Gilmore Girls
High Flying Above Hollywood Hills
Part 41 'How Can It Be The End?'
Summary
Rory's a Hollywood superstar and Logan's a billionaire business man, they have been apart so long it feels like they'll never be friends again, but something tragic brings them closer and who knows what will happen next….. Possible Rogan and a little JJ!
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A/N:
Ok this is the penultimate chapter and please brace yourselves because it will be sad, I cried writing it. I know a lot of you will not like the way this is going and almost certainly the way it is ending but it'd the way it is and I hope you'll leave that aside and still read and review the next chapter. Thanks again.
Enjoy……
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February4pm, Rory and Logan's bedroom, Their House, Stars Hollow.
"Hey sweetie, are you feeling any better?" Logan asked as he entered the room. Rory was laid on the bed, her eyes closed, she looked so quiet and peaceful. They had been in garden with the children and Lorelai and Luke. Rory had started to feel tired so she came in for a nap.
Logan walked closer towards her, she was laid on the right side and he crept up to her side, and kneeled down close. She was sleeping, but her body was still. Logan began to panic.
"Rory honey, are you ok" Logan tapped her back, still no movement came "Baby come on, ace don't leave me please" Logan started to cry; he was shaking her body trying to hold on. She was gone. Rory had left the world.
In some ways Logan thought that she had already known. Like she had left them in the garden knowing she was going now. The way she looked at the children all playing in the yard and the look she gave her Mom and Luke sat together. But most of all the ways he had let go of Logan's hand, like she held onto it as long as possible, but in the end she had to leave and Logan couldn't come with her. Logan knew he'd never forget the way she left, the last look she gave him. It would be with him always.
Logan sat beside her for a while, holding her hand, he wanted to stay with her but he knew he had to go, go and tell Lorelai and Luke and then ultimately break the news to Levi and Dylan. Eden and Bradley were too young to understand.
Out of all of the things that were going through his mind at that moment the biggest was fear. Logan was scared. Scared of what would happen now, would he stay in Stars Hollow or go back to California. What about the children, would he get to keep them all? Eden wasn't really his, would the court take her away and give her to Jack? Logan was scared.
Logan walked slowly downstairs and entered the kitchen. Lorelai was standing at the sink looking through the big window that overlooked the back yard. Luke was trying to teach he boys to play baseball, Bradley and Eden were together, Bradley was lying down and Eden sitting up, laughing and clapping her cute little hands, they were lying on the rug, the one Rory had given Logan for Christmas, the one with all the pictures and the documents sewn into it.
"Hey, how is she?" Lorelai asked as she heard Logan's footsteps as he entered the kitchen.
Lorelai turned to face Logan, a glass of lemonade in her hands. She saw his tear streamed face and looked into his grief stricken eyes. Lorelai knew what he was preparing to say.
"I'm sorry Lorelai, she's gone" Logan said, he tried to sound strong be he couldn't, he just broke down and cried. Lorelai dropped the glass she was holding and it fell to the floor smashing. The both watched as the lemonade spread across the floor.
Lorelai began to cry, slowly at first but the cries became sobs, then blubbers. Logan had joined her, sobbing so much he could no longer see.
Luke heard the cries from inside and dropped his bat. He ran in and held Lorelai. He knew, he didn't even have to ask.
For a while they all just cried. No one spoke and nothing but cries could be heard. Eventually they calmed down. They had to do something. Lorelai took the kids over to Sookie's and Luke called someone to come and collect Rory. Eventually people outside figured it out, when they saw the ambulance picking Rory up. They brought over casseroles and pies. Lane came and Lulu, Miss Patty and Babette together. Taylor even brought over some plans for a town memorial service. It was all too much at the moment but they all agreed it was good to be living in small town America.
There seemed like so much to do and so many people to call that there was no time for grief. It was getting late and Logan was tired, he couldn't go on any longer. He packed up his things and walked away from his desk. Lorelai and Luke had gone. Eden and Bradley were sleeping upstairs and Dylan and Levi were staying with Sookie for now.
Logan dragged himself up the stairs and into his and Rory's room. The bed was there, unmade, her smell still in the room. He couldn't stay in here, not now, she was gone and this was her room, her place. He began to walk out, slowly, but he slowly stopped moving, he couldn't do it anymore, he'd lost his ace. He sank down and sat on the floor at the end of their bed. He sobbed, head in his hands, for as long as he could, until there were no tears left behind his eyes, and then he just lay down and slept, because right now, there was nothing else he could do.
