Author's note:So I'm glad you all love it so far. That is a relief because I didn't know if anyone would read this. I'm glad you all are. This is really been helping me, writing this is making it easier to think I guess. So thank you everyone for reading this.
--Sara
I figured something out today
that no matter how much I love you
you'll always deserve more
that you'll deserve to be loved more and in a better way
no matter how much passion I give you
it'll never be the best
that you are above all of the rest
you deserve better kisses
someone with many blisses
that the love I give you is less than you need
that your above anything i could ever suceed
that I don't deserve you
no matter how much I care
or how far I'll go just to be there
your to good for little me
that is so easy to see
your one in a million and so many more
that your the easiest person in the world to love
your beautiful like a dove
I thought about this so much
that I didn't know if it would work
but everything I've written is true
so true that it might hurt
you are all of these things
so listen to every bell it rings
When Jay dropped me off at home I kissed him softly and quick, getting inside as fast as I could. I felt a little guilt in doing what I had just done. In giving him a hand job. Not even knowing if he had a girlfriend. My mom stopped me as I got inside.
"How was it?"
"Fine" Trying to seem as steady as possible. "I'm tired, I'll tell you about it tomorrow" I was looking away a little bit, so maybe she wouldn't smell my breath.
"Ok"
I got downstairs as fast as I could. Getting into my bathroom and scrubbing my teeth. After doing so I went to lay down. Talking to myself quietly.
"What if he has a girlfriend, you idiot?"
"And you weren't supposed to just do that were you?"
"You aren't supposed to be a little slut, you're not like that" "Or are you?"
"You're not" She heard, making her gasp and pop up.
"Sorry for barging in but you left so fast I just wondered if you were ok, apparently you've gone insane"
"Maybe I just feel guilty"
"Well don't, you're not a slut, just having fun maybe"
"Getting you off, oh what fun for me" I said sarcastically, knowing that it had been fun.
"You seemed to enjoy it" He got on the bed with me, he scooted close to me. Taking in a deep breath.
"I like it when you smell like me and beer, it's hot"
I bit my lip "Oh really?"
"Really, see" He took my hand, putting it on him, he was already hard on again.
"No, I feel"
"Well I'll take my pants off if you'd like"
"Not right now"
"Awh why not?"
"1 word parents"
"Will never know" He said hopefully. He started nuzzling up against me, rubbing his head into my neck.
"Why should I?"
"I have no reasoning"
"So just because you want it, you get it?"
"Maybe" He gave a cheesy smile.
"Well maybe I'm not that easy all the time"
"Maybe I like you"
"You don't know me"
"I like what I know"
"What's that?"
"1. you're hot
you can have fun
you're mysterious
you're smart for what I know
you give good kisses
you smell good like vanilla
you can drink, he smiled as he said the last one
and you give good hand jobs
I smiled at him. "Are you using me?"
"I don't think so"
This made me frown "Can we just not do all of the sexual stuff now?"
"That's cool"
He just took me closer, covering us up with my comforter.
He fell asleep before I did, I watch him a little while. It was nice, he was nice.
--Ohhh I think that made me happy. Lol. Well tell me what you think ok?
Hope you all loved it. --
--Sara