Gilmore Girls

High Flying Above Hollywood Hills

Part 40 'Perfect or Not'

Summary

Rory's a Hollywood superstar and Logan's a billionaire business man, they have been apart so long it feels like they'll never be friends again, but something tragic brings them closer and who knows what will happen next….. Possible Rogan and a little JJ!

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A/N:

Ok so sorry you don't like the way this story is going but I hope you'll still read and review. Only 2 more chapters after this so please stick with it until the end. Thanks for all reviews and please keep them coming they make my day.

Thanks you and Enjoy……

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January Stars Hollow

Rory woke up the next day feeling different, like her heart had lifted. She felt like she was flying. Logan looked like everything she had ever wanted as he lay there sleeping underneath the clean white sheets. His body moved only slightly as he breathed quietly. Rory just loved to watch him as though he was a child. She used to watch Eden sleep when she had been born, she looked so angelic and Rory remembered how much she felt undeserving at the birth of her beautiful daughter, but now she knew she deserved her, she deserved them all.

Rory woke up and she didn't feel like going back to sleep for the first time in weeks. She got up and made breakfast for them all. She sat out in the back garden in her nightwear, just waiting for them to wake. She liked to think that she would always be there for them, and since yesterday when she had made a promise to herself that she would fight her illness, she felt she was doing a good job.

She wasn't going to over do it with her fighting she was going to do it quietly and one step at a time so as not to make it any worse than it already was.

She thought maybe a walk to Luke's to start with and then maybe she could walk the boys to school. A steady amount of exercise would do her good she was sure.

"Rory, what are you doing up, are you ok?" Logan looked panicked as he found Rory sitting outside on a cold and snowy winter morning.

"Wow, don't panic, I'm fine, I was just waiting for you all to wake up, I made breakfast" Rory loved the look of worry Logan gave her, like she was a child that was going to catch a cold.

Rory walked into the kitchen as though nothing was bothering her, Logan loved this new care free determined attitude, it just worried him that being care free meant she wasn't taking enough care when she needed to.

Rory watched as her children ate as though it were something amazing, but to her she was sure it was. She loved the way Levi took so long to eat his cereal and yet how quickly Dylan had it down. She liked just to watch them because accepting the inevitable was a hard thing to do but accepting that these times were to be the last she would spend with her children was not. So watching them was giving her the memories she would keep forever and the motivation to keep on going.

Rory already had her day planned out, she would drop Levi off at school and then Logan would drive into Hartford to work, so then she could have a walk around town. She wanted to buy a digital camera, a good one so she could take lots of pictures of her and the children. She had originally thought from previous experience that the closet thing to a digital camera you could buy in Stars Hollow was a toothbrush but she was wrong. Since her departure and then return there had been a sudden need for an electrical shop in Stars Hollow what with the new age of technology all of a sudden reaching the small towns and by that it's meant by Taylor tempting it.

As she walked around town that day she was almost seeing things as she remembered the times she had spent at each bench or shop. She sat and read at the bench in the centre of town and she would sit with Jess at the bridge and she and Lane would hang out at Sophie's. All of these places were special to her and eventually she wanted them all to be special to her children, she wanted to watch them grow up here experiencing things like she did. She wanted them to go to Chilton and have the opportunities she had and she wanted them all to got Yale or Harvard or a really good school, she wished them the best, even if she wouldn't be there Logan would take care of it.

It was walking through town where she came up with the idea of writing down what she wanted to happen in the future, just in case she wasn't there, which would be sad but she had come to realise that the world wouldn't stop for her.

Rory took out a piece of paper, sat down in the gazebo leaving Eden and Bradley to sleep and wrote down what she wanted.

What I want when I go:

P.S. I don't want you to feel like these are orders, just suggestions on how I would be doing it in the future, just so you know how I feel from in the sky.

I want you to sell my house in LA, please, and move all of the kid's stuff and mine into your place. You won't need my place it's crummy and too much in the limelight so get rid of it.

I want you to send them all to Chilton, when it's their time, they'll get a good education there and they'll enjoy it, I did at least.

Please keep talking to my mom, don't stop just because I won't be around anymore, she'll need you to help her and you may even need her.

Don't go all healthy and stressed parent like on me, let our kids be free and alive, I want them to grow up like I did, having fun not breaking rules, let them feel like their alive because you never know when it'll be over.

Please don't take them back to LA, let them live in Stars Hollow and be able to run in the square without being chased by photographers, take yourself away from the limelight, but do what's right use your judgement, if things get out of control and you need to go don't worry, I understand.

Don't worry yourself to death when Eden becomes a teenager, you'll be fine, and you'll have my mom.

I know you said for me not to ever worry about or mention this, but even if Jack comes back and wants to see Eden, you can use your judgement, you know if he seems to be ok to have cleaned up his act then maybe it wouldn't be so bad for him to see her, he's her father after all but don't worry about letting her go, you'll always be her Dad the one who cares.

Thanks Logan, I love you.

That night, when Rory got home, she made dinner (spaghetti and meatballs, from a tin) and she sat them all down together. Bradley in his highchair and a cute little bib on saying 'My Mommy Loves Me' Logan had given it to Rory when he had been born; it was once Levi's. Eden too sat in a high chair and Rory watched her as she ate, she looked so cute, it was hard for Rory to believe that Eden was 1 already; things had moved so fast and changed so very much since her birth. Levi and Dylan sat chatting about their days a school and their afternoon spent at Sookie's. It was like the end of a really sad movie where everything turns out great at the end and the camera zooms out on the family, all sat around the table eating dinner laughing and joking together. Rory and her mom had always made fun of those kinds of movies but now Rory wished this were one and everything would turn out all right in the end, she just wished.

"Mommy, are you ok?" Dylan asked sweetly a piece of potato dropping from his fork.

"Yeah, baby, I'm fine, just fine" Rory smiled and picked Bradley out of his chair, she sat him on her knee and bounced him up and down, watching him giggle. Logan watched and smiled and Eden clapped her hands wanting to be bounced too. Levi and Dylan laughed along as Rory wished the camera would zoom out now and leave them to be as happy as this forever. And as she wished she said her final goodbyes.

And that was it; Rory had made her peace with the world.

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Ok so a bit of a short like chapter, I know a lot of you don't like the way this story is going or the way it will probably end but I hope you'll still read and review, thanks.

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