Sin:-growls-
Iruka:What the heck are you doing?
Sin:I'm growling at random objects I hate
Kakashi:Did you get homework for the weekend?
Sin:No,Kashi-kun,I managed to slip out ot it...
Iruka:Why are you so ticked then?
Sin:I have anger issues.That's why.
Iruka:I found you some Yaoi pics...
Sin and Kakashi:YAY!!!
Iruka:Since they're busy I'll do it...
She disclaims,she merely owns Aaya...and 'Okami' is japanesse for wolf
Warnings:There is mention on molestation and or rape in someone's past...
Sin Got:
Anger Issues(lol),Chocolate chip cookies and many many thanks!
To My REVIEWERS:
TheDarkestWhiteRose:Wow,I've never heard that saying before, (aka This story it the shit!) and at first i didn't see 'the' and i thought you insulted me,but i re-read it and then i got it.-sweatdrop-Thank you!
trulywicked:Oh i get nosebleeds all the time,thank you!I hope this is okay,sorry it focuses on Aaya's past and why she's so messed up and similar to Naruto
LadydemonLyn:Oi,i have no idea why they call it limes and lemons.But anyway everntually everyone had to know why aaya's so screwed up to strangers in future chapters.Her past is sad.It just is.
gaara's point of veiw
I awoke next to my sleeping okami.She lay on her stomach taking deep breaths.I smiled and stretched,getting up and dressing.I decided to go and pick up some movies from the rental place.I walked out into the rain and made my way down the street.
((afterwards))
I walked into the dimly lit home.The rain poured out side visible since the black curtains were pulled back,with were the only source of light that dared to flow into the room full of depression.A lump curled tightly together laid on the blackened couch.Silvery hair in the lightning's light was strewn across the upholstery,black painted nails dug into the pale flesh of the girl's legs with many scars around her ankles.Her knees were drawn up to her face.Her eyes closed tightly,she didn't stir as a particularly loud thunder strike shook the house.What has happened to my litle angel?Her unusually shorter shirt riding up her pale abdomin revealing one of her two tattoos.I brushed my fingers over the kanji 'Hate' on her hip.I found it a bit ironic,I hate love tattoed on and she hate.The other tattoo on her right hip was the symbol for 'alone in the dark'.
"What's happened?What's wrong?"I asked quietly as I sat down next to her.I brushed away her chin legnth bangs that covered her sunburnt cheek.Her brows unfurrowed and her eyes opened half-lidded,revealing jade eyes.Emotionless and blank.Without any pupils whatsoever."So,you've retreated to your head again,"I sighed sadly.Something must have happened.Yet I still don't know how to comfort you when you're in this state.
She always retreats to her mind when reality is too harsh.She said it was something she did since she was small.Lock herself away from the world and protect herself."You remind me so much of how I felt when I was all alone in the world.So scared and alone.Always locking away your heart to keep from getting hurt.But it's okay now."I pleaded,"It's okay to want to protect yourself,but I won't hurt you,I made a promise,and I intend to keep it..."
'I would never forget that day...'
Flashback:
After she saw what day it was on the calender she ran out of the house without a sound.When I finally found her in a clearing she fell to her knees sobbing into her palms.I suddenly remembered.She had been raped on this day.This was the day she feared most of all.The day she grew an unimaginable fear of ally ways in the dark.This was the day that haunted her memory ever since that bastard found her.All alone walking home.
It happened when she was younger,so naturally,that left her scared with wounds deep and unable to heal.Though she was younger she was aware of the consequences that this would have on her soul.As darkness clouded her vision as he inner demon posessed her body.Attacking the man,and eventually...killing him.Seeing a bloody body and blood all over yourself she went into shock and panic as soon as conscieness came back.That event made her the way she is.
I kneeled down next to my friend.I hesitated before placing a hand on her shoulder.She immediatly stiffened to the touch.Looking up at me she threw her arms around me and cried into my already soaked chest.I never really knew how much I cared for her,but seeing her in such a state of fear and sadness,I couldn't take it.My heart her to she her sad.I sat down and pulled her into my lap.I could feel her hot breath and knew she said something."What?"I asked."Please don't leave me."She pleaded.She grasped my clothes tighter,trembling,"I don't want to be alone when I'm sad anymore.I want someone who won't leave me when I'm alone and broken."
I never really knew as much about her past as I did Naruto's but what pieces I did know were sad and depressing.I didn't know what love was like but I'm pretty sure this is what it should feel like.The need to make sure that person won't face their fears alone,the need to make them happy.I loved her.There was something about her.The way she blushes when she reads yaoi strories or when something embaressing happens to someone.The way way she always wants to make everyone else happy,even if she doesn't tell you.Her kind small smile easily confused with a smirk.
"I won't leave you.Never.I promise."She looked into my seafoam eyes almost suprised at my answer.I placed my lips tenderly on hers.When I pulled away her tears had stopped.Somehow I could tell through the rain."Why would you want me.I'm so screwed up..."She tried to pull away but my grip on her wrist pervented that."I know what happened.Naruto told me because he knew I liked you.I know why you don't like being alone in the dark, why you flinch when someone even brushes your shoulder,Why you're so angry all the time,why your trust is so hard to earn...and easy to loose..."Her eyes widened then looked sad again,"You know why,but are you sure?"I sighed,'stubborn as usual'.
"Of course.You are what I love.I love how you are strong enough to show me your weakness,the fact that you still love enen though you're afraid.I want to protect you from all that troubles you.I want you to be happy,"I felt tears fall down my pale cheeks.I hardly ever cried,but I would for her.She smiled up at me."I'll be happy if I'm with you."I pulled her into a delicate kiss.
End Flashback
I knew I was petting her hair.It was something I'd grown acustomed to playing with her hair.Her body untensed as I placed a kiss on her cheek.Her nails undug themselves from her legs and she slowly sat up.I almost smiled but saw her eyes were still unfocused.I pulled her into a out of your mind.If you keep locking yourself away then you may not be able to come back out."I let go of her just in time to see her pupils reappear.I smiled as a tear fell down her cheek."I'm sorry.I just don't know any other way besides locking myself up."She threw her arms around me,"I'm sorry..I'm so sorry..."I couldn't help but smile.She still wanted to make me happy an apolagize for what she couldn't control."I'll be here to help you.So you won't face this alone,"I told her.I could feel her smile into my chest.
((later...))
She sat with her legs bent over my lap,her back resting against the armrest.We watched a movie called 'The Conqueror of Samballa'.She leaned against my shoulder as a few tears ran down her cheek."I admire you."I mumbled into her hair."What?"She looked up suprised,"How could you-?" I looked solemly into her eyes,"Dispite what your parents told you,you are very strong.You've been treated badly by those called 'your family' but it gave you empathy,You know what it feels like to be in pain.You love so many people,you let them see your fears and worries.You're strong when you can do that."I kissed her lightly.She snuggled into my chest,"Thank you,"She wisper,"For loving me."shesome how felt into a light sleep without passing out.But in my mind,I knew she was in a deep day dream away from reality where no one could hurt her or anyone she loves.
Sin:-nosebleed-
Iruka:Are you going to be okay?
Sin:Yep...however I feel much better,thans Iruka-kun -glomps-
Kakashi:-reading Sin's yaoi stories-
Sin:I am so sorry for the shortness but i am feeling impending doom approaching..aka WRITER'S BLOCK!!!!(NOOOO!!!!)so I apologize for future lack of updates on this story...Please do give up on me!
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