Two Hours Earlier…

"James you were looking at them!" Elizabeth yelled at him as they came into their apartment "You couldn't peel your eyes off of their boobs"

"I was not looking at them!" He yelled back as he threw his car keys on the table. "You weren't very Virgin Mary like dancing with the football player"

"It was one dance get over it. I wasn't flirting with him" She defended as she crossed her arms on her chest.

James let out a fake laugh as he opened the fridge and took a beer out. "Right. You're ass against his dick didn't send any signs at all. Way to go June Clever"

"You kept putting your hands on those girls!"

"I'm a guy!"

"What the hell is that supposed to mean!" She yelled back angrily. "You can cheat but I cant?"

"I never said that! It's just different ok?"

"Why?"

"Because if I say 'no' then it's not like they can force me. If you say 'no' then you don't know what kind of idiot he is and what he might try"

Lizzie smiled a little still being angry "So now because I'm a girl I'm not allowed to flirt with other guys cause they might rape me? Is that what you mean Mr. Testosterone?"

"You of all people should know this!"

"Why?"

"Look at where your dad and my mom work! What are the odds that I will get raped and the odds of you getting raped? I really don't think some big ass dude looking for pussy is going to attack me, what do you think?"

"So now I'm going to get raped cause I'm a girl and I flirted with a football player? You're a smart one James" Lizzie nodded with a small smile.

"Oh so you do admit flirting with him?" He took a sip of his beer and crossed his arms on his muscular chest.

"We're back to this again?"

"Hey you started it"

"Oh my god" She shook her head "You're just like your father, you cant let anything go and you are such a smartass"

"Don't bring my father into this! At least my dad is home half the time!"

"Well at least when my parents plan on getting divorced they go through with it, unlike yours who go through it twice and nothing. It's like they are bored out of their minds and just looking to screw with your head!" Lizzie yelled back angrily "Oh no, sorry, they like to screw each other. How many brothers and sisters do you have? Lets see, one half brother, one adoptive sister, then finally by magic your parents reproduce with each other twins and a little girl. Good thing your dad was able to be with your mom and not knock up other women for a change."

James just looked at her and shook his head "We're done."

"What?"

"Me and you. We're done. Finished. I really don't care that you gave up your virginity to me. Sweetheart you were good and I enjoyed banging you, believe me I did. But I have dignity, I don't need this from you" he left the apartment and slammed the door closed.

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Mark and Olivia rushed into the emergency room. Mark had on jeans and a dark green sweater. Olivia had on faded jeans and a New York t-shirt with a pullover sweater half opened.

Mark went to the service desk and Olivia spotted Lizzie sitting in the waiting room crying. She walked over to her seeing she wasn't hurt anywhere "Lizzie what happened?"

Elizabeth quickly got up "I…we got in a fight and…I'm sorry…they won't tell me anything"

"We're you with him?" Olivia asked as she took her in a hug to make her stop shaking.

"No. We got in a fight and I guess he got drunk and I found out cause I called him when the paramedics got him…I'm so sorry"

"It's ok" Olivia whispered, "It's not your fault"

Mark came over "Hey" He whispered, "You ok Lizzie?"

"She wasn't with him" Olivia answered for the crying girl "What did they say?"

"He is still in surgery. He was in a head-on collision. The other driver is in surgery also. The woman suffered less cause she had on her seatbelt." Mark answered as he rubbed Lizzie's back to calm her down "Liz did you call your dad?"

"No" She answered. She didn't even want to look at him feeling so guilty about what she said earlier since he was extremely nice to her, nicer then he was to James sometimes.

Mark nodded at Olivia as she sat down with Lizzie. "I'll call him," Mark whispered as he pulled his phone out and walked away.

Olivia finally calmed down Lizzie when Mark came back.

"I'm getting coffee" Elizabeth said quietly and walked past Mark.

Mark sat down by Olivia. He took her hand and placed a kiss on it "You ok?"

