Chapter Three: HEART and SOUL

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When Jr. woke up, Gaignun was sleeping near him. He kept his promise, he didn't go anywhere. He didn't leave Jr. alone. That brought a smile onto Jr.'s face. He chuckled when he saw Gaignun 'hmm' and 'emm'. That raven haired man looks so innocent in sleep.

Fear attacked Jr. again. Yes, fear. Fear of Albedo. He's not used to be like that, since he has no fear of anything. But now, Albedo scared him, with his madness and obsessive acts. Jr. felt like nothing compared to that milky haired URTV. He's strong, scary, mad, yet Jr. still believed that Albedo was still the old Albedo.

A stupid belief, absolutely.

That boy's sapphire eyes locked at Gaignun's face. He looks so tired. The life of a trustee is not easy, but he has to walk on it. Jr. felt sorry for the younger URTV. If he didn't do that stupid act at years ago, they – he, Albedo, and Gaignun – will always live as allies, not enemy. They won't have to suffer, especially Albedo and Gaignun. As an older brother, that crimson haired boy's heart was filled by guilty.

"I'm sorry…" Jr. murmured, "I didn't mean to do it… Everyone suffers because of me… I… I'm sorry…"

Gaignun pretended that he's still sleeping. He doesn't want to see Jr.'s sad face again. Not now. Not after he dreamed of Jr.'s happiness. Nevertheless, he can't hold the want to cheer his older brother up. Those emerald eyes opened, meeting with the cerulean eyes. Gaignun's calm face was locked with Jr.'s sad face.

"Oh, you're awake," Jr. commented, his voice was full of sorrow.

This is not the usual Rubedo, Gaignun spoke inside his heart, Albedo's act really affected him. Dammit, if only I could protect him… I feel so useless and weak. I can't do anything for Rubedo… Damn…

"I hate it when I saw you like this," Gaignun whispered, after a while thinking what he should say to the younger looking URTV. "It hurts me, don't you know that?" he added in hope Jr. will erase his sadness.

"I'm sorry," Jr. muttered.

"Now, now, you don't need to apologize. C'mon, Rubedo, get up. Don't sink inside the sea of sorrow. You didn't do anything wrong," the older looking URTV replied, "Instead of sobbing, why don't you do the paperwork? I'm sure Shelley has… tons of the new ones."

Jr. chuckled. "Okay, okay… I'll do them. Shit, sometimes I hope those droids can be used to do those damn craps," he laughed. Gaignun laughed too. No one likes paperwork.

But as day passed, Jr. was terrorized by nightmares again, and Albedo's voice haunted his ears every second. The memory when Albedo almost raped him followed him everywhere, and that pushed him deeper into the sorrow and fear he felt.

Both of his heart and soul… were crushed by Albedo. Slowly, yet painfully and surely.

Gaignun realized this, and he knew he cannot do anything. At last he thought he can't. It's not easy to cheer up his older brother.

Continue to chapter 4: LEAVING

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Thanks God I could finish this chapter! I'm so empty of ideas… So maybe Chapter 4 will came a bit later.

Thank you for Al-Behd-Riku, because if I didn't read his reviews I probably will delete this story or leave it all alone like that!