Ahhhhh! I'm back! And sorrier than ever! Okay...I'm going to attempt at a chapter. I know what I want to happen but I need filler chapters sooooo, this might be tres sucky. Enjoy!

Chapter Fourteen

As Sirius and James strode out of the Great Hall, tears welled up in Lily's emerald orbs. She dropped her fork and lifted her hand to wipe her tears before they fell. She stood up and walked out of the Great Hall and up to the Head Dorms where she would cry her heart out in her bedroom. She slammed her door shut and flung herself onto the bed where she dissolved into a fit of sobs. Lily stayed curled up in the fetal position, staring at the walls as the tears streamed down her face. About an hour later, there was a soft knock on her door.

"Go away!" she shouted angrily. He knocked again, ignoring her command. "I said go away!" There was another knock and then the door creaked open. James peeked in at her. "What the fuck didn't you understand?" Lily was sitting up now.

"I'm not leaving Lily," James told her softly. She glared at him angrily, the tears still falling.

"Don't you think you've hurt me enough?" She struggled to keep her voice even, but in vain. It quivered with anger and sadness.

"Have you ever thought about how I feel? Or how Sirius feels? We were hurt too Lily. By your indecisiveness," (A/N: is that a word? lol) Lily's eyes lowered as she comprehended what he was saying to her. "We both love you so much Lily. But we don't love being toyed with,"

"James I'm sorry. I've been really selfish. But I'm upset too! Look at me! You could have just spoken to me before I got like this!" James looked down at Lily's bummy appearance. He lifted her arm that was much skinnier than it had been the last time he had held her. The bracelet he had given her almost falling off. He noticed a scar on her lower wrist. James pushed up her sleeve to reveal more scars similar to the first. Lily tried to pull away but he held on tight. His eyes drifted back up to her face. A tear trickled down her face as James examined her. Lily's face had become sallow and sunken in. All of her features seemed too big for her face. Her once sparkling green eyes were now dull and emotionless.

"Why?" Lily stifled a sob and pulled away.

"When was the last time you ate?" Lily avoided eye contact.

"What are you talking about James? I ate this morning."

"No you didn't. Half a slice of bacon and a bite of an apple doesn't count,"

"Have you been monitoring my eating habits?"

"You can't answer a question with a question, Lily. When was the last time you ate. For real?" Lily was silent for a moment.

"I don't remember," She told him softly.

"Oh Lily," James whispered, he gathered Lily into his arms and held her as she cried. Neither of them noticed Sirius watching the whole scene from the doorway.

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The next morning, James forced Lily out of bed and into the shower. After she was dressed in some decent clothes, he walked with her to the Great Hall and filled her plate high with food.

"Now you are going to eat every last bite of this," Lily's eyes widened.

"James I'm not Sirius, I can't eat all of this," James reexamined the plate and realized that she was right. He put some of her food onto his plate until there was a normal amount of food remaining. Lily sighed and knew that she wasnt getting out of it. So she began to eat. Once she tasted the food for real, she realized that she actually was hungry. Now that James was talking to her again. She felt closer to being normal than she had in a long time.

gahhhh... i cant seem to write any long chapters!