Olivia rested her head on his shoulder "I can't believe he actually got in the car drunk. I mean they fought and he drank but he got in the car drunk."

"He is a guy, we do stupid things when girls get us mad" he wrapped his arm around her shoulders and held her.

"Well I didn't get you mad but you still cheated on me" Olivia mumbled without thinking. Mark moved away a little and just looked at her. She looked up at him realizing what she said, "Mark honey, that was out of line, I'm sorry"

He just nodded "It's fine"

Olivia rested her head on his shoulder "I'm sorry, I'm just really worried"

He gave her a kiss on the head "I know, me too. Do you want coffee?"

"Yea"

He got off his chair "I'll be right back" He gave her a kiss and went down the hall.

Olivia sat there silently for a couple of minutes. She took a magazine and flipped the pages. She was too worried to even read it.

A man rushed into the hospital and went straight to the service desk. Olivia looked up hearing the receptionist describe what happened. He was the woman's husband that James hit.

"Are you the boys mother?"

Olivia looked up at the man standing in front of her "The car accident. Yes my son was the other driver"

"The drunk driver?" The man yelled at her.

Olivia got off her chair trying to keep calm "Sir yelling at me wont make this better"

"How the hell do you let your son get behind the wheel drunk? Didn't you teach him anything?" He kept yelling.

"Is there a problem here?" Mark asked as he walked back to Olivia with Elizabeth by him.

The man looked over at him "Are you the boys father?"

Mark put the coffee cups down on the table "Yes I am. You are?"

"You're son hit my wife"

Mark nodded "I'm sorry about that sir but don't talk to my wife the way you just did or you and I will have serious problems" He said calmly.

"You don't know whom you are talking to boy" The man took a step toward him.

"Boy?" Mark smiled a little "Elizabeth can you go take a walk please? I don't want you to see when I beat the crap out of this asshole"

Elizabeth looked at Mark and then at Olivia. Olivia nodded a little at her. She said nothing and walked away.

The man came closer to Mark "What did you just say?"

Mark rolled his sleeves up "Oh you don't want to mess with me tonight, I am in the mood to beat someone up for a lot of reasons and a punk who was rude to my wife is just perfect."

Olivia got in the middle and pushed Mark away "Enough. No fighting"

The man smiled a little "Aww she keeps a leash on you?"

Mark smirked a little "For the sake of your face you better pray to God she does that all night"

"If I were you I wouldn't threaten a CIA agent" The man pulled his badge out.

"Aww don't you have some spy's to hunt down?" Mark pulled his badge out "FBI"

"You look familiar. Captain Anderson?"

"Yes" Mark answered.

The man smirked a nodded "I heard about you. Had an affair with his boss in his office. You have a record of not following orders, even a bigger record of beating people up that you don't like. You're daddy who was the head of the FBI, Marcus Anderson, was abusive. Of course a nice man like you isn't his kid cause your mommy got knocked up by some other loser. You knocked up your girlfriend before meeting your wife, who you cheated on, and that son went to prison. Did I miss anything?"

Mark just smiled and moved in front of Olivia "Yea. Put this on that record" He slugged him and pushed him to the ground. He got on top of him and started to hit him.

Olivia quickly ran after him and tried to pull him off.

Elliot ran into the hospital and spotted Mark hitting someone and Olivia was trying to pull him off. He quickly ran over and helped his partner pull her husband off "Enough Mark. Off."

Mark fell off and slid to the ground. He held his wrist he sprained and ignored his bloody knuckles. "Think before you speak mother fucker" He got off the floor and examined his knuckles "Pray to God I never see you on the street again." He shook his head and walked away.

Elliot looked up at Olivia "What the hell happened?"

Olivia just shook her head and held her hands up showing she didn't want to deal with this at all. She followed Mark down the hall.

He was holding an ice pack on his wrist in the cafeteria. Olivia sat down by him and took the ice pack and took his hand. She held his wrist and gently put the ice pack on it. "You should get this checked out"

"I'm fine," he answered as he leaned back on his chair.

