When I was in need you were always there to nurture me, whenever I was there you always knew what I needed only by feeling me.
As a child you always showed me who I was, you gave me one thing no one else ever could, you showed me respect. You allowed me to see who you were and where you came from, you gave me so much I still can't even begin to tell. Love even when I deserved none.
You showed me what a sin was and gave me lines and boundaries, you gave me direction and guidance, you were always my light in the dark.
I can still recall that night…
The very first night I behaved as something I was not to ever be… something I needed to understand could never be me…
You took me gently, you calmed my mind and soul, and you made sure I felt safe. I knew with you by my side I would always be safe, but you made me feel it until I was ready, you cared for my every need. You tried nothing until I was safe and calmed, you knew the perfect timing, you didn't tell, you didn't order, you reasoned, you explained, you made me understand step by step and only then did you do what you needed to do.
You waited for my affirmation, you allowed me to control even that regardless of what I felt you allowed me to make it my own. You showed me respect even in those moments; you not once stopped showing me your love and deference.
For this and much more I will always thank you, for this and much more I will always stay with you and only you. My guardian, my guide, my love. Mine.
That's right, no one has ever quite got what it is I feel for you, maybe not even me but I know this, if love is something deep warm and limitless then that is what I feel for you. Even if you were given to me with no bounds, even if you belong to me you are not and wont ever be my property, you are your own as I am mine but at the very same time you're no one's but mine as I'm only yours. Belonging doesn't mean owning.
And all this is something only you could understand.
I told her that I kept going because I had a reason, I had something to do it for unlike them, I'm not like them and wont ever be. But I know none of them got it, I don't do it for Father, I don't do it for the golden millennium and their selfish reasons, I do t for my own, I fight for my love, I know my angel and I fight for her, only for her.
I know I wont lose her because I've got a plan, because I know where I come from and where I'm going and because I know no matter what I wont be alone, because even if I could not know what to do, I will always be with you.