wanted to know what to do next. I wanted him to take me to the next step. I was leaning up, kissing him harder when the van door flew open.

"JAY!!?!?!"

"Yes?" He turned and asked calmly

"You could have shared" The guy slurred, obviously drunk

"Not funny man"

He grabbed my hand leading me out of the van. Taking me back to his car. We got into the backseat and tried to get the moment back but it wouldn't. Well at least I couldn't get back into it. He was still hard as a rock. Grinding up against me. I felt bad knowing I wasn't in the 'mood' anymore.

"I'm sorry, it's just not right anymore"

"It's fine" He got off of me, obviously sexually frustrated. "Could you at least fix what you cause?"

"Huh?"

"Give me something here points down, a hand job or blow at least?" "Please?"

"F-fine"

I got in his lap, undoing his pants. I didn't know what to do, so I just guessed. Taking him into my hands, rubbing up and down slow at first then taking a fast pace. He was moaning after a little while. Telling me how good it felt, but I didn't even know what I was doing that was so good. So I just continued.

"I'm close"

I suddenly remembered health class, 'cum'.

"Just let it go on the floor, I'll clean it up later"

He moaned loudly as he started, I kept it going for a little while or well until he was done. Zipping his pants back up, he leaned up smiling at me.

"That was really good"

I looked away, blushing

"Thanks, for that"

I got off of him, getting into the passenger seat. He handed me another beer, I started taking a sip right away.

Tonight was the night I had made a big change, a big change in me.

--Wow, well tell me what you think..hope you liked it--

--Sara