With a shake, Jude Harrison awoke from sleep. It was the same reoccuring nightmare...when Tommy left. His tires screeching as he drove faster getting away, leving her standing there tears pouring down her pale cheeks as she watched the first and only man she had every loved drive off into a world she didnt even know existed.
"Oh, Jude. Why do you always have to think of him?" I muttered to myself, rolling over onto my side. He invaded my thoughts night and day with little memories, the first day I met him, our first song we made together, our first kiss. Little things that are so small, yet so important to me. The way his blue eyes sparkle when he laughs,
the way he looks right before he kisses me.
His kisses...they WILL be my downfall. His lips are so soft as the float over mine...his tongue is so gentle as it invadess my mouth exploring unknown crevaces...his hands first going through my hair and then anchoring on my hips. I would kill for one more of his kisses.
Hell, I would kill for one more LOOK at him.
As the tears started flowing more freely, I mentally kicked myself Here I am, I have no clue where he is, and yet I'm still in love with him. I love his flaws. I love his features. I love Tom Quincy. And I dont even know what to do about it.
Since he left, life has come to kind of a pit stop.No good music has come to me. He took my inspiration with him when he left to go to where ever it was he was going.
And to top it all off, everyone's on their toes around me now. Its great knowing that I'm not all alone...it really is...but its like they think if they even say one little thing to me I'm going to break in half.
Yeah, I really dont want to hear anything else about Tom Quincy...but I'm fine to talk about anything else. I appreciate it but...its not really helping. I'm still the same Jude...and I'm still a really bad liar.
The sad part about all of it is that somehow and for some wierd reason, I blame myself that he's gone. I must have done something to wrong him. I dont know if I'm just an awful kisser or I'm to intimidating or something. All I know is that because of some reason, he left me. Just Left me there like a forgotten sailboat drifting through the sea on a rainy day. Once again, I put my heart in his hands and let him do as he liked. And this time instead of just giving my heart a hard thud he took my heart looked at it for a few seconds and without another though towards me he completely shredded it in that big machine thing in Darius's office. And it's all my fault. And I still love his bony ass! What kind of person am I...
"There's me, lookin down at my shoes.
The one smilin like the sun, thats you.
What were you thinking?
What was the song inside your head?"
...Could it really be?
I quickly reached over to my nightstand and picked up my cell phone. I slowly pressed the green flashing talk button.
"Hello?" I said in a whispering tone.
"Jude?"
"...Tommy?"
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