A/N: I'm going to be going on vacation soon and wont be able to update so I'm going to try to update as much as possible before then. But I'm sorry if I don't update that much.

Harry began to giggle insanely at Blaise's comment. Draco just lifted on eyebrow and stared at the door questioningly. " Sometimes I think that kid can either read minds or see through doors…" Draco muttered to himself.

With great reluctance he got up off of Harry and went to the door. He looked back at Harry and said " We will be continuing this later." Harry didn't have a chance to respond because the second the door opened people flooded in.

The first were of course Blaise and Cho. The other people consisted mainly of friends from other bands. Everyone was speaking at once and only caught fragments of what people were saying.

" Harry you scared us…"

" … we thought something horrible…"

"..why?"

"…Ron and Hermione…"

" … there before it happened…"

Harry began to feel overwhelmed with all the voices and it must have shown on his face because Cho noticed and motioned for everyone to quiet down.

Awkward silence filled the room, no one knew exactly what to say. They were scared of saying something that might upset Harry, since he was well known for his temper….. especially when he was stuck in a hospital.

The silence was broken by Blaise saying, "Wow, this is awkward.. Strangely enough it's making me hard." There was a moment of silence before the room erupted into laughter.

Only Blaise would make a comment like that in awkward situations. The laughter died almost immediately as the door opened and in walked in the two people everyone blamed for Harry's current condition.

They look a bit uncomfortable at being glared at but ignored it. They walked over to Harry warily. "Harry I'm so sor-" but was cut off by Draco saying, " Get out. You're unwanted here."

Hermione paused for a second before continuing as if no one had ever interrupted here. This only made Draco even more furious.

" Look Harry this is our fault. Before you managed to slam the door in our faces," she paused and gave Harry a look before continuing.

" I put a memory spell on you. I hoped you would remember all the fun times we had together, you know before you got into that… stuff."

Harry heard Draco growl slightly and besides the current situation was slightly amused by it. (a/n: I'm extremely amused at the thought of Draco growling.)He looked at Hermione in a weird way, he hadn't liked that way she said stuff.

She said it like it was something horribly disgusting. The tone was almost the same she used when talking about Death Eaters.

" Harry I'm sorry. I didn't know you would pick a bad memory of us… And I'm sorry because I should have known that there was a possibility in you getting stuck in your memories."

Harry could feel his temper beginning to rise. Harry's friends began to back away from him, they knew that Hermione had set off his temper.

"You mean to tell me… that I am stuck in here…. because you two thought that I would forgive you… for all the hell you put me through… if I had a trip down memory lane!" Harry had to pause periodically to control his anger.

The last time he didn't control his anger he almost ended up in the mental unstable part of the hospital. His anger had been so strong that he had performed wandless magic and ended up destroying part of the hospital. Needless to say, the healers hadn't been very happy about it.

" Harry please don't be mad. I'm really, really sorry." Hermione reached out to touch Harry's shoulder. Harry recoiled from her touch, the memories he had been forced to remember were still fresh in his mind.

Hermione looked hurt but Harry couldn't feel anything but fear and hatred towards them. " Look mate, we truly are sorry. We were young and naïve back then." Ron stared at the ground as he said this, so he didn't see the shock on Harry's face. Harry hadn't expected Ron to say anything, especially sorry. Ron had always been like that, reluctant to apologize no matter how wrong he was.

Harry sighed and said, " I'm sorry but I can't forgive you guys. You two put me through a lot, and the worst part was that it was when I was at my weakest." Harry looked down and stared at this lap before continuing.

" I suffered a lot thanks to you two. I had lost my two best friends for what seemed like insignificant reasons. You guys had always said you would stand with me through everything, no matter what. But then it all changes because I liked a different kind of music and I dressed a different way."

" You guys know that I went through a lot, but no. Harry Potter, the boy who lived, the bloody choose one isn't allowed to be sad or depressed." Harry's voice was filled with bitterness by now.

Harry paused a bit before saying, " Do you two have any clue what you put me through? How I felt when you left me? What I almost did?"

Harry saw that Draco had stiffened at the last part, Draco remembered quite clearly. Blaise looked completely confused and when Harry looked on her face he saw realization dawning upon her face.

Her eyes filled with tears. And realization began to dawn upon everyone, except Ron and Hermione, when they saw Draco's and Cho's reactions.

Hermione looked a bit worried and unsure, her voiced trembled as she asked, " Harry what did you almost do?" Blaise looked up, wanting his thoughts to be proved wrong. Blaise looked directly into Harry's eyes, but Harry wasn't looking back. His eyes had clouded over, visiting a memory that had once been hidden in the back of his mind.

Harry began to speak, possibly unaware that he was. " I had only been let out of the hospital a couple of days before hand. I remember the day clearly…"

Flashback

It was slightly warm that night, with a cool breeze. It was night by now and Harry was sitting outside near the Forbidden Forest. He had barely managed to escape unnoticed from his friends.

They had been watching him a lot, since he was found in the astronomy tower sitting on the ledge. He had been staring down thinking about how long the drop was and whether it was enough to kill… someone. Harmony, a 6th year Slytherin he had made friends with, happened to pass by.

He had told her that he wasn't going to jump.That he had just been thinking but she wasn't convinced. It was obvious that she had told my friends to keep a closer watch on me. She hadn't told them why, because he definitely wouldn't have been able to get away today.

Harry stared at the razor blade in his hand, the cold metal looked so tempting. Harry ripped his eyes away from the shinning metal to look at his wrist. The moonlight made his skin look even more pale than usual.

Harry pressed the metal to his wrist and felt himself shudder. He loved the feeling of the metal against his skin. He heard doors slam in the background. He might have heard someone shouting his name, but he wasn't sure.

Harry recalled the other day when Ron had said to him, "Down the road, not across. Make it count." Harry laughed bitterly as tears slid down his face. Well at least his death would make someone happy.

Harry heard Draco running in his direction as he began to slide the metal up his arm. But for some reason he stopped after a couple of inches. It would bleed yes, but not enough to die.

Harry burst into tears and fell the rest of the way to the ground. He felt Draco wrap his arms around him, trying to soothe him with comforting words.

After Harry had calmed down Draco lifted him up and took him to Blaise, who happened to know a few healing spells that would help.

A/n: Wow that was longer than my usual chapter, hope you're happy. I had been planning on stopping it earlier to leave you guys on a cliffie but I couldn't stop writing. :p so please review . thanks!