Olivia glanced up at him as she held the ice pack. "This is such a wrong place to fight and the worst time"

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One hour earlier….

James got into his Mitsubishi Eclipse and closed the door. He rubbed his eyes a little since he just spent an hour in a bar just drinking.

He tilted his head back feeling dizzy but then shook it off. He was fine. She couldn't get the best of him. He got his keys from his leather jacket and put them into the ignition. He turned it on and put it in drive.

He rubbed his eyes again as he drove and blinked a couple of times since his vision was starting to get blurry. He opened his eyes and saw he was heading straight into a car in front of him. Instead of hitting the brakes like he knew he should have when he was sober he swirled to the side.

He blinked seeing a bright white light coming at him. He pressed the brakes but it was too late. He flew out of his window as he hit the front of the other car. He ended up lying on his back on the roof of the other car and just staring at the night sky. The only noises he heard were the car horn under him. He tried to take a deep breath and get up but he couldn't move. He couldn't breath.

He finally just closed his eyes and allowed his lungs to gasp for small breaths that would go in from the blood running down his mouth. He felt rain start falling on him. At least he thought it was rain. A fire hydrogen burst open since someone else's car hit it since they braked after the crash being behind the Mitsubishi. Now it was just falling on him and covering his body with water.

He wanted to die. The pain was too bad. He felt that he deserved to die after treating his girlfriend so badly. After drinking even if he knew his mother didn't like drunken people. He deserved it.

He opened his eyes to flashing lights and the water finally stopping. The car horn stopped ringing in his ear and made it a little more peaceful. He felt a couple of arms grab him and slid him off the roof. He heard some voices but he couldn't make out what they were saying.

He heard his familiar ringtone in his pocket. It was Elizabeth's ringtone. He wanted to answer and say how sorry he was but he didn't know what was going on. He felt someone else take his phone out and the ringtone stopped. Someone else answered as he tried to realize what was going on or where he was.

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Mark and Olivia finally came back to the waiting room where Elliot was sitting with Elizabeth and trying to talk to her but she wouldn't talk.

The CIA agent was now talking to a doctor down the hall.

Mark and Olivia sat down next to Elliot and kept quiet.

Elliot glanced at Olivia "He isn't pressing charges whoever he was" He said in a low voice to her. Olivia just nodded gratefully.

A doctor came out with a notepad "James Marcus Anderson"

Mark and Olivia quickly got up and went over to him. "We're his parents" Olivia answered. "How's he doing?"

"He had major luck. The window broke from the impact before he flew out of it so minor damage to his head. But he does have a broken rib and a broken leg. He should recover just fine. He should be up in about 2 to 3 hours," The doctor answered.

Mark nodded and shook hands with him "Thanks"

Olivia looked over at Mark "Why don't you go home and get at least two hours of sleep cause you have a meeting at six"

"It's fine, I'll tell Brad to sit in for me. He knows most of the information anyway" Mark gave her a kiss and walked down the hall to call his special agent.

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Brad jumped to his cellphone ringing on his nightstand. He fumbled to get it and finally reached for it. "Stewart" He sat up and turned on the light on his nightstand seeing Casey wasn't next to him. "Yes sir" He rubbed his eyes sleepily as his captain gave him instructions. "I will. Yes sir got it. You're welcome. Hope he feels better" He closed his phone and pulled a t-shirt on.

He went out to the living room and spotted Casey sitting on the couch and looking through their family album. He wrapped his arms around her neck and gave her a kiss on the cheek "Why are you up?"

"Couldn't sleep," She answered as she closed the album. "Who called you? I heard your phone."

"Mark. I have to go in for a meeting for him. James is in the hospital," He answered as he went around the couch and sat down by her.

"Is he ok?"

"He got in a car accident but he's fine" Brad answered as he took the family album and flipped through it. "You're not mad at me after earlier are you?"

