Hey, hey, hey! How art everyone human out there? Ok, not funny, I know. So, I'm doing ok. My sis is back from camp, so it wouldn't be peaceful around here anymore. I'm really happy cuz...I might be able to buy my McFly cd over sea's! Now I don't have to wait until '07 for my cd which would kill me. But like McFly says, "I guess at times like these remind me, that I've got to keep my feet on the ground." Ok, that sounded way better in my head... NEways, thanks for all the comments. I wish I could thank everyone, but I'm lazy and I don't want to pull it up. So, you know who you are, and if you didn't review, grrrrrrrr. I'll see you when I finish writing and typing up episode. I'm thinking in about a week, cuz my editor is leaving today and won't be back till Tuesday, then give her a couple of days to read it and fix it. So, that's all. Check out "That Girl" at

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Disclaimer: Um, "I let her slip away, they tell me everyday, that it'll be ok, Yeah, she rocked my world, more than any other girl..."

Previously on Everyone Has Secrets...

"Here, let me help you," James said putting down his bag.

"Thank you, young man," the elder replied.

"Albus Dumbledore."

"James Potter."

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"Vanessa, Vanessa,Vanessa. Is that really you? Geez, you look totally different."

"You two know each other?"

"Yeah. We go way back. Vanessa, whatever happened to you? You like, vanished off the face of the planet.

"Look, I'm sorry. I was acting like a jerk. I was with my buddies and it just...spilled out," Jason said.

"What do you want Jason?"

"I wanted to see if you were ok."

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"Hey Potter! James, wait up!" Lily called as she rounded a corner.

"Oh! Lily, I was going to ask you, would you like to go to the second years' party with me tonight?" James asked.

"Yeah, sounds like fun."

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"James!" Kendra cried. "Who's your friend?"
"Wha...oh, this is Lily. An um...friend from Hogwarts."

"Let's go get something to drink, James," Lily said.

"Well, make sure you save a dance for me, Potter."

Episode 8- Thinking and Relising

James sat through a very dull, very boring history class. He thought that dropping history back in 6th year meant forever.

Nope.

Every 5 minutes or so, Remus would shake Sirius andJames awake.

Finally, James decided to focus on Lily.

She was writing down furiously everything and anything important. She was watching and writing at the same time. Every now and then she would tuck a stray hair behind her ears or lick her lips.

"I think he's drooling," James heard Sirius whisper.

James whipped his head around.

Sirius did this eyebrow thing and then winked at him.

"Shut up!" James mouthed.

He looked back at Lily and she was staring right back at him.

James blushed and Lily smiled at him. James continued his search around the classroom and found Snape.

He was leaned over his parchment and writing very quickly in that tiny, scrunched up hand writing.

James just rolled his eyes. At last, the bell rang.

James jumped up and packed, hoping to catch Lily.

"Lily!" He called to her retreating back.

"Look, I just wanted to say…"

"No, no. Let me go first. I'm really sorry. My behavior was totally unexpected. I was very rude last night to both you and Kendra and it was uncalled for. I'm so ashamed of myself," she said.

"Hey. It's no problem. I thought it was "that time of month" anyway," James said with a chuckle.

Lily smiled.

James didn't know what to say after a comment like that. So he just said the first thing that came to mind.

"If I can help you in any…"

"James, I'm not on it. I was just…tired. Everything's good," Lily said. She stepped in and gave him a hug. The first thing James noticed was that she smelled good.

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The first thing Lily noticed was that James smelled good.

Really good.

"I'll see you around. Unless you want to go to the library with me," She said with a smile.

"No thanks. I'm heading down for lunch."

"Alright, I'll see you around," She said turning towards the library.

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Vanessa walked towards the showers outside the 1st year's lounge. She knew that no one would be in there for most people wouldn't walk outside the lounge to shower. Plus it was 5 o'clock.

"Quidditch Shinglton?" Jason called.

Vanessa stopped walking and turned around.

"Didn't think you were fond of flying."

Vanessa closed her eyes and sighed.

"Why do you keep bothering me?" she asked.

Jason gave a chuckle.

