Chapter 5: Just Thinking
Ruthie went back downstairs, with Martin not far behind.When she got into the kitchen she saw Lucy was gone, so she turned and told him she'd be in the backyard if he needed anything, and walked quickly out shutting the door softly behind her.
Martin watched as Ruthie walked out of the kitchen leaving him to talk to Cecilia in privet, something he wished she wouldn't have done. If he had to go through this, he wanted her right there next to him.But she was gone and now he had to do it alone.Praying silenly to himself he walked over to the counter 'Lord please, just help me to get this over with as quickly as posable, without anyone getting hurt.' He picked up the phone and inhaled a long deep breath before putting the phone to his ear.
"Hello?"
Outside
Falling into the couch bench on the porch Ruthie brought her knees to her chest and pulled a blanket over her.She looked out into the dark sky as a million thought's raced throught her mind.But one question she couldn't get past was 'What if she want's to get back together with him?'She was still unsure of why she cared so much.'I keep trying to convince myself that it's because he's my friend and I worry about him ... but that's not it ... I do worry about him but there's something else ... ' Her mind drifted back to earlyer that day ...
"Ruthie ... there will always be apart of me that will always Love Cecilia ... because she was the first girl I ever felt that way about. But believe me when I say this. I am not in Love with her anymore.And she will not be the last girl I ever Love, that I am positive about."
"And she will not be the last girl I ever Love, that I am positive about."
"positive"'What was that supposed to mean?I wonder if he already found somebody else ... ' She herd the door open and came back to reality.She looked up waiting to see Martin walk out, but insted was greeted by Kevin, who at first didn't even notice she was there.She watched as he let out a defeated sigh and turned to go back inside, but midturn he saw her.
"Ruthie there you are. I've been looking everywhere for you. Lucy want's you ... she said something about you needing to talk."
"No I think it was more Lucy who needed me to talk." She smiled up at her brother in-law, who laughed and sat down next to her.
"What's wrong?"
"Aghh! Why does everyone keep asking me that?"
"Well if everyone keeps asking you then abvously I'm not the only one who's noticed.Which also means that there is something wrong ... "Ruthie pulled the blanket tighter around herself and put her head on her knees."So ... what is it?
Ruthie thought for a second while Kevin just stared at her waiting.
"Honestly?... I don't know."
"You don't know? Can I ask you something else?"
She looked at him expectantly.
"What are you doing out here?"
"Just thinking."
"Oh." He got up off the bench.
'Ooh? It's never that easy ... especally when it come's to kevin.' He turned to face her again.
"So, your out here thinking? About what?" 'I knew it wouldn't be that easy.'
"I don't know just thinking. Why?"
"No reason really ... just wondering.So who's Martin talking to?"
"Cecilia."
"Cecilia?" Kevin looked at her like he had just figured out the world."And your Ook with that?"
"Why wouldn't I be?"
Kevin just laughed and started to walk away.
"Ruthie your going to have to figure this one out on you own. Lucy's in the boy's room if you decied you want to talk."
"Figure what out!" She watched as Kevin disappered out the back gate.