Laying Amongst the Dead
Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha.
From last chapter
"I didn't go to see him! He came to see me!" InuYasha yelled, spotting the understanding in Koga's eyes.
"Oh. So what did he say?"
"He…"
"Tell him to stop shouting, will ya InuYasha?" the girl asked in InuYasha's arms.
Chapter Fourteen
Oh god! Is she back? Is my Kagome alive again? Did her soul find her?
Don't get so happy, InuYasha. That's just a test. She's not alive yet, but she can respond when memories from the person's past come to her. She could be tuning in on an old memory that you had for all I know. Maybe even Koga's. It will take more then ten minutes for her soul to wonder back to her body. It's never happened and it probably wouldn't happen. So don't get your hopes high, InuYasha, the voice inside my head told me rather harshly.
Who the hell is that? Is this Death that's speaking to me inside my head? I didn't know he was telepathic. How do you do that?
It's complicated and I couldn't teach you if I wanted to. It would overload you and you'd eventually go nuts. But take my heeding seriously. If you can feel a pulse then you know she is alive, if not…you know the rest. I will come back in one month, InuYasha. Don't screw this up. Kagome's a sweet girl and I doubt she would want you to lose her yet again, Death snickered in my head.
I growled and stiffened when I smelt an unpleasant smell. The smell of my damn brother that killed her in the first place. I clenched my jaw and turned to walk back towards his castle. I bumped into him, but kept my mouth closed. I was afraid that if I opened it, a stream of cuss words would come out and I'd end up in a fetal position, balling my eyes out. I couldn't afford that. Grieving was something I would have to do alone.
"Come, Koga. We have things to discuss," I growled as I made myself continue walking towards the place where I watched my beloved die in my arms.
I nearly doubled over at the fresh memory. It would scar me no matter what I did. Seeing the life and everlasting love drain from her eyes was like living in the worst kind of nightmare imaginable. I sniffed back my tears and quickened my pace.
"Is she alive? Did Death give us another chance? There's something different about you. Your scent id slowing starting to change. What deal did you make with Death?" Koga asked as he walked beside me.
"I gave him my human blood. I'm slowing turning into a full demon, Koga, and that's exactly why I need you. I may have marked Kagome, but that's not enough for me to remember her. I'll forget her after my human blood is gone. You have to take care of Kagome for me if I don't ever come to remember her. Promise me this. Don't let her die like I did," I hissed while tears stung the back of my eyes.
I'm so sorry Kagome. I should have remembered you sooner. I should have been there to protect you. I'm sorry it had to come to this. I'm sorry I won't be able to remember you. God, I'm so sorry! Please forgive me.
I fought back the tears as I walked through the iron gates that led up to Sesshomaru's castle. I looked down at Kagome's rosy cheeks and beautiful raven hair. I sobbed then. I felt my bottom lip tremble as I thought of her laughter and her unheeding love towards me. I took a deep breath and tried my hardest to hold back my tears. It didn't work.
My knees buckled and I landed on the hard ground. I cradled Kagome in my lap and cried. I tucked her head under my chin and savored the scent of her perfume and the way her hair felt against my neck. I rubbed my hand on her cheek and sobbed so hard that my chest started to burn. I closed my eyes and rocked back-in-forth.
"I'm so sorry, Kagome. I should have been there, I cried out in a soft whisper that seemed to burn throughout my chest.
I stood up reluctantly and ran towards the castle. It had been a mistake to let myself break down in front of Koga and an even bigger mistake to break down in front of Sesshomaru. I kicked open the front doors and ran in. I slid to a halt when I saw Kagome's blood smeared all over the stairs.
She had lost so much blood.
I felt a hand on my shoulder and I turned to see Sango. Her smile that she had had on her face vanished when she noticed the tear stains on my cheeks and the bloody mess Kagome was in in my arms. I swallowed down my tears and cleared my throat.
"I couldn't get here in time," I whispered.
God. Saying the words out loud to Sango hurt worse then admitting it to myself. I was paying the price for my brother's mistake in killing me. And in the end, I was the one who let the only thing that keep me going throughout the day die.
"How?" she asked as tears brimmed her eyed momentarily before they slowly trickled down her cheeks and onto her blouse.
"I was turned into a full demon and got here right when Kag…she was falling down the steps. I watched as my brother jam his arm through her stomach. I sat there on the floor with her in my arms and watched her lights go out. I gave ever drop of my human blood to Death to get her soul back. And after all of this, I still won't remember her. SHE'S MY DAMN MATE AND I WON'T EVEN REMEMBER HER!" I shouted and realized that I was losing control over my emotions. I wanted to kill someone. Anyone.
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Well, that was chapter fourteen. I'm so sorry it took me a while to get it posted. I was having a writer's block I guess you can say and I didn't know what to write, but I pushed through it in the end. Please tell me what you think of it. I tried my best to make it interesting. Cookies to all. Love ya.