Gilmore Girls
High Flying Above Hollywood Hills
Part 23 'Leaving or Staying'
Summary
Rory's a Hollywood superstar and Logan's a billionaire business man, they have been apart so long it feels like they'll never be friends again, but something tragic brings them closer and who knows what will happen next….. Possible Rogan and a little JJ!
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A/N:
Ok, I know I left the last one in a weird place but this one will wrap that ending up. I hope you like this one, it's a little un Rogan but I promise, the story is a Rogan and I wont take that away from you.
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New Years EveThe Ladies Bathroom, Miss Patty's, Stars Hollow.
"Pregnant?" Lorelai asked, not believing what she had just heard, she wasn't expecting this.
"Yeah, I'm really sorry mom, this wasn't meant to be happen, it was supposed to be different. I was supposed to be married. 4 I can deal with it." Rory cried, she was so uncontrollable, she was scared.
"Oh no baby, don't be sorry, I'm happy for you sweetie. Its not bad, you don't have to be married to have a baby, you've done it 3 times without being married and look how that's turned out" Lorelai held Rory's head against her chest and stroked her hair.
"No it wont be fine, mom I'm having a baby, I live alone with a tiny baby, Eden's not eve 1 mom, ill have 2 babies and then I want to get Levi and Dylan back, what about that" Rory cried again looking at her mom with puppy dog eyes.
"Rory you've got Logan, it is his baby right?" Lorelai asked suddenly realising she hadn't yet asked.
"Yes its his!" Rory shouted still crying.
"Good, well then tell him, he'll be there, Rory you're not going to be doing this alone, Logan will help you and Eden she'll be 1 soon, Rory you have so many people, you can live with me and Luke if you want, id love to have you!" Lorelai tried, she wanted Rory to know how much Lorelai was happy and excited about this; she was finally going to be around for the birth of her grandchild.
"I'm not telling Logan, I don't want him to know, he's shouldn't have to deal with this. Mom, you don't get it, foe the past 5 years, Logan has tiptoed around me and helped me with every little thing, I don't need him to do this for me now, I'm stronger than I used to, I deserve to have the boys back. Then I can be their real mom again and ill handle it, on my own." Rory decided.
"Sweetie, you don't have to, I'm here now, and I can help. Your not on your own" Lorelai begged Rory to reconsider.
"No, I can do it, I can live in New York with Eden and we'll be fine, I'll have the baby and everything will be great, see mom this is me handling it." Rory tried. She had been trying so hard to prove she could do this, take care of Eden properly and have a good job. All she wanted was for the court to say she and Logan could have their joint custody agreement back at their court review date.
"Rory come on, I want to help you" Lorelai tried again "Please just let me help you"
"No" Rory screamed, she rubbed the tears from her eyes and ran out of the bathroom. She ran past Logan and Luke standing in the centre of the hall. She carried on running, out of the hall and down the street, she ran past lane and Zack standing I the town square and past Luke's, which strangely was still open. Lorelai ran out of the bathroom behind her to find Luke and Logan setting off after her. Luke caught sight of Lorelai behind them.
"Where is she going?" Luke asked
"Is she ok?" Logan asked looking concerned.
"She'll be fine, you guys stay here and watch the boys." Lorelai who had found Eden in the bathroom, handed her over to Luke "I'll find her"
Luke and Logan looked bemused as Lorelai ran off in search of Rory.
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June, 3 years and 6 months earlier.
Logan and Rory's place, Beverly hills.
Logan walked in through the door. It had been a long day at work. He took a quick look at his watch that was just visible above his suit jacket sleeve. 10.30. Levi would be asleep by now, Dylan might still be awake, he was only 3 months old and not really into a very good routine. As Logan walked through the lobby, dropping his suitcase and suit jacket along the way, he could heard nothing but the dull sound of the TV coming from upstairs, Rory he guessed, had fallen asleep in front of the TV again.
He went into the kitchen, just wanting a drink before he would go straight to bed.
There was a box sitting on top of the dining room table, he'd never seen it before. He walked over to it and left on top of it there was an envelope.
Logan sat down and opened the envelope. The not inside was written on fancy pink writing paper. It read:
Dear Logan,
Hey, I'm sorry that this is the way you're going to find out but I knew if I told you face to face you'd stop me. I cant take I anymore Logan, the pressure of spending every night alone with the boys knowing that it doesn't have to be that way. It's only through your choice that it is that way. You spend too long at the office, sometimes I think its because you don't want to spend time with me and two screaming little babies.
Anyway, whatever the reason, today I just snapped, I cant do that anymore, I'm sick of being the one who's always waiting, maybe you should give waiting a try for a while maybe you'll get an idea of how I've felt fir the past 3 months since Dylan was born.
Logan I'm leaving you. I've packed some things and I've packed some of the boy's things, well be staying at a rented place in LA for a while. Please don't call me, I'll call you when I'm ready to talk, I don't know when that'll be but I promise you ill call.
