Title: Shattered Innocence

Author: DnKS-giRLs

Rating: PG-13

Pairing: Kanda-Allen

Disclaimers: oh come on, this is the fifth chapter already… get the first four to read the disclaimer… don't torture us by making us write them again!

Warning: major OOCness issued! And super sappy and over-romantic and… well… you can say it's a modified soap opera… duh… btw… forgot one thing, it's (gasp) MPreg! And beware! We are serious when we said OOC!

Chapter 5 - Revelation

Kanda had just finished his bath when someone knocked at his door. Quickly he put his coat on before he strode to the door with swift steps. He yanked the door open and was face to face with a finder he did not remember the name.

"I was asked to tell you that Komui-san is expecting you in his office as soon as you can manage to go there," the person said before he took his leave without waiting for Kanda's affirmative.

Kanda frowned at that. Why would Komui want to see him? But he remembered about his report that he had not yet given that to the said supervisor because he was aching for a hot bath. That had to be it; he thought as he took his report and motioned to leave his room. Komui wanted to have his report; that was the only thing he could come up with due to the other's need to meet him.

He walked down to Komui's office, the second time that morning. His mind unconsciously replayed the trip he had earlier with Allen in his hands and he could not help but feeling a bit worry. But as usual, he pushed the thought to the back of his mind, hoping that it would stay there for good.

Kanda hastened his steps as the door that lead to Komui's office was drawing near. It was a wonder that the door was still standing after it received his kick earlier that morning. He knocked at the door. When he got the confirmation from inside, he pushed the door open and entered the room.

The first thing he saw after he entered the room was Allen who sat straight on a chair before Komui's desk. He was confused at why would Allen be there, was he in any better condition now, and why did he avoid his gaze to meet Kanda so much?

"Sit down, please," Komui said to him. Kanda sat beside Allen and threw confused look at him, but it seemed the boy also had no idea why he was even there.

"Do you now why I called for you?" Komui asked, obviously his question was directed to Kanda, who frowned even more. He just tossed the report to Komui's desk and said.

"That's my report," he said. "Or is there anything else?"

"There is something else, and I believe it concerns both of you," Komui said, his tone was dead serious. Kanda did not remember many occasions in which Komui had his serious tone that matched with what he had that time. He knew that this was something unpleasant by just looking at it.

"Enlighten me," he said. He looked to his side, to Allen who kept his mouth silenced but he could see confusion on the other's face. "No… I mean, enlighten us…"

Komui took a deep breath, "It's about your last mission together…"

Kanda hold his breath when he heard Komui spoke about that certain mission. He gathered up facts. He was called, Allen was called, Komui had a poignant tone in his voice, and he looked at them in meaningful glare…

Was it possible that Komui knew?

"What… about it?" he heard Allen opened his mouth for the first time after he entered the room. His voice was shaky and he knew that the boy had the same way of thinking with him.

"It's about the innocence that you said had been taken by the enemy. I just found out that in fact, it is not," Komui said. "When we're talking, I assure you that the innocence is safe within Allen's body. I don't know how it could get there, but when I took Allen to Hebraska earlier to check if there's something wrong with his innocence, she said that there was another innocence within his body. Further examination proves it to be the exact innocence you two were trying to get in your latest mission."

Kanda felt Allen releasing his breath. He was also going to do the same, but he stopped at a certain fact he suddenly remembered.

"Komui," he said. "Correct me if I'm wrong, but I thought one person should only posses at most one and only one innocence."

"True…" Komui said. He let his words came out in a slower pace, as if he measured each word with greatest consideration. "So, I said the innocence was within Allen's body, literally it's true. But… if you want more accurate information, it resides within a baby that is conceived within Allen's body."

Kanda felt his mouth opened but no word could escape. His throat suddenly felt dry and he saw Allen tensed beside him in a very much same condition like him. He could not believe it, just now, did Komui implied that Allen was…

"Allen Walker, you are pregnant," Komui said, voicing the thought both boys had in their mind.

"What?" Allen finally found his voice and shouted out in desperation. "It can't be… I'm…"

"I know it's hard to believe, given the fact that you are male and such. In my theories, I believe the innocence is the one responsible to enable your body to carry a child. It's only my theories, though; I cannot say that I understand the innocence. The innocence always has its own way of thinking. It can kill someone but heal someone else," Komui explained. "When the innocence was put inside you by whatever power it might be, it needed to have a host to contain its power. Your body has already had its own innocence so it was out of question, but…"

At this point, Komui directed his sharp glare to Kanda, who felt like a cold rain was pouring down into his head, before it turned back to Allen.

