Chapter 17: Confusion and Grief
Yes…I know you all hate me…I'm still healing from all the knife wounds you gave me. –Glares- sorry, sorry. Ha – I got really caught up in my other story too. It's doing really well and for once I have a faint idea for what's going to happen in the story. It has around 40 reviews so far for two chapters…that's better than my bleeding heart…I think I got like 5 for my first chapter…because it was so crappily written (I know…not a word.) Anyway even if your not a CCS fan just check it out…you don't really need to know the storyline and it's gonna get better...I mean right now it's pretty lame.
It was funny someone told me in a review that it was incredibly planned out. I laughed because I never plan out anything for my stories I just write what pops into my head so yes, that's why my stories are so muddled all the time – oh well I guess you'll all just have to sit back and read my crappy excuse for a story…only two more chapters left…actually…this might be the last one? Maybe…
I hated for what I wrote in the chapter earlier so now I'm cursing myself thinking about how I'll have to turn it around. Sigh…I should really think about planning out my stories….Nah.
Disclaimer: Blah, blah, blah not mine.
Last time on My Bleeding Heart: Kyo painfully watched Chiharu step closer to Tohru. His vision started to go blurry, he saw Chiharu raise the gun, Black fades in around his eyes, he heard a shot ring out into the night, everything starts to fade, he saw blood run down Tohru's face, and the world goes black.
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Kyo POVAt first I heard screaming, someone calling out my name. It broke through the darkness. There was a pounding in my arm, and the screams grew louder. I was slammed back into reality and started to remember everything.
Tohru! I had to get to her, I tried to move, my eyes still half closed and felt pain sear through my shoulder. "Kyo, don't move, it'll be all right…just stay put." I heard the voice stuttering out of fright…it was Tohru.
But hadn't she been shot? I painstakingly opened my eyes to find her covered in blood. "To...hru" I managed to mumble out. I saw her ripping of some fabric of her shirt and tie it around my stomach; I winced in pain at the process. What the hell had happened?
"Wh…at…?" My breath came out forced and it was hard to talk. What the hell was this?
"Kyo…" I heard Tohru's racking sobs. "Kyo…Kyo, you've been shot…Chiharu shot you." Then what about all that blood on her?
"Kyo…I came over as soon as he did it, and there was so much blood…and then...and then you passed out!" I could hear her sobs and she held my hand tight.
"Don't leave me Kyo…don't leave me here alone…I don't think I could handle it…I think I might break!" She pressed my hand against her eyes and cried. I struggled to not fall asleep. I mean, how could I leave her here…after everything.
A thought suddenly hit me. Where the hell was Chiharu? I suddenly looked up agitated. I saw him, leaning against the brick wall smirking to himself smugly. I turned back to Tohru. I had to stay awake…I had to stay awake for her.
But, oh god, I just wanted to sleep I just wanted to lie back and sleep for a thousand years…I felt so…so tired. I felt her grasp at my hand tighten.
"Kyo…no stay with me! Don't go! Not yet! Please…please stay with me!"
Police and co. - Yuki POVI sat there by Kira for what seemed like an eternity. Suddenly one of the young officers came running up. He was panting and Kira urged him on…by hitting him over the head repeatedly. I stopped her and he finally blurted it out while holding his spinning head.
"Someone called and said that they heard some commotion…two blocks down…in some alleyway." I thanked him quickly and started to run – I ran like my life depended on it…and I guess, in a way, it did.
I heard Shigure calling after me to stop and just go there by car, with the police. But I knew I could make it there faster.
I was about one block down when I heard them turn on their sirens and begin to race down the street. One block to go.
I ran hard, I could hear my feet slapping against the broken down pavement from skateboards and bikes riding over it constantly. I heard my breath heave against my chest. I was there – but where were they?
I started running around and looking for them in all the alleyway and crevices where they could be. Then I heard it, a faint voice, it was a girl and she was sobbing – pleading with someone not to go.
I realized all to quickly it was Tohru. The speeding cars pulled beside me, and the Chief came lumbering out along with Shigure. I pulled them along with me – toward the alleyway where I had heard Tohru's voice.
There she was leaning over Kyo, they both looked a wreck, and I noticed Kyo was bleeding profusely from his torso. I stifled the urge to gag, it smelled metallic, and I realized quickly that it was the smell of blood.
I stood there looking at them for what seemed like eternity. It seemed like it was just them and me, although distantly I could hear the police knocking the gun out of the guy standing in the alleyways hand, and pinning him against the wall.
