"Pregnant?""
I asked again
"Yes, you're pregnant. Is there a problem?"
"Yes!
I'm only eighteen! I just started college!"
"Oh. Well, do you
plan on keeping the baby or aborting it?"
This was a huge
decision. I was always against abortion, but I really can't take care
of this baby. Then again, I could put it in foster care or put it up
for adoption. It was just too much.
"I need to think about
it."
"Very well then. Come back when you've made a
decision."
I nodded. As I left the room, I held my stomach. I
have a baby inside me. I can't believe it. But how will I take care
of the baby? Also, how will I tell Danny? I have two choices: one, I
could tell him and get it over with; or two, I could not tell him and
make the whole thing worse. Why do these things keep happening to
me? I kept thinking
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I
cried myself to sleep that night, thinking about the risks that I'd
be taking. If I keep the baby, I might have to drop out. Or worse, I
might not even make it through the birth because I'm so young. I
tried not to think about it but it kept on coming back into my head.
Finally, I just got up and went over to my phone. I dialed
Danny.
"Hello?" the voice on the other line said,
sleepily
"Danny?" I said in a teary voice
"Sam?"
"Uh
huh. Listen, I have something really important to tell you. I'm
coming down to Florida as soon as I can."
"Sam... You know
that that'll never work. You'll be a mess by the time you get back.
Plus, you'll be swamped in homework. Why can't you just tell me on
the phone?"
"I need to tell you in person."
"Alright.
Do what you want. Are you gonna be okay? You sound kinda
teary."
"Just some bad thoughts."
"Well, sleep well."
"Thanks. Night."
"Night," he said, then hung up
I set the phone back in its cradle and got back in bed. The rest of the night, I lay there, staring at the ceiling, thinking about what might happen to me.
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Over the next few weeks it got better. I stopped having morning sickness, so that made it easier to get through my classes. Also, me and Katie got to know each other better. She really was a nice girl. We're friends now. But now, I have horrible mood swings, so that hasn't been going well. Danny, Tuck and I still have our weekly three-way call. It's a good way for us to keep in touch. I still haven't told them yet. I'll tell them when I'm ready. Also, I felt a small bump on my stomach the other day. My baby was getting bigger. Good thing it was getting to be winter out. I could hide the baby. They didn't need to know.