"Am I a bother? What's wrong with trying to talk to a friend?"

Vanessa turned and kept walking.

Jason ran to catch up.

"Seriously," Jason reasoned. "I mean…"

"I wouldn'tqualify us as friends anymore," Vanessa cut in.

"What?"

"Look, I hardly know you anymore, and I think you could say the same," She said.

"It's not like…"

"You haven't seen me since I was 13! Six years! You haven't talked to me in six years!" Vanessa cried.

"Why?" Jason asked.

"What?"

"Why are you shunning people out?" Jason asked again.

"I'm not…"

"Yeah, you are. Look at how you treat your roommate. What's her name? Lily? She may not know you well, but you can tell she cares. Me. Even if I haven't seen you in six years, I still want to talk to you," Jason explained. "It's like you want people to repel against you," Jason said.

They had reached the washroom.

Vanessa turned and looked Jason in the eye.

"Maybe I do," she whispered.

"Oh no. That's the image you're putting on yourself. You know what I think? I think that you're afraid to let anyone gettoo close to you. Afraid of what might happen. I think that you'd rather be known as a nobody, rather than hurt as a somebody," Jason said, his voice dangerously low.

Vanessa bit the inside of her mouth. She wanted to blink but dared not to. She didn't know what to say to a remark like that.

"Just…leave…me…alone," She spat back in an undertone.

Vanessa threw the door open and slammed it closed.

Vanessa stood in the shower thinking. She was thinking about what Jason had said. Was that true? Was what he said what she was feeling?

As if.

Why do you think that?

Because, there's nothing to be afraid of about your past. You didn't kill anyone.

That's not what he said.

Well, he sure made it sound that way.

Maybe I'm afraid that people will judge me about my past.

Well, of course they're gonna judge you about your past. I mean, you act just like your parents did.

Shut Up!

Just telling the truth.

My mother was decent.

Barely. Hell, I wouldn't be surprised if either one of them were dead right now.

How dare you! Take that back. You don't mean that?

Um…yeah. We'll, it's the truth. You don't love them and they don't love you. Besides, you were thinking the exact same thing.

Vanessa closed her eyes and leaned her head back against the shower wall while a single tear fell down her face.

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James walked down to Dumbledore's hut. He hadn't seen his elderly friend in a while.

James knocked on the door.

Dumbledore opened it with a bright smile on his face.

"Ah, Mr. Potter."

James sat down at the small table set in front of the fire.

"Can you believe the weather? It's only October!" James said.

"Welcome to England," Dumbledore said with a smile.

He handed James a glass and James took a sip.

"Mm, this is hot chocolate."

"Ah, yes it is. I like the mixture it makes with sherbet lemons. Want one?" he offered.

"No thanks," James said keeping his disgust hidden.

The two sat in silence for awhile sipping at the warm beverage.

Finally, Dumbledore said, "Something's bothering you. Am I right?"

"Yeah. Kinda. I don't know," James said. "I mean, I'm…"

"Having girl problems eh?" Dumbledore said with a smile.

"Yeah sort of. Ok, so there's Kendra. And dude, she's amazing. She's nice and smart…"

"Beautiful?"

"Beautiful! Gorgeous! She's amazing. But she's a year older than me," James finished.

"So what if she's older. A year's not that much."

"Yeah. But then there's Lily. Now, I've know Lily since I was eleven."

"Well, that's good," Dumbledore said.

"Yeah, but we weren't the best of friends, if you catch my drift," James said in a small voice.

"I see. But you're friends now?"

"Well, yeah. I guess so."

"What's she like?" he asked.

"Well," James began. "She's brilliant. I swear, she knows everything. And I don't just mean school wise. She knows what to say, when to say it. She can solve any problem and if she could, Lily would help the whole world as quickly as she could. One country at a time."

"Also, she's beautiful and nice. I mean, she's not model pretty, but more like, natural pretty. Plus she smells good.

"What's she smell like?" Dumbledore asked eagerly.

"Oh, she has a fresh, fruity smell. Like, wild flowers, but then, more like an orange of something. It's hard to explain," James said.

