Disclaimer: -sigh- I've said this too many times. It hurts. Sorry lawyers, I don't own Naruto.

Warning: angst, shounen-ai (sorry, I had to. I mean really, it's ME we're talking about.), extremely slight language.

"Speaking"

"Kyuubi Speaking"

'Naruto speaking to Kyuubi'

The Woman in my Mind

(Naruto P.O.V.)

If I concentrate enough, I can pretend it's you. You holding me, you kissing me, you whispering words of adoration.

I wish it was you, not him. Don't get me wrong, I love him, but over the years the romantic feelings towards him changed to brotherly love.

I don't love Sasuke the way I love you.

One day he'll find out. He'll realize that it's not him that I love, and that it's not me that he loves.

He'll discover that I'm hopelessly in love with the demon trapped inside me. He'll hate me, think I'm crazy, shun me, just like the villagers.

He'll stop talking to me. I'll have lost my best friend.

Maybe, just maybe, I am crazy. Maybe I shouldn't love you. Though that doesn't sound right, does it?

Me not loving you, it stings just to think about it. I'd be dead by now; I wouldn't be able to live with myself. Now that I think about it, you've kept me alive. All these years, you've been the only one that really could.

He's beautiful, though not as beautiful as you. I can definitely tell why I loved him so much in the beginning. I just hope he doesn't love me too much… I don't want to hurt him too bad.

He treats me so nicely, too. He tells me I'm perfect, and that there's no one else in the world that can make him as happy as I can. Well, I do know that's true. He never smiles unless we're alone. Maybe he thinks he doesn't look good when he smiles? His smile is gorgeous. I've told him that, but he doesn't listen.

He's going to make someone really, really happy some day.

Yes, I do love him. I really do! I just feel so much stronger about you! And you can't be in love with more than one person, anyway. Right?

It's silly to think about something I've thought about so much already. He'll be okay, I know him. He's strong.

He did lose his whole family, didn't he?

I don't know pain like that. I just lost my father and mother, and I had never met either of them. I still don't even know anything about my mother, save she was the Yondaime's secret lover.

He went through a lot of things I can hardly bear to think of.

Of course, I've suffered through some tough shit. I am the vessel of Kyuubi.

You may not be villainous anymore, but they don't know that. I've tried to tell them. They don't care. They don't trust me, of course. I don't know how I could have ever hoped that they would listen. Only one person tried to understand that you aren't horrible. Only one person.

I hope he doesn't miss me toomuch when I'm gone.

I hope he can still be happy when I leave.

I hope he'll still smile the way he did for me when I'm done.

I hope he'll find someone he loves as much as me, maybe more than me.

It's stupid of me to hope so much. Where has hope got me so far? Nowhere.

I need to be with you, I'll do anything. Anything.

There's only one way, and it will work. I know it will! It has to; even God himself isn't that cruel…

…I hope.

A/N:

Oh snappers! I updated. Like, whooaah…

Yeah, it's really short, but what do you expect? This was supposed to just be a oneshot, but I just got inspiration, and I was like, "Whoa, I should type it up and post that shit!"

So yeah, maybe one or two more chapters will be coming soon. Maybe even today :O

Also, sorry if it's sort of repetitive... I'm too lazy to go over it and check for repeats of lines and stuff… I really should do that, but again, I'm extremely lazy…

Besides that! Please, I'm begging you PLEASE review. Seriously, I'll update faster.

Ja ne.