But it was like I couldn't hear anything. It was eerily quiet. I saw Kyo glance at me, it seemed like he gave me a small nod and a hint of a smile. And that's when I noticed him lean back knocking his head against the filthy brick wall and slowly closing his eyes.
That's when it all came crashing down. I could hear Tohru screeching out Kyo's name. I could hear the guy who shot Kyo struggling against the officers and I just sat there watching pathetically on doing…absolutely nothing.
I saw Kira shaking and then saw her eyes meet mine. "I-I'll go call an ambulance." I looked at the scene before me and just collapsed, I slowly sank to my knees and held my head in my arms. I sat there, and I prayed. I prayed for Kyo and Tohru to be all right. I prayed for the man who had hurt Tohru to go to jail. I just prayed for everything to turn out all right.
I heard sirens in the near distance, they were coming closer but I just sat there, on the garbage-ridden ground and prayed. I prayed for everything to go back to normal. But I knew, I knew in the back of my mind that it would never happen. It was just some silly dream – and it would never come true.
Kyo POVI heard it, sirens coming our way. "Tohru…you…you hear...that?" She nodded tears brimming her eyes. I reached up and let my fingers clumsily stroke her hair. It was so soft and smooth, like silk; I wrapped it around my fingers and stayed that way for a long time.
"Your going to be all right now Tohru...your…your…going…to be…fi…ne" I barely wheezed out these words – and I saw her lean down towards me.
"Kyo…what about you Kyo? You're going to be all right too right? Right!" I felt her trembling body – so small and scared in my arms. I unwrapped her hair from my fingers and moved it down to her face.
"Tohru…you don't know how much…you mean to me…do you?" I leaned up and felt pain shoot through my body, but I didn't care. I brought my face closer to hers, I could feel the tickle of her brown locks on my forehead and I stared into her scared eyes, red from crying.
"Don't cry Tohru…don't be sad." Her lips quivered as she tried to stop her silent tears.
"Tohru…I love you…more than anything in this world…nobody's ever going to stop…me from…loving you…you hear me? Nobody." She nodded her head, her chestnut hair sweeping over her shoulder and colliding into my face; I let my thumb brush against her cheek and leaned forward more.
"It's alright now…he's not going to hurt you anymore…the police are here." Her breath traveled across my face sending chills up my spine.
I moved towards her and pressed my lips against her cheek, then moved down and kissed the crook of her neck, then moved up to her lips.
I felt her lips moving against mine, clumsily at first, but then started going in sync with mine. I tried to tell her all my emotions I felt for her through that kiss. My longing, to see her smiling so pure and innocently. My wanting, to hold her in my arms and never let go. And my love. Oh god – I loved her so much, it felt like my heart would burst out of my chest. I tried to push those emotions through to her.
I felt her hot breath against my cheek as she came up for air, I nipped at her lip then kissed her deeply again. I felt her arms wrap around my shoulders and she buried her head into my neck.
I stroked her hair then brought her head closer to mine as I kissed her gently once more; then leaning back against the wall I felt the pain shoot through my stomach once more, I reached out and grabbed her hands holding them in mine.
"…hru."
"Kyo!" I heard her muffled cry. It wasn't working. Oh god – why couldn't I talk?
"To…..hru." I heard my voice it was strained, husky from lack of air.
"What Kyo? Tell me? Please god – Kyo don't leave me." She half shouted – her voice hoarse.
I saw cops rushing into the alleyway, and Yuki standing and watching us. I nodded at him, and smiled – forgiving him for whatever the rats damn problem was before. What did it matter anyway? Nothing it was all a stupid crock.
I felt Tohru squeeze my hand and looked back at her, she was safe now. I could let go. I could finally sleep, sleep for a hundred years.
"To….hru….I-I'll….always….love…you." I kissed her hand and let myself fall asleep to dreams of blackness.
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Heh heh – Don't hate me? Let me tell you those knives that were thrown at me last time were not very fun! And see nothing happened to Tohru! It was all for nothing…although someone did get shot…oh well.
-dodges knives thrown from people- heh heh anyway please review maybe if I get a lot I won't be to mean in the next chapter…laughs evilly. Anyway please review – there will be one more chapter then It'll be done…I guess my dreams of getting 400 reviews is shattered. Heehee.
Anyway review and if you have time read shinsei kokoro's story head over heels it's like amazing. It's a CCS but seriously you don't even need to know the story to read it. And she hads like these amazingly huge chapters. Seriously I printed out the 23 chapters she had so far and it took like 500 pages heehee. I can't wait till she updates. Sigh anyway I'm just rambling so review and read that story…and my other one. See? You have a lot of work to do.
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