It's been a week since I came back to school.

I lay on my bed, wretchedly trying to go to sleep.

I roll around, I try to sleep facing the opposite way, I try sleeping on the floor, moving to the couch downstairs, I even tried running in place to tire myself out. And still I am deprived of my much needed sleep.

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It's been like this since Yuki stopped looking at me. It's been like this since he stopped paying attention to me.

I can't sleep. I can't eat.

…I'm dieing…

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It's been a month.

I look in the mirror and I can count my ribs. My skin is pale. I stopped going to Master's dojo. My wrists are sore and bloody.

I don't feel. I don't listen. I can't care anymore.

Everything's lost, everything's gone. Nothing left but emptiness, and the claws of depression ripping at my soul.

…I'm slowly crumbling…I'm falling farther than before, and I'm getting closer to Akito's wrath every minute…but I can't care…I've forgotten how to.

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I walked down the stairs, or more like stumbled. I accidentally missed a step and hit my arm on the rail. I clutched my sore, fresh cuts to my chest and I whimpered silently, tears coming down my face.

I saw Yuki at the bottom of the steps, he was looking at me. I saw pain in his eyes. And at that moment I wanted nothing more than to hold him with all my might.

He walked away, I sobbed, more tears springing forth against my will.

You took my heart, you told me you loved my, and than you through me away as soon as I was broken. I thought bitterly.

I brokenly sobbed as I got to my feet and went to my room.

I searched through my bureau. I saw a glint of metal in the sun, and found what I was searching for. My tool of pleasure, my knife.

I removed my shirt. I stared at myself. Broken goods. That's all I was, not even good for sex.

I gripped the knife, and brought it slowly across my flat stomach, I shivered in pain and pleasure, I felt the hot liquid slowly running down my skin and collecting at the top of my pants.

I crossed the cut two more times, before I had to sit down. I was light headed from the loss of blood.

Slowly I lie down on my bed. I hear people down stairs; my keen ears pick out Uo, Hana and that David kid.

I groan, and pulled the covers up over myself, they were black, so that if anyone came in they would just think he was still asleep.

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David POV

I looked around the Sohma house. It was nice, not like the more European stile houses Uo and Hana lived in though. It was the kind of house I wanted to live in when I signed up for the exchange student program.

"Oh hello David." Tohru said cheerily.

"Ah, hi Tohru." A said with a smile, I looked around I say Tohru, and Yuki, but no Kyo. "Hey where is Kyo? He lives here right?"

"Ah yeah, I think he's in his room, I was about to go get him." Tohru said, about to untie here apron.

"Ah wait, tell me where his room is, and I'll go get him." I offered.

"Okay, it's up the stairs, the second door." She smiled sweetly.

I walked up the stairs, and to the second door. I stopped for some odd reason I was hesitant. I shook my head, sometimes I can be stupid.

I knocked.

"…" Nothing.

I knocked again.

"…" Still nothing.

I opened the door, there he was lying on the bed, just looking at me.

I hit myself in the head, stupid stupid stupid stupid, how's he supposed to answer if he can't talk? Stupid stupid…

"I am so sorry, man, I totally forgot." I said walking into the room a little.

He didn't move at all, he just looked at me.

I lowered my eyes.

"umm…" This was getting awkward, so I closed the door and sat down in front of him.

"What's the matter with you?" I asked resting my head on my palm.

He shook his head, finally a sign of life on planet Kyo.

"Dude I'm not that stupid, what's up?" I asked again, seeing his marker and mini whiteboard, and gave them to Kyo.

He didn't pull down his blanket, not even to write, he just looked at me.

"Dude, come on." I tried to pull the blanket away, but he wouldn't let go. I pulled harder, but he clutched it with white knuckles.

He was hiding something, and I was going to find out what it was. Suddenly I pulled with all my might, and he wasn't ready for it, he let go.

I stared in shocked horror. I looked around, the bloody knife on the bureau, the spots of blood on the wooden floors; the smell, the horrible smell of blood…

I scrambled to get to my feet; I started to run out the door but didn't make it in time before I puked my guts onto the wooden floors.

I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand, and cautiously looked back at Kyo. He was sitting up, his hands resting on his horrible, bloody stomach wound.

"Kyo…" I croaked, trying to keep sobs back.

He looked up, tears running down his face.

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Kyo POV

Why is he crying? Why isn't he running away?

I laid back down, it hurt to sit up.

David started to crawl over to me. I moved away.

"Kyo." He said it again before he took me into his arms.

I struggled. No! No! Not again, not again, PLEASE NOT AGAIN I begged silently, my mouth open but the words unable to come forth.

"Kyo, why are you hurting yourself like this?" He sobbed into the crook of my neck.

I struggled some more, but…My body went limp with exhaustion, let him take advantage of me. I stared blankly at the ceiling.

"Kyo." He shook my shoulders.

I heard a gasp from the doorway. It was Tohru, Uo and Hana.

"Someone call the ambulance, hurry." Uo said coming over to me.

"David what happened?" Uo asked shaking David, he seemed to have gone into shock.

"I don't know," He sobbed, "I came up here and he was like this." He held me tighter.

My sight started to go blurry. Noises started to dull…and then nothing.