Casey shook her head even if she was upset. More like disappointed but she didn't want him to feel bad. "No. I mean I…I'm not mad"

Brad wrapped his arms around her shoulders and kissed her head "Casey it's not that I don't want another kid I just don't think were ready at this point."

She nodded and gave him a kiss "I understand. You gave me a son. It's enough" She got off the couch "I'm going to go to the gym"

"Now? It's like four in the morning"

"I can't sleep," She answered "I'll be back before you leave for work," She answered as she went to their bedroom to get dressed in her sweats. Brad sat their quietly knowing she went to the gym when she was pissed about a case at work, her recent case didn't seem to get too close and wasn't pissing her off. Casey came out and just waved at him "Bye."

Brad just waved back as she went out the door. He got up and got his files to review for this meeting he was in charge of for Mark.

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James opened his eyes and blinked a couple of times since they were a little blurry. He looked around and he was in a hospital. He spotted a nurse by his bed checking things "Excuse me?"

"Yes?"

"Um…can you get my mom? My parents should be here but I want to see my mom. Olivia Benson"

The nurse nodded with a small smile and went out of his room. He took a breath and that caused him to wince in pain from his broken rib. How the hell was he going to apologize for this? His father was always on his side and let things go easily when it was one of the kids.

His mom was going to be harder since he knew better then to get drunk especially since he knew the history of alcohol with his grandmother. He shouldn't have but he heard it when his parents discussed her mother late at night. Most of the time his mother was crying and his father was trying to make her feel better.

He looked over as his door opened slowly and Olivia came in. She closed the door behind her and sat down by him. "How you feeling honey?"

"In pain physically and emotionally" He answered with a shrug "I'm sorry I'm putting you through this"

Olivia smiled and gave him a kiss on the forehead "Make me be in a hospital? I'm here for strangers all the time, I think I could make an acceptation for you"

He smiled a little "I mean the whole alcohol thing, I shouldn't have drank but I was just really mad at Lizzie"

Olivia nodded and hugged him "I know but you know that's not an excuse. If you knew you were drunk you should have called dad or me. We would have picked you up without question."

He nodded a little "I know. I'm really sorry"

She gave him a kiss on the head "Forgiven. Never again you understand me?"

"Yea"

"You want me to get Lizzie? She's been out there all night with us. She was crying and was hysterical, I'm pretty sure she wants to see you."

He just nodded "Yea I want to see here"

Olivia gave him a kiss on the cheek and got off the bed. She went out of the room "Liz he wants to see you" Lizzie quickly got up and went into his room.

Elliot stood next to Olivia and both watched their kids hugging and for the first time all night smiling. "Who would have thought huh?" Elliot spoke up.

Olivia nodded "Find love in weird places"

"Oh yea, yummy love baby"

Both detectives turned around at who said that and looked at Mark eating a sandwich and wasn't paying attention to them. Both detectives smiled at the federal agent and shook their heads.

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Couple of days later…

Mark got startled as his cell phone ringing in the middle of the night. It was only two in the morning and both Olivia and him were asleep. He finally found his phone fumbling on the nightstand and answered it sleepily. "Anderson" he said half quietly so he didn't wake Olivia up. He listened to the other person on the line and slowly sat up in bed. "Are you sure? Positive? Ok. I'll be there first thing in the morning...Thank you." He closed his phone and sat there in shock for a couple of minutes.

He finally got out of bed and went out of the room taking some clothes with him.

Half an hour later Olivia turned to hug her husband as she slept but there was no one there. She opened her eyes and looked around. He wasn't on his computer. Their bathroom door was open like always. She got out of bed and went out of the room to find him.

He wasn't in the living room. She went upstairs to the kid's rooms but he wasn't there either. She finally went to the kitchen to see if he left a note on the fridge. He didn't.

She spotted someone outside in the backyard. She slowly unlocked the back door and went out on the porch. There he was. He was lying in the grass in the backyard and just staring at the night sky. She grabbed a hoodie from the kitchen and pulled her shoes on.

