I'm so sorry that I haven't updated! My computer crashed and I couldn't write for months! To make up for it I'll make this chapie nice and long…at least I'll try…

Chapter 4-The reason for betrayal

Sesshomaru

Why did she leave? …I'm sure she wanted to stay…why did she feel we had to be separated? Is something going on between her and that half-b…I mean Inuyasha?

Rin

… Lately so many things have been going through my head…I could've easily stayed with Sesshomaru…why didn't I? "Inuyasha?" I said as we landed in front of my cabin. "Why didn't you stay with Kagome?" We walked inside in silence until he said, "I don't know…some things have no meaning…" I pursued with the question "No! There has to be a reason! You could've just whisked her off her feet and…" I didn't get to finish because Inuyasha spun on me and said, "Why didn't you!?!" I stood quietly. I realized that once again I had no reason. Inuyasha said his award winning "Feh" and left me wallowing in my own stupidity.

Soon I just I sat down and cried. "Sesshy…I love you so much…but I …can't stay…what am I saying of course I can! But I don't want to be tied down…but I don't love anyone other then Sesshomaru! Why is my mind scrambled!"

Inuyasha

I walked back into the room to see Rin on the floor talking to her self. Honestly, this sight was really sad. To me it was simple: You stay or you don't! What was the diffucult thing about it? Still, I feel bad about lying to Rin. I know why I didn't take Kagome and go… I have nothing to offer. All I will do to our children is turn them to beast that the world would refuse to accept. They could never see the modern time of Japan…they will be pinned down here where hanyou's still are freaks in a world of demons. What good advice could I possibly give her?

"Rin…" I said. "She stopped her babbling and looked up at me with watery eyes. "Go." I said bluntly. "W-what?" I sighed and said "GO! You can't sit here and waste your life away over some stupid shit like this! Just go! Marry my brother ,live a good life! Stop thinking about what could've been and do what you feel is right!" she looked at me like was a brand new person. She then packed her belongings (except for the pots and bowls) and went towards the door.

She stopped in the middle of they doorway and said "Inuyasha…" I turned my back and said "Yes?" I felt her smile as she said "thank-you." She then walked out the door.

Okay…I admit that this is not long at all but please accept for the fact that I finally updated! Begging and pleading for life as hanging over active volcano Ahhhhhhhhhh! Please I'll write more! Just review! ouch! Hot!