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To love, or not to love

Chapter 1: Thoughts

"Whyyyyyyy?" Sirius moaned, so loudly that a couple of Gryffindors, sitting near him, jumped in chock. "Why do we have to start the morning with a double lesson in Magical History?" He raised his eyes at the bewitched ceiling in the Great Hall, as if he was asking what he had done, to get such a cruel punishment.

Remus trembled his head. "If just you were concentrating about taking notes, it would actually be kind of interesting".

Sirius looked horrified at his friend. "Are you mentally retarded? I would get bored to death, if I actually had to write down what that old bloke's saying!"

"Well, it was just a proposal…"

James came, and sat down with his friends. He gave a tragically look at the delicious food right in front of him and said loudly "I'm not hungry today mates. All that with Evans has really depressed me."

He glanced hopefully towards Lily, who sat a little bit away from them. She didn't noticed him.

"I think I'm going to starve to death if she doesn't forgive me" he added a little louder, and made a gesture with his arms (he found it very dramatically).

All he achieved, was to knock a glass of milk over. The fourth-year girl sitting next to him, screamed when the cold milk flowed all over her.

She turned around to scold the idiot who had just spilled milk on her, when she realized that it was James Potter.

"I'm really sorry!" James said hastily.

"I-its okay!" the girl muttered and blushed, while she tried to dry her wet cape.

James smiled apologizing, which just made her to blush even more.

"Here, let me help you"

He pointed his wand at her, and mumbled a spell, that made the milk on the girls cloth disappear.

"Thanks" she muttered, and turned to her friends, who had been starring jealous at her while she was talking to James

Lily starred horrified at her plate. She had been thinking at something else, while she poured food at it, and now she discovered a small mountain of bacon, eggs, bread and pancakes, that was waiting on her at the plate.

"Holy cow Lily! Are you actually planning to EAT all that?" Barbara said, looking at the enormous pile of food.

"Well, kind of. Didn't plan to eat so much, but my mind weren't exactly with me when I took the food."

Barbara sighed "let me guess… You were thinking at… I have it right on my tongue… James Potter!" She looked at Lily, who scolded at her.

"I can see that I was right. As usual" she grinned.

Lily just gave her a grumpy look.

"But he's SO annoying!"

"Well, what has he done now?" Barbara said curious.

"Er… actually, nothing" Lily said frustrated. "But I can tell that he's going to do something very soon! I can just feel it!"

"You are so obsessed." Barbara said, and started to eat.

"James my good old fellow, take an advice from a guy, who really knows a lot about girls and dating " Sirius said, patting James at the back.

The two boys sat at the boys dormitory, where James had been spending nearly all his time the past days.

"You need to calm down! You haven't been sleeping for like three days. People's getting scarred when you walk by, thinks you're a zombie or something like that. "

James muttered something.

"what?"

"I just said that I cant get over her!"

Sirius rolled his eyes.

"well, we all know that. It's a fact that you've been having a major crush on her, since forever."

"oh, just shut up, will you? Go and eat some dog biscuits or whatever"

A wide smile appeared on Sirius´ face. Dog biscuits was de-li-ci-ous!

"Yeah, good idea man! See ya"

And then he was gone.

"And now what?" James said to the wall.

"What in the hell am I supposed to do?" he hide his face in his fingers. Why couldn't he be friends with Lily?

Ever since that stupid episode at their first year, she had been hating him more than anything (and it really was a stupid episode! Something with he and Sirius making a prat, that just coincidently involved Lily, a bunch of really big frogs. How in the hell was he supposed to know that she was terrified with them?).

And for the first time in James´ life he was totally clueless.

Well, that was that… sorry for the lousy chapter! I know the whole story is quite immobile right now, but I've really looking forward to this chapter, so I thought I would add it. The next one will have some more action!

Please review!!!

Ann