Chapter Two; I've Wasted All This Time on You.

Author Notes; I wanted to get this new chapter at least started before the new episode premiered, which is in less than an hour. :D Thanks for all the reviews! And the POV for this chapter is Sean's. Wow. Just Wow. I just saw the new episode and can you say…disappointment much? I was hoping (and I know all my EmJay lovers did too) that there would be more emjay!

Disclaimer; I don't own Degrassi; if I did the line "She damn near begged me to do it" (Jay) would be out of the new episode and replaced with something that showed he still loves her. 3

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Sean sat in his lonely apartment, blasting his iPod, throughout his new "home". He had some songs on there that reminded him of Emma; actually just about everything reminded him of Emma. Anyways, he listened to the words of the song "Save Your Breath" by Hit the Lights. Normally they weren't his type of band but it seemed almost fitting at the moment.

Save your breath this time around
You're too beautiful and it's late
there's nothing left to say
I've wasted all this time on you
On you

He was still furious, of course he was. You would be too if you found out your ex-girlfriend (then girlfriend again, now back to ex-girlfriend) had hooked up with your best friend (not anymore!) right after you left town. He had every right to be furious… and a little jealous?

And every time I think of him it makes me sick
And I don't wanna know just what happened then
In the van right in front of my house

Sean scoffed, he always thought Emma was better than that. Hooking up in a van? In the ravine of all places! Oh and don't forget the fact that she was with Jay Hogart, king of the scum. And the worst part of it, she got an STD from him! What Jay wasn't even considerate enough to use protection? He just couldn't fucking wait to get her head in his fucking pants that he couldn't spare two seconds to put on a condom! That idiot, he ruined Emma.

He thought back to the times when Emma and Jay were even near each other they'd fight about something or other. Like when Emma caught Jay stealing from the Dot, oh what a great fight that was to watch. "Chemical Spills… clean the ravine…" Sean said to himself, shaking his head. He couldn't help but wonder: did Jay really force Emma into this? If he did…Emma wouldn't of covered for him, that's not how she is. Sean shook his head again, shaking all that he knew about Emma, perfect Emma, because all of that was an obvious lie. He went back to thinking about Emma and Jay's encounters, his mind floated back to the day he left to go back to Wasega… they were closer then. They always stood near each other, and at the beach, Jay buried Emma and Sean remembered watching them smile at each other. Something was up. Something is still up.


Every time you go to sleep at night
I wonder what you hide behind closed eyes
what else could you be keeping from me?
What else could you be keeping from me?

The last line lingered in Sean's head. What else was Emma hiding from him? Did she secretly have sex with Spinner? Get filmed naked by Peter? Was there a whole diary full of secrets that she had held from him? Sean couldn't stand it, but there was no way he could go talk to her. Not now, maybe he could never talk to her. In his eyes she was different, her whole life had changed so much since the shooting and Sean couldn't help but think he was the biggest cause of her changes.