It should have been me.
I mean, I'm totally the hottest girl in school. And the most popular. I'm not social chair or anything, but everyone knows my name. All the new guys automatically want me, it's like their job or something.
So it was weird that he liked her so much. I mean, I know he met her first, but as soon as he came to school he should have noticed that I'm way hotter than she is. That I'm way cuter. That I'm totally a better choice to fancy.
It was bad enough that Chino hadn't liked me either. Although I felt better about that when I found out he was from Chino. I mean, ew!
And I had Cohen I guess, and that was OK. But that didn't stop all the other guys from wanting me so bad. Which I totally loved. Almost as much as I love Cohen…obviously.
But it was weird that this new kid didn't fancy me. I was kind of jealous, for a bit. Supportive of Marissa, I mean she's totally my best friend. But still jealous that some guy chose her over me. I'm the obvious choice. But he barely even noticed me.
But we were friends I guess, and that was fine. I had other things to worry about like sabotaging Anna and Cohen who were just so wrong for each other. Because he was like obviously meant to be with me.
And I was like totally oblivious to all the creepy stuff that was going on. Chino never said anything to me, and I could never get past Cohen's mumbled rambling to understand what he was actually talking about.
So I was still jealous. But only like a tiny bit.
And he tried to kill himself and I was a little bit happy that he didn't think I was hot, so I didn't have to deal with all the drama. Well I did, but only because Marissa wanted to talk about it. Which was totally fine because I'm such a good friend. But I was happy that it wasn't me that actually had to do deal with all that.
So I'm like a little bit less jealous. But only because I didn't like the drama, I guess I still wanted the new kid to fancy me.
And then he had a gun and he kidnapped her and it was actually just the scariest thing ever.
Totally not jealous anymore.
Oliver Trask nearly killed my best friend Marissa Cooper.
And it should have been me…