"I know what you mean. Do either like you back?"

"Kendra probably does. Even if it's a little. But Lily, I think she'll only see us as enemy's putting their differences behind them. Nothing more."

"Well, you'd be surprised."

James had to leave Dumbledore's in a hurry. The Quidditch team wouldn't be able to meet tomorrow, so instead, Sharpay thought it would be better if she held two practices today.

"You alright Vanessa? Your eyes are a little red," James asked.

She didn't say anything back.

"Come on. Mount up. Start warming up your bodies," Sharpay called.

James started flying around. His eyes were still adjusting to the setting sky.

Sharpay pulled out the quaffle and had Vanessa and James pass it around while she worked with other people.

Vanessa was acting differently today. Her flying was slower; she wasn't putting much effort towards her throws and catches. Plus, twice, she had to dive to grab the uncaught quaffle.

"Shinglton! Why don't you go in for the night," Sharpay said.

With Vanessa leaving, that left James partner less, so Sharpay had James fly around weaving in and out of people and having Liam keep up She said this would help James with his quick movements and Liam with his tracking ability.

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Lily entered the dorm and saw Vanessa in her ritual position. She was rocking back and forth a murmuring very quickly.

"Shouldn't you be done with that already?" Lily asked before she could stop herself.

"I need more time today. Kind of been a shitty day," Vanessa said. "And, no Red, I don't want to talk about it."

"Oh, I wasn't going to ask."

"Shit. I lost the spirits," Vanessa swore.

"Oh. I'm sorry; I know better then to talk to you when you're busy. I'm sorry," Lily said, afraid of what Vanessa might do.

Vanessa just looked at her with that spooky glare.

Lily bit her lip.

"I'm….gonna go take a shower. Or would you not suggest that right now," Lily asked.

"I'm going to bed," she said, blowing out her candles and placing them on the desk.

She hesitated a bit then said, "You can use cinnamon and orange scented candles, if you want. For your pores…"

Lily smiled.

"You know what? I think I'll try that."

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Liam and James walked down the halls. Tired and well worked out.

"You're pretty fast Potter," Liam said.

"Thanks, I guess."

"Dude," Liam said turning around so he was walking backwards. "This is so awesome that you and I are on the same team. Like, I knew you were good, but I didn't think you were that good. You should just plan on becoming a Quidditch player rather than an actual job," Liam said, talking rapidly.

"Yeah, that's what my father said, too," James murmured.

"What, you don't want to do that?"

"Well, not really. I want to help the world. I want to be fighting danger and making a difference in the world," James explained.

"Wow, dude, that's deep," Liam said. "But I guess that's cool too."

"Yeah, wish my father could see that," James muttered.

Bum, bum, bum, buuuuuuum! Ah hahahahaha, ok, I don't know what I'm laughing at. Especially, cuz I'm listening to a sad song right now. (You can say it, I'm weird.) So, I really like writing about Vanessa and Jason. I put most of my effort towards them but I do put effort towards other also. I also love when Liam and James have there talks. Cuz like, Liam's all like, "I love talking to you," and James is like, "Go away." It's sooo much fun. NEways, So, I have a question for you all, what's your favorite band? So, just tell me when you leave a review and I'll be happy! Yeah me! Oh, P.S, the whole part with Vanessa, it was like a Lord of The Rings thing. The italics was like, the old Vanessa/Shmegle, trying to reason with herself. You know, lie to make her feel better. And the bold, was like the new Vanessa/golum, who's like, this is what's happening so get used to it and yeah, it sux but to bad.

Next time on Everyone Has Secrets...

(ok, since I don't have this whole episode typed out, this is going to be narrator style rather than quotes...)

Halloween has come around to Hogwarts, bring forth the first party the Marauders have had this year. Sirius convinces Remus to dance with Lauren. Sirius also tries to bring forth James' true feelings at the end of the night, but it only goes half planned for James shares a dance with Lily, but walks Kendra to her dorm. What's going on and what happens to James at the end of the night?

Read Everyone Has Secrets, Episode 9- Shut Up and Kiss Me