In the meantime give waiting a try, wit for me to call, wait to see your sons again, if you ca remember what they look like.
I'm sorry again but one day I hop you'll understand.
Love, Roryx.
Logan dropped the note and let it fall slowly to the floor. He lifted the lid off the box. It was full with food, bags of chips, cans of cola and orange juice. Rory had put together a care package, in case Logan didn't no what to do. Right then he started to cry, he'd drove Rory away, he'd lost his boys and he didn't know when he would get them back. This was the worst day of his life.
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The only place Rory could think of to run to where no one would think to look for her was the bridge. The bridge had always been where Jess hung out and Rory sometimes did too. But as she reached the bridge and sat down all she could think of was Jess, and Dean and the past, she was so innocent then. She remembered what she used to think of when she thought future. She'd think about graduating form Harvard, which turned into Yale, then shed get a really great job as a foreign correspondent and meet a really great guy. They'd get married and have 2 little girls and she'd give up her job until they were in school and then she'd go back to writing for a paper, part time, just a small column.
When she thought about that dream and how she'd had it all planned, she realised just how messed up her life was. She was 25 years old, she wasn't married, she wasn't a journalist or foreign correspondent yet she still managed to have her name plastered across TV screens and front pages. She had 3 children by 2 different fathers and now she was pregnant again but this time she was alone, she wasn't officially with Logan. She lived in a huge house with just and 8 month old baby for company. She had lost her 2 other children because she became an alcoholic and a drug addict. She regretted everything like that, that she'd ever done. The only reason she hadn't had Eden removed at birth was because she was an A-Lister, she was sure. As Rory thought tears were running from her eyes and down her face. She could never feel worse than she did right then, she'd finally realised how much she'd messed up, Stars Hollow had done that to her.
She made a promise to herself right then instead of sticking to all those fancy resolutions she had set herself, she would just be a mom. She couldn't not be now, that what she had to do, her life wasn't about her anymore, it was about them.
Rory cell phone began to buzz in her pocket. She took it out and checked the caller ID. It was lance, her manager. She hadn't spoke to I'm in a while so she figured why not answer him now.
"Hi Lance"
"Rory darling," he sounded so relieved t hear her. "I have been getting calls about you all day. They want interviews, photo shoots, and they want you to be at premieres and award shows"
"What, why?" Rory asked
"Well no one has seen you in ages you've been unreachable by the press, you broke up with Jack and then no one has seen you since. Except that amateur reporter who sold your picture. Now there's frenzy. Everyone has been calling asking me what are you doing in Hartford, what is Logan doing in Hartford. And the big question are you pregnant?" Lance announced.
"Wow, wow, I had no idea this had been going on."
"Believe it baby, you're hot at the moment." Lance said cheekily
"Cool, I think. But I can't come back to Cali right now. All I can do is New York interviews, I'm filming that movie remember. But I'll be in Cali in 2 months" Rory said trying not to get ahead of herself.
"Well sure honey, ill get you anything I can but you've gotta be prepared. I'll get your stylist out there stat and I'll be out before your first interview, ill call you with the details. Oh and happy New Year baby. Anyway, I gotta go now, I have a date"
"Have fun Lance" Rory added "I'll see you soon"
Rory hung up the phone and put it back in her pocket. She sat there still on the bridge, listening to the sound of the water run by underneath her. She was sad, her face still tearstained. She looked down to her, placing her hand over it. There was another baby there; she was going to bring another baby into this messed up life of hers. She'd promised her self that it would be different the next time, she would be married and she would live in a nice place In Malibu, away from the main city. She would only work for a few months a year. She had a plan, just like she and her mom had a plan all those years ago, but Rory had learnt now not to depend her life on plans, because plans failed. She looked down again at her stomach, hand placed across it. She decided right there that she was going to do it right this time. She wasn't going to drink or do drugs or even be with a guy whom she didn't love just because she felt she had to. She loved Logan and all but he wasn't acting on his supposed love for her and she couldn't wait around her whole life for Logan. She had to take care of Eden and this baby now. She would worry about telling Logan about this baby later, right now she had to find a place to live, a nice place in New York and then she would spend the weekends here in Stars Hollow. She couldn't go back to Cali and live with Logan, playing happy families, not when there was no guarantee her trusted her again. She needed to be sure he trusted her and wanted to be with her forever. Rory was going to do this, have this baby and do it on her own. She felt like she had abandoned Levi and Dylan, leaving them with Logan. She had damaged Eden, passing down her drug addiction. But she wasn't going to mess up this baby, not this time. It was all going to be great. She was convinced.
Now all she had to do was convince everyone else it was going to be perfect.
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Ok a bit of drama there and if it was too much ill try my hardest to put in a bit of fluff soon. Thanks again for reading and please review.
Peace out.
elliex