"But, it cannot explain on how you could get pregnant on the first place. The innocence only enables you to be impregnated for its own purpose, but to create a life, two people is needed. By the tests we ran, I found out that you are approximately seven weeks pregnant. When I traced back the calendar, can you guess what I found in seven weeks aforementioned from now?"

Allen was silent so Kanda decided to answer on his behalf.

"Our mission together."

"Correct," Komui said. "And now, do you mind sharing what you know about how come Allen got pregnant?"

Kanda was silent. He nodded and cursed softly. He glanced to Allen who in time being had his face in colour of red unknown before to human race. He knew that Komui noticed those facts and he realized that they were trapped without any way out now. He never thought that their passionate encounter would bring them this far. He bit his lips, now there was something else that made him feel really guilty toward Allen.

Oh God, he thought, what had they done…

It was a miracle if Allen would ever forgive him, Kanda knew that. His selfish act had brought them into this deep. His selfish act had hurt Allen this much. His selfish act had destroyed Allen so cruelly. His selfish act had pushed Allen to a point without any way to turn back.

He did not remember clearly what happened later after that. He heard Komui said something about bringing them to the Commander-in-Chiefs to decide what they should do next. He felt being ushered by Komui through many corridors but all seemed to happen within a dream. He eyed Allen who walked silently beside him during the trip. The boy had his lips closed tight but he missed not the light tremble he had on the corner of his lips. He missed not the sight of tears that gathered in Allen's eyes, or the sight of how he clenched his fists so hard.

He wanted to say something to the boy but he had nothing in his mind to say to him. How could he even have any thought about it? He had hurt Allen far worse than anything, he had no right now to just touch him for he was afraid he would just hurt him more. Allen was fragile, so very fragile until he felt that it only needed one touch of his to shatter the boy into innumerable pieces.

Kanda Yuu, for the first time in his life, felt that he was at a complete loss.

His mind was finally coming back to him when they entered a seemingly-empty dark room. His eyes quickly adjusted to the dark and he realized that there were five people staring down at them. He knew this place, as he knew those people. The Commander-in-Chiefs, though it was too far for him to actually see their expression, were glaring at them, but he felt that their glare was specially directed to him.

"Kanda Yuu and Allen Walker," the deep sound of their name reverberated in that spacious room. "Explain yourselves!"

Kanda did not answer that command shortly after, since he himself did not know what to explain. He had just been told some minutes ago that Allen was pregnant… with his child… and now they demanded him to explain himself? As much as he wanted to give some of his wit to those people, he just could not find any word. He just settled on giving his usual cold glare to those five people who stared back at him with impertinence. Their match in glaring at each other seemed to last forever but Komui finally felt the tension that had grown to be so thick in that room and decided to speak.

"Sir, if you let me, I would like to explain this incident to you as far as my knowledge allows me to," he said. The Commander-in-Chiefs averted their gaze to Komui now and Kanda gritted his teeth in annoyance. Those higher-ups always annoyed him with their act of superiority toward those below them which meant everyone.

"Well, then, please do speak," one of those Commanders said. "And we need a good explanation for this. How can you just suddenly inform us that one of our exorcists who, as far as we know, is a male is now with child?"

"Sir, I believe the innocence is the root of all this things," Komui began his explanation and soon Kanda heard again the whole things that Komui had told them earlier in his office. He was glad that Komui did not mention about his and Allen's sexual intercourse which was also the basic of why this thing could happen in the first place.

Somewhere during Komui's explanation, Kanda glanced through the corner of his eyes to Allen who stood beside him. By looking at him, Kanda knew that the news had affected Allen far greater than what it had done to him. Allen had not said any word ever since they left Komui's office. He still had the depressing aura over his face which was still as pale as what it had been in the morning. He saw him flinching visibly when at one moment those Commanders giving him sharp glare after hearing Komui's explanation. They only made Allen's condition worse, he thought, could they not see how sick the boy was?

Sick, Kanda thought, yes, now he knew what had caused Allen's sickness. His pregnancy must be the one held responsible for it. Or, indirectly, it was him that had made Allen sick.

Kanda cursed himself at the now obvious fact. His voice was heard to the ears of those around him and awarded him some fierce looks from those five people above him.

"Anything you want to share with us?" one of them said.

"No, Sir," Kanda said courteously though he would like to shout at them that this was not even their damn business to begin with.

Kanda could see that they were not really pleased with his answer and were still glaring at him suspiciously. He knew that his record was bad enough in their eyes and that incident would surely make it worse. He knew that they could not kill him, they still needed him, and he was not afraid of whatever punishment they would give to him. He just worried about Allen. The boy would not be able to stand it anymore.