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Breaking News:
A-list actress Rory Gilmore has lost her fight for life. The star, who was diagnosed with a relatively unknown disease, died earlier this afternoon. She was found by her husband, billionaire businessman Logan Huntzberger at their home in Stars Hollow, Connecticut, Rory's hometown. Rory, a mother of 4, is reported to have spent the day with Logan, her children and her mom and step-father before going inside to rest.
No statement on behalf of the family has been issued so far. Many are questioning the custody arrangement and will concerning her daughter Eden, whose father is Yankees pitcher Jack Baker and not her now husband and father of her other 3 children Logan Huntzberger. Arrangements for her funeral are to be made in the next few days.
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Lorelai came over first thing in the morning. She'd been focusing all her grief into working and doing things for other people. She'd got up at 6am, cleaned last nights pots, showered and then moved on to Logan's and Rory's, well just Logan's now. Logan was still sleeping on the floor of his and Rory's room so Lorelai left him there. She took the sheets of Rory and Logan's bed, washed them and put them back on. She washed the dishes, picked the children's toys up and cleaned the kitchen. She couldn't seem to stop, it was out of hand.
"Lorelai" Sookie said, opening the door and sticking her head in.
"Hey Sookie, I'm in the kitchen" Lorelai shouted back. She wasn't crying and she didn't seem upset, but she was different, Sookie could tell. Lorelai had spent 26 years of her life dedicated to Rory and now all of that was gone, Rory was gone.
"Lor, what are you doing. I mean I understand you're upset but sweetie let yourself be upset" Sookie jumped right to the point, not hanging on to dance around Lorelai and her pain.
"Oh, you understand do you? Did your only daughter die, the one you spent 26 years of your life looking over, taking care of. Well I'm sorry Sookie, but you dont get it. For 19 years Rory was everything to me, until Luke came along and then I traded her in and I feel so bad you would never understand. I just got her back Sook, just. And now she's gone" Lorelai spoke slowly, first she spoke boldly but as she went on her voice broke and tears started to fall until the last words could only just be heard behind the sobs.
"Baby, its ok to cry" Sookie said, "She was your daughter" Sookie comforted Lorelai, sitting with her at the table, stroking her hair and resting Lorelai's head across her knee. Lorelai cried and cried some more. She and Sookie sat for a while talking about Rory and everything she did and all that she loved. Sookie was really sad too, she'd been right there all of Rory's life, sitting on the sidelines helping Lorelai along. She'd lost something as well but she didn't want to cry yet, she wasn't ready. Different people grieve in different ways and she was sure it would come soon. But right now she needed to be there, standing on the sidelines again, helping Lorelai and Logan to cope.
Logan woke up, his face feeling dirty and tired, tearstained. He couldn't remember anything about how he got there, lying on the floor in his and Rory's room. He was tired still. Logan stood up and walked out into the hallway, heading towards the bathroom when he heard voices coming from downstairs. Logan wasn't ready for any of today. His wife, the love of his life and the mother of his children had just died. Logan had lost his ace and he needed time to come to terms with it.
The next few days were filled with crying and tears. Logan had spoken to Levi and Dylan and he'd tried to tell Eden, but it was too hard. Luke and Sookie organised the funeral and took care of the press. All Logan and Lorelai had to do was show up.
The service was painful for everyone in attendance.
"Live not in grief that she is no more, but live in thankfulness that she was" Logan would always remember that phrase, the minute the speaker spoke the words, he felt them touch his heart, as if Rory was there, right there sitting next to him, hand on his heart.
Lorelai knew that Rory was gone and she could feel it in the air, as they stood around her grave, each throwing a handful of dirt over her coffin. Lorelai looked over at Logan stood with Bradley in his arms and then at Levi and Dylan in their tiny suits, Eden in a pretty dress and all of a sudden she wasn't sad, she had Rory for 26 years and now she had 4 grandchildren and a son-in-law to be her family, not forgetting Luke. Rory had helped her get all of those things and in each of them a piece of Rory lied. So even if Rory's body was no longer wandering the earth, Rory, her soul and heart was still here, resting in each of her children's heart's and in the hearts of everyone she had ever touched with her sweetness.
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Ok, I'm sorry if you didn't like that chapter, but it's how it is now. I didn't particularly like writing that chapter but its how I wanted this story to end, I wanted it to end as a Rogan in all its glory and personally I think I managed that. I hope that you will all review please and read the next chapter, the very last.
Thank you,
elliex