She went out and walked over to him. She stood above him but he didn't move "Hey, what are you doing?"

"Thinking" He answered as he kept staring at the starless dark sky.

Olivia sat down next to him in the green grass seeing his eyes were glistening with tears "About what?"

He kept quiet for a while and then finally spoke "Have you ever felt like you missed out on a chance of a lifetime?"

She nodded and took his hand "Yea. Why?"

"I keep losing people. I…I keep messing up. I had a chance and I blew it. I'm never getting it back."

"Honey I don't understand. What happened?"

He wiped his eyes before a tear fell down "My dad is dead"

Olivia quickly looked over at him "What?"

He sat up and buried his head in his hands "I'm such an idiot. I'm such a stupid stubborn son of a bitch." He shook his head and started to cry, "Go inside."

"No" She hugged him "What happened?"

He pulled a picture out of his pocket and handed it to her. "I'm never going to have that. I never even had it" he whispered and got up. He wiped his eyes and went inside the house.

Olivia looked down the picture and it was him as a little boy with his family on his third birthday. It was the only picture he had of his mother except for the murder pictures. He was three and his supposed father had him in his lap. His big blue were sparkling from the birthday cake and he had a huge smile that brightened the room like it did now. Little did this boy know that in two years his childhood would be stolen from him.

Olivia got up and followed him inside the house. She took her shoes off and her hoodie then spotted him kneeling down by Lilly and stroking her hair as she slept.

Olivia went into her room and gently touched his shoulder "C'mon let's talk"

Mark nodded and gently kissed Lilly on the head and got off the floor. He went out of the room and went into their room. He took his sweater off as Olivia came into the room and closed the door behind her. "I don't want to talk about this," he stated.

Olivia just nodded at him "Ok. Want to tell me what happened at least?"

He opened his drawer and just stared at his gun "He was murdered."

"They called you?"

"Yea." He scratched the back of his head "He had a newspaper of me on his wall and they found my number in his cell phone"

"You have to identify the body?"

He nodded again. "Um…I know you have to work in the morning but…can you come with me?"

"Yea. Of course" She quickly nodded. "What time?"

"They said in the morning whenever." He quietly lay down in bed and stared at the ceiling. "This feels like a nightmare"

Olivia lay down by him and took him in a hug "I know honey."

He quietly started to cry and fell asleep in her arms that way.

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Olivia was kneeling down by Mike and helping him with his homework in the morning as he ate his cereal.

"Look Michael if you had two cokes and I drank one how many would you have?" She asked looking at the second grader.

Mike thought for a second and then looked over at his twin. Matt just shrugged and paid attention to Olivia's lesson. "Um…three?"

"Subtraction. Not addition." Olivia explained. "When you take away you subtract. Understand?"

Mike let out a groan "I hate school"

Mark came out of his room already dressed and quietly went to get coffee. Olivia glanced at him seeing he was still in shock and depressed about what happened. She turned to her sons and kept explaining.

Mark got his coffee and took the newspaper on the counter top that no one opened yet. He opened the front page and saw his own picture. The headline read 'Fed's father murdered. Coincidence?' He closed the newspaper angrily and threw it in the thrash loudly, making Olivia and the boys jump and get quiet. He sat down next to Mike and Matt and crossed his arms on his chest.

Matt looked over at his father "Ok dad?"

Mark looked up at him and nodded "Yea. Sorry. Keep listening to mom"

Olivia glanced at Mark and then at the boy's homework. "Ok guys, if you had three video games and dad took away one, what do you have?"

The twins shrugged again not understanding.

Lilly came out of her room and climbed onto Mark's lap. Mark kissed her on the head and held her. "Boys, before Lilly was born how many kids under 10 were here?" Mark asked.

"Just us" Matt answered.

"So two right?" He asked. They both nodded. "Now there are three at this table. If I take Lilly away" he playfully covered Lilly's eyes. "How many now?"