"So, Kanda Yuu," one of those Commanders spoke again. "Do you mind telling us of what you two have done to cause such incident to happen? Because as far as we knew, pregnancy is a complex matter and it can only happen after a certain… condition…"

Kanda cursed inaudibly and Allen had his face blushed inwardly like what he did in Komui's office earlier after Komui hinted the very same question to them. For once he was glad that at least those Commander-in-Chiefs had what people called brain, though - he added with a scorn - most of the time dysfunctional, so they could sort the fact and knew the answer without them having to speak it out loud.

He heard them sigh. He felt their accusing frown at them. He saw them speaking in low voices among themselves but he cared none of those. He just wanted to…

What? He even did not know what to do. He wanted to scream, to release his frustration, to simply not give a thought about the world for some times. He wanted to turn back the time to prevent all of this from happening. It was not that he felt regret over that moment he shared together with Allen at that certain time. No, it was by as far one of the greatest memories he held in his mind. He felt so blessed to have such moments between them, but if it only caused Allen pain, should he glad about it?

When Kanda was lost in his own thoughts, the Commanders had finally stopped discussing. They inhaled deeply before returning their eyes to the subject of their current surveillance. Kanda felt the glare was back thus he raised his face with as much dignity as he could afford and stared back to them. Someone had to remain strong during this process and since he knew Allen's condition not facilitated him to do so, he would take the greatest burden on his shoulders, no matter what it would bring him to. At least he could do that to the boy after all the things he had done to cause his unhappiness. He would protect him with all his might, he pledged in his heart, he would protect him no matter what, no matter how.

He would not let them hurt Allen ever.

"After much consideration on this problem, we have finally come into a conclusion," one of the Commanders said. "There is only one thing we can do to finish this problem off… or at least to bring it into… safer ground…"

Hearing that, Kanda had his eyes widened. They couldn't be…

"You… cannot possibly want to kill the baby, right?" Allen finally opened his mouth, voicing out the very same thought Kanda had in his mind. His hands were absent-mindedly clutched around his body and he took a step backward. Fear was apparent on his face and he was trembling slightly. "No… please tell me that you won't…"

"Rest assured, we will do no such thing, killing is a great sin to begin with," said one of those people and inwardly, both Kanda and Allen released a breath of relief. "That child is an innocence-compatible. Rather than killing, we would like you to carry the child until the term. But we will take the child as soon as he or she is born since it's impossible for you as exorcists to raise a child in your condition. This is all God's will and we humans can do nothing against it. However…"

The man who spoke stopped for some times to gather everyone's attention to him before he continued.

"However, the child must be born under proper circumstance. We cannot concede the sin you two have committed but for the child's sake, we will let it pass," he said. "God have His own way of doing things and if this be His will, so shall be it. But you must realize what comes as consequences for that. A child that is born not under legal marriage will forever be considered as a sinner; therefore we have decided that the union between the two of you must be sanctified in a sacred matrimony as soon as possible."

At that statement, both Kanda and Allen shouted, "What!" in loud voices but the man acted as if he did not hear them and continued his rant.

"We give you two weeks to arrange everything and after it has passed, we hope to see you married in a suitable way before the cross and the country. Now, you are dismissed. May God be with you, and…" the man stopped and gave them a cynical smile. "May He forgive you for what you have done…"

Kanda felt them being ushered out of the room as soon as those words were spoken. His mind was still in a daze. He had prepared himself for anything and yet, they ordered them to marry? Just what joke were they trying to play? They could not just order them to marry like that was the easiest thing in the world.

In his confusion, he unconsciously stared at Allen who at that time also had his stare fixed to him. Their gaze met for some seconds before, as if in a cue, both turned their faces from each other. Neither spoke nor looked at each other, both of them walked in silence to their respective rooms, their minds were full of what happened that day and each of them tried his best to digest the information they had just received, though they both did not do a very good job at that.

Somewhere from that time, both Kanda and Allen would always remember that day as 'the day when all the things started'. And there would never be any phrase to illustrate that certain day better than that.

- end chapter 5 -

(A/N: (written in sleepy state) yosh… chapter five is (yawn) finished… now is (gaze at the clock) past midnight and tomorrow, there's a meeting at 8 o'clock in the morning… in a place that requires two and a half hours driving from home… yea… so, you can give your re... (fall to sleep with some background sounds of, "Dammit, you can't leave an author note just like that!") …view, yeah, please leave your review… to us, that is… now sleep… just have three hours… will post this chapter tomorrow… after the meeting that is… if it would ever end… damn… and about that… (yawn again)… stupid explanations on Allen's condition a.k.a. his pregnancy… let's just say that (darn, are those stars!) we are the authors and whatever the authors said is the super… no, we mean surpe… no… what is… (yawn) supreme, yeah, that's it… supreme… truth… yeah… so… review…?)