Chapter Five

The days passed and Lily found herself becoming more and more attracted to James. She couldn't understand it. This wasn't supposed to happen. She came up with a solution. She had to stay away from James for awhile. But how was she supposed to do that? Its pretty difficult to avoid someone who you are supposedly dating , who is in most of your classes and lives in your dormitory. So how was this going to work? She pondered this thought for awhile and she finally came up with a plan. She would pretend to be sick and stay in her room for a few days until she was 'better'. She took the liberty of putting her plan into action the next morning. Tuesday morning James knocked on her bedroom door so they could go down to breakfast. Lily had performed a charm on herself to appear sick. So when she opened the door to her bedroom, her nose was red and her eyes were squinty. "I'm sick," she told him with a fake sneeze. James appeared concerned. "I'm just going to rest for a few days and I'll be better in no time." James was reluctant to go and it took a lot of persisting on Lily's part to convince him to leave her alone. Once he was finally gone, Lily sighed in relief. 'This plan is fool proof. A few days away from him should wash all of these unwanted feelings away. Three days to think about Sirius and Sirius alone should be perfect,' She thought with satisfaction. What could go wrong?

Two days passed and her fool proof plan didn't seem so fool proof. Instead of thinking of Sirius, she found herself thinking of James. He was constantly in her thoughts. She did everything she could think of to push him out of her mind. She listened to music that reminded her of Sirius, she looked at pictures of Sirius, she took out presents that Sirius had given her but those were only temporary reliefs from her daydreams. And it didn't help that James was checking in on her every two seconds. She appreciated his concern and all but it was getting to be too much for her to handle. She was going insane for this kid and she had no control over it. She needed Sirius back but she couldn't do it so soon. She didn't know what to do. Her mind was scrambled. She had to get out of her room or else she would go nuts. She decided to be 'better' the next day.

Lily got up at 7:00 the next morning, showered and dressed. She went down to the common room and picked up her book. She hadn't read it for a while. She opened to her place in the story and began to read. About five minutes into her reading, she heard the shower go on in the bathroom, signaling James was awake. After he was dressed he went into the common room to find that Lily was up and about.
"I see you're feeling better," "Much. Thanks for your concern for the past few days," Lily told him.
"Anytime," James replied. "Ready?" he asked. Lily nodded and stood up. He took her small hand in his and they left the dormitory. They entered the great hall and went to their usual section to find it occupied by no other than Sirius and a sixth year Hufflepuff. Lily tightened her grip on James hand as they went to sit at the other end of the Gryffindor table. That morning at breakfast was full of Lily ranting on to James about Sirius' new conquest.
"How could he? I know he's only doing that to make me jealous!" "Well you're doing the same thing," James pointed out. Lily shot him a menacing look.
"Not the point!" She exclaimed as she continued her rant. James sighed and just tuned her out, something he thought he'd never do. James walked Lily to her class as usual. She tilted her head up for the kiss she had come to enjoy when James said, "Lily, Sirius isn't here," Her heart quickened. He was right. How would she cover up for that?
"The walls have eyes James," she told him. James leaned down and kissed her softly on the lips and waved goodbye. Lily leaned against the wall outside of the classroom grasping her books tightly. What was she going to do about this situation? She certainly couldn't tell James how she felt. That would ruin everything. She wanted Sirius back so bad, but she wanted to keep James too. She had come to like their relationship, however not-real it was. Life was definitely wayyy too confusing.

The days passed and Lily felt her attraction to James growing stronger each day. It was out of her control. She needed to get Sirius back fast. But she wanted to stay with James. As much as she didn't want to, she enjoyed James' company. She knew that if she left James for Sirius the reality of the situation would sink in and James would realize that he was being used. 'He did volunteer,' Lily thought. But this didn't make her feel any better. She knew that eventually she would have to leave James. That was the sole purpose of doing this. So that Lily could get Sirius back. That was the ultimate goal. James also knew this. He had absolutely no clue about Lily's growing feelings for him but he knew that he was enjoying their relationship and he didn't want it to end. He knew that Lily could end it any day now though. It had been over a month already and they never agreed on how long they would go for. Girls were unpredictable and spontaneous. James knew nothing about what went on inside of their heads. But what he did know was that he didn't want it to end. He enjoyed the daily kisses and caressses from the girl of his dreams. James just hoped that he was having as much of an affect on her as she was having on him. Little did James know, he was.

Lily paced back and forth in her room. This problem was getting too much for her to handle. She had to do something once and for all. She opened her bedroom door and went down to the common room. James sat doing his potions essay on the crimson sofa. She marched right upd to him and planted a passionate kiss right on his mouth.

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