Tom's POV:
"I...you...didnt want to admit WHAT wasnt happening?" she said her voice
on the border line of hysterics. I could hear that I had thrown her off
balance when I told her. And the worst is yet to come.
"I couldn't bring myself to admit that," I paused, swallowed the huge
lump that had gotten stuck in my throat. Damn adam's apple. I continued,"I
couldnt find a way to tell you about Amber"
"Who the hell is Amber, Quincy?" she growled. How could I have left her?
I thought. Then an even more surprising thought came into my head. How could
I not?
"Whoa, Jude. Amber isnt like my girlfriend or wife or anything. Jude, I
would never do that to you. Amber is...my daughter." I told her, finally
blurting out the awful truth. I could just picture her there sitting on her
bed, jaw dropped, eyes wide, and tears falling down her beautiful cheeks.
"Your...daughter?" On the word daughter, Jude's angelic voice cracked
giving me all the signs that she was fighting tears with everything she had.
It killed me.
"Yeah Jude. My daughter." I told her. I wasnt about to bring up an more
answers unless she asked for them.
"Well, Tom. If you're the father, then...who's the mother?" she asked.
I knew Jude was didnt really want to know...but she had asked.
"Portia. Amber will turn 3 in december." I told her, hoping what I had just
said sunk into her. I said it softly though, knowing how bad it hurt her.
"So...right before I won Instant Star?" she asked in a whimpering tone.
"Right before you won Instant Star, girl." I replied, remembering the day
she won and the first time I ever let eyes on her. Oh how it hurt to remember.
"Oh my god Tom. A little girl. Well...why didnt you leave when you found out?
Why did you have to leave when I finally thought you loved me back?" she told
me bitingly. You could tell though by the way she blurted it out that the
last part wasnt supposed to be said.
"Jude, I-" I began, a huge smile spreading quickly over my face. I had been
waiting to tell her this for months...then she interrupted me.
"Ya know what Tommy? I've gotta go. Good luck with Amber. Bye." she said.
The next thing I heard was a dial tone.
I pulled the phone away from my ear and looked at the screen. " Call Ended"
" I love you too Jude. I always have." I said to a person who was already
gone.
Jude's POV:
I sat down in front of my bed with my acoustic guitar. I pulled my notebook out and grabbed a pen. I suddenly had the inspiration I needed...crazy what a phone call can do for inspiration. Tears were finally dripping onto the pages of my spiral notebook, as I began to write.
"Finally got over that song of ours Stopped chasing little blue sports cars, to check the license plates And I quit driving by your place Back making the rounds at all the hearts, concerts, restaurants, seeing some of our old friends feels good to dance again I can finally smell your cologne And I look around the room for you I could walk right by your picture in a frame and not feel a thing But when I hear your name
(Chorus) I feel rain fallin' right out of the blue sky And it's the fifth of May and I'm right there staring in your eyes And nothing's changed, we're still the same And I get lost in the innocence of a first kiss And I'm hanging on to every word rolling off of your lips And that's all it takes, and I'm in that place Everytime I hear your name
Got someone special in my life Everyone thinks he'd make a great husband Mom says she thinks he's the one, reminds her of dad when he was young But it's way too soon to be talking about rings Don't want to rush into anything He's gettin over someone too, kinda like me and you He talks about her every once in awhile And I just nod my head and smile, cuz I know exactly what she's going through Yeah, I've been there too, when the conversation turns to you
(Chorus): I get caught in the "you were the only one for me" Kinda thought, and your face is all that I see I Know I can't go back, but I still go back And there we are, parked down by the riverside And I'm in your arms, about to make love for the first time And that's all it takes, and I'm in that place Everytime I hear your name
Stop thinkin' about the words I left unsaid (Everytime I hear your name) Stop trying to change the things that I can't change (Everytime I hear your name)
In my heart I know you're gone, but in my head... I feel rain falling right out of the blue sky And it's the 5th of May, and I'm right there staring in your eyes. That's all it takes, and I'm in that place And there we are, parked down by the riverside And I'm in your arms, about to make love for the first time. And I can't explain, but I'm in that place Everytime I hear your name Everytime I hear your name (Everytime I hear your name) (Everytime I hear your name) Everytime I hear your name..."
The last tear fell down her cheek as she finished the song. She knew this would be
a hit and she knew that it was her first single. She knew it was about Tommy. Now though,
it was time to sleep. Tomorrow...tomorrow I'll deal with Tommy. But tonight...tonight
I will sleep.
Hey ya'll! Ok this is chapter 3 and I think its the longest...so leave me a review! Thanks to Tanya50801 and angel422 for everything! the encourgment and the ideas! And thank you to everyone who is reading my story! You're all great: ) LUV!