"Two" Mike answered.

Olivia nodded "Good. Understand?"

The twins nodded "Yea" They answered in unison.

Lilly pulled Mark's hand down. "They are so stupid. I knew that"

The twins gave thier little sister a look and went back to their breakfast.

"Mark honey can you get Lilly dressed? I have to get ready" Olivia stood up.

Mark nodded and picked Lilly up on his shoulder. He carried her to her room and put her on the bed as he picked her clothes out.

Lilly got on her bed and started to jump on it.

Mark put her small jeans and her t-shirt on the bed and pointed to it "Down"

Lilly stopped jumping and lifted her arms over her head knowing the routine. Mark pulled her pajamas off and left her in her underwear as he took her jeans. "Daddy?"

"Yes honey?" He pulled the jeans on her as she held her balance on his shoulder.

"Are you sad?" The kindergartener asked.

He buttoned her jeans up "Yes" He took her t-shirt. "Up" She lifted her arms up. He pulled the t-shirt on.

"Why?"

He took a deep breath not sure how to answer. "Well…it's complicated"

"Was someone mean to you? I'm sad when the twins are mean to me"

He smiled and sat her down on the bed. He kneeled down in front of her "No the twins weren't mean to me but remind me to ground them when they are mean to you again ok?"

"Ok" She nodded "Did you spill something and mommy yelled at you?"

He let out a small chuckle "No, mommy didn't yell at me"

"Did I do something that made you sad?"

"Oh of course not honey" he gave her a kiss "It's a grown up thing, I'll explain when you're older ok?"

She nodded "Ok"

Olivia came into the room "Ready?"

"Yup" Mark turned his back to Lilly as she climbed on for a piggyback ride. "Let's go"

"Let's go" The little girl pointed to the door as her father carried her out. Olivia smiled a little and followed her husband and kids out the door.

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Mark paced around the hallway as they waited for the morgue to be ready. Olivia just watched him not wanting to bother him knowing he had all kinds of emotions running through his body now.

Two men came over to him "Mark Anderson?"

Mark looked at them. "Yes. Detectives?"

They both nodded "Detective Rogers and my partner detective Sellers" The younger detective answered. "Sir we checked your birth certificate and it says that Marcus Anderson was your father"

"I know." Mark nodded. He didn't want these men knowing his whole family issue.

Olivia got off the chair and walked over to her husband. She knew how this went. Even if Mark didn't want everyone to know the detectives needed to know for the investigation. "He was married to his mother but he wasn't his biological father. Ryan Vaughn was."

Mark glanced over at her and said nothing. He was going to confront her later, not now.

The detectives looked over at her. "You're his wife?" Sellers asked.

Olivia nodded "Yea"

The detectives nodded and led them over to a window. One tapped on it and the light came on inside. Mark kept staring at the ground not being ready at all to identify his father's body.

The doctor moved the blue sheet off the face. Olivia took Mark's hand and gently squeezed it so he would look up.

He slowly did and just stared at his father's corpse. He knew nothing about this man and yet it was killing him. He rested his forehead on the glass and slowly nodded. The light went off.

The detectives walked away and left the couple alone for a couple of minutes.

Mark hit the window angrily and slid down it. Olivia kneeled down and took him in a hug. "Ssshhh" She whispered as she rocked him in her arms.

He moved away from her and got off the floor "Why would you tell them?"

Olivia got up as well and just looked at him "What?"

"They don't need to know everything about my family! The fact that I was a mistake isn't relevant to their investigation!"

"Mark they are investigating they need-"

"Stop acting like a cop!" he yelled at her. "For once in your life stop acting like a god damn cop!"

"What is your problem!" She yelled back.

He took a deep breath and shook his head "Nothing" he looked around the room. "Everything…everything is how it's supposed to be. I'm sorry I yelled, I was too busy experiencing my worst nightmare." He turned around and walked away.