I Can't Hate You Anymore

Am I really ready for this? Can I handle this talk? Oh god what am I doing? I'm so not ready for this…I'll just call back and reschedule. It'll be fi-

Ding Dong

"Shit…guess it's now or never Kyla…"

I think I'd prefer never…

I let him in and we went up to my room. Ashley had left a few hours ago, saying something about Chelsea and how the was sure she about getting Spencer back…I don't know, I wasn't exactly paying attention. I was too worried about what was about to happen with the boy of my dreams and this whole 'talk' we were going to have. I guess one of us should start…

"So…"

"So…"

Wow, he's just as nervous as me. Good to know. Makes me feel a little bit better at least.

"How've you been?"

"How do you think I've been Aiden?"

"Right…sorry."

"Yeah…"

That's it Kyla, keep up that tough girl front. Ashley's taught you well.

"M-maybe I should just go…"

Awww he's so cute when he's nervous! DAMN IT! No Kyla, don't you dare fold! Not after all he's done. Don't go looking into those…cute, emerald green eyes…those puppy dog eyes…SHIT!

"NO! I-I mean, you don't have to. I really want to talk to you…"

"I really want to talk to you too."

"Ok, so…what was so important that you couldn't say it over the phone?"

"Um…"

"Um? Is that it?"

"Uhhh…"

"Aiden, if that's all you're going to say then maybe you should le--"

"I'm in love with you."

Wait? What was that? Did everyone else hear that? Mic check. Check 1, check 1-2. Check 1-2.

"What?"

"I'm in love with you Kyla."

That's what I thought you said…

"That's what I thought you said…"

"Do you see why I couldn't do this over the phone?"

"Uh yeah…but, wait. I thought you were 'so in love' with Ashley. Where the hell did these feelings for me come from?"

"She and I had a talk…she helped me realize some things."

"Oh really? Like what?"

"Like what she and I had is in the past, and it's completely done."

"That it?"

"No. She helped me realize that I know pretty much the bare facts about her, but when it comes to you…I know everything."

"Ok, so?"

"So, she told me to do some 'soul searching' if you will. Ya know, take time to myself. Really think about my feelings…"

"Uh huh…"

He sounds like such a chick right now…

"God I sound like such a chick right now…"

Um creepy mind reader much?

"Anyways, I did and I realized that…I am in fact, completely, utterly, and absolutely in love with you Kyla."

Jumping for joy, squealing with delight, screaming at the top of my lungs loud enough to wake the freakin dead! That's what I'd be doing right now if I was letting him off easy. But no, after all he did…he can't get what he wants right away. I'm not getting my heart broken again. I refuse.

"You realize I'm still mad at you right? For everything you did."

"I know…and I'm lucky you're even talking to me. I know you hate me and everything but…"

"Aiden, I don't hate you. I can't hate you anymore. Sure I gave the best of myself to be with you the first time, but I'm willing to try again."

"Really?"

"Yes, really. But we're taking it slow ok? We're not rushing into this. I know I said I didn't want to before but, I think we need to start out as friends, and see where we go from there."

"Friends? Are you su-"

"Yes Aiden, I'm sure. It's for the best and you know it. If we're going to work out, we have to do this the right way. We just jumped into it last time, we're not gonna do that this time."

"Ok. Let's do it. But, I need to know…"

"You need to know what?"

"Do you…are you…"

Uh oh…truth or fib…truth or fib…truth…or fib…

"Yes."

Truth it is I guess.

"Yes?"

Are you deaf man?!

"Yes, I do love you. And yes, I am in love with you."

"Nice!"

That's it? Wow, what a charmer he is…

"You're so retarded."

"You love it."

"I guess I do."

He's got a big enough ego, no need to inflate it anymore…

We got up and hugged. It was so nice being in his arms again. Ugh, pretty much melted right there. Now I know what Frosty the snowman felt like after he went into that greenhouse. Aiden kissed me on the top of my head and we stayed in each others arms a little while longer.

"Can I ask you something?"

I pulled away and looked up at him.

"Sure."

"Do you think Spencer will ever forgive me?"

"I don't know Aid. That all depends on what happens with Ashley I guess."

"She was still in love with her when we were together…"

Well THERE'S a shocker. Alert the media, my boy is a damn rocket scientist. Pretty sure they could see Ashley wanting Spencer from the space shuttle. Ohh that's a good one…so tempting to say, but I can't. It's too mean. So what CAN I say?

"I know, she told me."

That'll work.

"I guess it's ok though. You know why?"

"Why?"

"Because I was in love with you while I was with her. So we're totally even!"

I grinned and leaned up and gave him a peck on the cheek and suggested we go out to dinner.

Life was really starting to look up. I just hope everything goes this well for Ashley.