Come To My Paradise: A KakashixIruka Story: Part Eleven – Iruka's Tears++
Sorry that I haven't updated in a while, everyone! That's because I've been so busy and everything...camping, and living at my friend's place forever. Everyone's saying that it's sad how Iruka says that he isn't gay...I admit it's sad, too, but this one might cheer you up a bit.
Kakashi couldn't sleep. He just kept crying, but he knew that his love for Iruka wouldn't change anything, although he thought it did when they kissed. He still loved Iruka, but he knew that Iruka didn't love him back...Helena is the one that he loves. Kakashi now knew that Helena was Kaoru, so he understood why Iruka loved her. But when Iruka has to end the mission and take Helena home, will he go back to Konoha or stay with her? Kakashi didn't really care though, or at least he wished he didn't. If Iruka was gone, he thought that he wouldn't have to cry over him anymore, and he could move on to someone else. But Iruka was the nicest out of all the people he knew. He would miss Iruka a lot, and he would probably just cry over Iruka anyway, if he left. Kakashi wished that this was all just a nightmare that he could wake up from.
Kakashi saw the door open, and he pretended he was asleep. Iruka was standing at the door. He walked over to his bed and grabbed his blanket and pillows. "Oh, you're asleep, Kakashi..." he said, as he looked over to Kakashi and sighed. "Well I guess I should sleep in the lounge room...I wouldn't want to bother you." Iruka walked back over to the door and stopped. He looked down to the ground. "Forgive me, Kakashi-sensei...I didn't want it to be this way. I didn't want to hurt you..." Iruka whispered. He opened the door and left the room. Kakashi just laid there, saying nothing.
"Well maybe...I don't understand Kakashi's feelings..." Iruka said to himself, as he laid on the lounge and pulled the blanket over him. He sighed. "I...I did love him, but...I don't know what to think anymore...Kakashi or Helena?" Iruka didn't say anything else for about ten minutes. He just laid there, trying to get to sleep. But he knew that even getting to sleep would be impossible for him to do. Iruka laid there in silence, looking up at the ceiling and thinking if he should count sheep or something. "So...that's it, Iruka? That's how you feel?" Iruka heard a voice say behind him. Iruka almost jumped out of his skin. He turned around to see Kakashi looking straight at him.
"Ka...Kakashi? What are you doing up so late? I thought you were asleep?" Iruka said softly, surprised that Kakashi was even talking to him. Kakashi sat down next to Iruka on the lounge. "Well I couldn't exactly get to sleep...I had to apologize to you, Iruka. For saying all those mean things to you before..." said Kakashi. Iruka managed to smile a little bit. "That's ok, Kakashi. I deserved to hear those words, anyway. For what I did, I can never go back to being your friend..." said Iruka. Kakashi sighed and looked at the ground. He wasn't sure if he should tell Iruka how he really feels. "Hey, Iruka...not to be nosy or anything, but...I would like to know if you're...having fun with Helena." Kakashi said. Iruka blushed. "Helena? Oh, well...she's okay, I guess. We're starting to know each other more." "So you're sure she's not gonna ditch you this time?" Kakashi said, feeling that he probably shouldn't have asked that question. "Wha--what?" Iruka asked. "Think about it, Iruka. Remember when you had to go back to Konoha instead of staying with her? Don't you ever think that if she truly loved you, she would have went with you? Otherwise, I don't know what else she would be up to." Iruka was sort of feeling the need to get away from Kakashi. "What are you trying to do, break us up?! Helena had her own reasons why she didn't go with me, but they certainly weren't what you say, Kakashi!!" Iruka said in an angry tone. Kakashi smirked. "You can make up all the excuses you want , Iruka, but if you think about it...you'll realize it soon enough." Iruka was confused. He didn't want to believe what Kakashi was saying, but he felt that he had to. He got up off the lounge. "What do you know, Kakashi?! Helena loves me, and I love her! Nothing and no one will change that!! Not even you!!!" Iruka shouted. He was shocked to yell that, but he would do anything to stop Kakashi from saying things like that. "You know, Iruka...that's exactly what I thought when we kissed. I thought I could be the only one for you, but I was wrong. You've switched to Helena now. Listen, I'm not trying to break you two up...all I'm doing is warning you. I guess that when you decided to stay with Helena tomorrow...I will never see you again. My life will be a hard one to live without you. I will miss you..." Kakashi said, also getting off the lounge and standing up in front of Iruka. "I...I'm not sure if I will say with her. And the truth is...I would miss you too, Kakashi...a lot." said Iruka. Kakashi put his hands on Iruka's shoulders. "Kakashi, I'm just so confused...I don't know what to do..." "Well, I can't convince you to choose me or Helena...but I want to make you realize that there is someone who will always love you, and someone who will accept you...always." Kakashi said, as he and Iruka leaned in closer to each other. As their lips met each other, Kakashi felt a tear flow down Iruka's face. "Iruka?" Kakashi thought. Kakashi and Iruka let go of each other, and Iruka collapsed on the lounge, crying. Kakashi hadn't seen Iruka or anyone else cry like this before. "Iruka, it's nothing to cry about..." Kakashi said, as he grabbed a nearby tissue and handed it to Iruka. "Kakashi, this is all so confusing! What am I supposed to tell Helena? And why did I just..." Kakashi put a finger on Iruka's lips. "It's okay, Iruka. It doesn't matter what Helena thinks of you. She should accept who you are. As long as I'm here, you're fine. Please trust me..." Kakashi whispered. "Thank you, Kakashi-sensei..." Iruka said, hugging Kakashi tightly.
Part Eleven End++
The next chapter reveals the truth about Helena!! Sort of…