A/N: Ok so I just wanted to apologize for the suckiness of Aiden's chapter. But honestly...I don't care that he lost Ashley haha. I'm totally bias when it comes to matters of Spashley. I think they should be together forever and always. And an amazing series finale, yes SERIES finale...god that sounds horrible lol...would be for them to get married. Perfect way to end it. Definitely. Actually an even better ending would to have a quadruple wedding. Spashley, Gladison (Glen and Madison of course), Kyden, and Claysea. But that's totally a dream lol. Anywho. Here's the next chapter.

Perfect World

I can't believe she did it. She actually gave up Spencer to be with Aiden. I guess I kinda jinxed myself with that whole "Why don't they just get back together and put us all out of our misery?" thing. Bad move Kyla. BAD move.

Though I guess I can't really blame it all on Ashley. It's pretty much Aiden's fault. All of it. Bastard. Ugh…and yet he's not. I know I should just totally get over these feelings I have for him…but I can't, because you can't help who you love. That's your hearts job. And my heart decided that I was going to fall, fast and hard, for one Mr. Aiden Dennison. Boo. Way to screw me over heart. Where the hell's a Big Mac? I'm going to clog my arteries good to get back at it.

Ok this crappy music on the radio is totally not helping my mood either. Effing Simple Plan. Stupid song that is totally my life right now. GAH!

In a perfect world, this could never happen. In a perfect world, you'd still be here. And it makes no sense; I could just pick up the pieces. But to you, this means nothing, nothing at all.

I haven't spoken to Ash or Aiden since they got back together. Let me tell you, not talking to someone you live with, someone you see on a daily basis, someone you were just starting to be on good terms with, for a month is hard work. I tried so hard to put all the blame on Ashley too. Just so I could take out my anger. But I couldn't do it. I can't do it, because she's my sister. And I love her. Even if she makes a mistake that screws up lives of people she cares about…I still love her.

She just came in my room. Her face looked so sad, but I kept up my 'I'm so pissed at you, what the hell are you even doing in here' façade.

"What do you want Ashley?"

"I'm sorry…"

"For what? It's not like you led Spencer on for all those months, lied to her and me about how you felt for Aiden, and screwed up our lives and relationships or anything. Oh! But wait…you did."

She had her head down and when she did finally look up she was crying. It broke my heart to see her like that. I felt so bad for saying what I did.

"Ash I'm sorry."

"No Ky, you're right. You're right. I'm such a horrible person. I don't deserve to have you as a sister. I've been nothing but horrible to you since you got here…and once we finally were getting to a good place I went and screwed it up. Just like I do everything else good in my life. No wonder I've lost everyone that cared about me."

"You haven't lost everyone that cared about you Ashley. You still have Aiden."

"Uh no…not exactly."

"What are you talking about? Of course you do. He's your boyfriend."

"Not anymore… I ended it."

Hmm, can you say ecstatic much?

"What? Why?"

"Because I realized I was with him for all the wrong reasons. I got back with him because I thought I loved him…and I do. Just…not like that. When he got shot I panicked. I thought I was going to lose him. When I saw him in that hospital bed I felt something in my heart. I thought it was love but…"

"But what?"

"But it wasn't. It was guilt. I mistook guilt for love and that's why I got back with him. Because I felt guilty. God I'm so stupid…"

"Oh Ash. Well, at least you made it right by breaking it off with him and telling him."

"Uh…"

"You did tell him why you broke it off right?"

"Not exactly…"

"Ashley!"

"I know! I know! I called him and just said it was over. I didn't wanna get into it to make him feel worse than he probably already does ya know?"

"Ok…I get that. At least you didn't text message break up with him. He would've felt like K-Fed."

She chuckled a little and gave a tiny smile.

"Why are you being so nice to me Ky? You should be totally pissed at me and never wanna talk to me again."

"I tried doing that…trust me. I really did. But, in the end, the fact that you're my sister and I love you, and I'm stuck with you for life won out over my anger. Besides, it wasn't exactly your fault."

"You're pretty amazing you know that?"

"Yeah, I know. But it's always nice to hear!"

"Psht, not a bit modest either."

"Well, I am a Davies right?"

"True that little sister."

"So…you know that you're gonna have to talk to Aiden eventually right? You're gonna have to give him the real reason why you broke it off."

"Yeah…I know. I just don't wanna hurt him anymore than I already have. But I have to…and it sucks."

We spent a half an hour talking about what had been going on in my life over the past month. It was really nice talking to her again. I missed her. A lot. Then the conversation took a turn I really wasn't expecting…

"Ky?"

"Yes?"

"Do you love him?"

"Love who?"

"Aiden."

"Um…"

"It's ok. You don't have to tell me."

"No…it's just…do you still love Spencer?"

"With all my heart. I've come to regret every single day that I haven't been with her. God I'm so stupid."

"No you're…well ok yeah. You are."

"Gee, thanks."

"Sorry, but it's true. But what are you going to do?"

"I'm going to try and get her back. I'll spend every day of my life trying to get her back. She's my one true love. How am I so sure? Because there's no one else in this world like her. Guaranteed."

"Well, if you need help. I'm here for you."

"Thanks Ky!"

"Not a problem. It's just really hard to see her how she is…she looks terrible. It's scary. She's not the same person. I miss the old Spencer. I tried to talk to her, but she won't say anything. The only people she'll talk to are Glen, Clay, and Chelsea."

"I know…but I'm gonna get her back. I'm not giving up. Ever. Now before it slips my mind again, answer my question."

"Uh what question?"

Yeah, like trying to play stupid would work with Ashley.

"You know what question."

"Ugh…yes. I do."

"I knew it."

"If you knew then why'd you ask?"

"Cause I needed to hear you say it. Do you want to get back together with him?"

"…yes"

"Well we're gonna get you back together then. I know he still has feelings for you. Don't ask me how I know, I just do. I've learned to read this kid like a Cosmo. But for now, I need to focus on how I'm going to get Spencer back. I'll talk to you later Ky…I love you."

"I love you too Ash."

She got up and gave me a hug and went back to her room.

Well, it's certainly nice to know that I have her back. I'm not so sure she's right about Aiden though.

In a perfect world indeed…