A/N: Sorry I haven't updated. I was at the homecoming game last night, and I took the SAT's this morning. I absolutely loved Thursday night's episode…I thought Meredith on morphine was hilarious and I was screaming at the TV when Derek said he was going to walk away and I was crying when Denny's voice-over was on.…Anyhow…on with the story…

Chapter 45: Boy Problems

Meredith took a shower and then left her house to go to the hospital. Her brother had said that he and Melissa would meet her at the hospital. They had finally been able to snag a dependable babysitter and it had come at just the right time. Meredith went into the room where Jason and Melissa were talking to Ellis and Thatcher.

"Hey Mer," Jason, said giving his sister a hug.

"Hi. Mom, you're awake. How are you feeling?"

"I'm tired. But I'm fine. Jason said that I gave you all quite a scare. Sorry."

"It's alright Mom. As long as you're okay, we're all okay."

"Meredith, are you okay? You seem kind of distracted," Melissa said.

"Yeah I'm okay. I'm just…can I talk to you Mel?"

"Of course. Want to go to the cafeteria and get some coffee?"

"Yeah. We'll be back in a little while mom."

Meredith gave her mom a hug and left the room with Melissa and headed down to the cafeteria. They had to have their conversation quickly because Finn was going to be there a while and Meredith was pretty sure that Derek was going to be at work soon too.

"So, what's going on?" Melissa asked.

"Boy problems."

Mel smiled "I figured. Spill…"

"Okay, well you remember Derek?"

"Of course I do. Tall, handsome, extremely charming."

Meredith laughed, "Yeah that's him. When we broke up, it was really hard on both of us. It took me a while to move on. I met Finn when I was on a ferryboat ride. Derek and I used to go on the ferryboats all the time. Anyways, I met Finn, and I liked Finn and we started dating. Then when Mom got sick, Derek saw me at the hospital and he comforted me and he let me sleep in his lap when I hadn't slept in a day. I went back to Finn's the next day and then I went home and called Derek. I wanted him to come over so I could say thank you and…we…slept together."

"Wow. That's a lot to take in at once. So, you and Derek slept together?"

"Yeah. I cheated on Finn and I'm a terrible person, but all the feelings that I had for Derek came back but I still like Finn…I just don't know what to do."

"Meredith I can't help you decide which one you want to be with, but I can give you some advice. Go with your heart. Which one do you think you are meant to be with and which one can you see yourself sending the rest of your life with?"

"Derek," Meredith said quietly.

Mel smiled, "That's what I thought. Mer, when you talk about him or when he walks into a room, your face lights up. And the same is true for him. The way he looks at you, you can see that he cares about you."

"I know. It's just, he hurt me ya know? It was like, things were great for a while and then once we got more serious he started spending more time at the hospital and less time with me. When we were together, I really thought that we were going to get married, but it made me wonder if the same thing would happen if we got married."

"But you'll never know."

Meredith was silent and just sat there looking down, with her hands wrapped around her coffee cup.

"Do you still love Derek?"

Meredith looked up at Melissa.

"Yeah I do. I'll always love him. He's…the one."

Melissa smiled, "Then tell him."

"But what about Finn?"

"What about Finn? It sounds to me that you've already made your decision."

"I guess I have."

Melissa and Meredith finished their conversation and then went back upstairs to the waiting room to meet up with Finn. She was already a little late and considering the news that she was about to give him, she should probably be at least a little bit punctual. Melissa whispered good luck to Meredith and then headed back into Ellis's room with Jason.

"Meredith, there you are. I've been calling your cell phone."

"Sorry about that. I was with my sister-in-law. And I'm also sorry I'm late."

"Don't give it a second thought. How's your mom?"

"She's doing great and she'll be released tomorrow."

"That's great Mer. And what about you? How are you holding up?"

"I'm doing pretty well. I just…we need to talk Finn."

"Uh oh, that's not good. Those are the 4 worst words to hear when you're in a relationship."

"I'm serious Finn."

"Okay. I'm listening."

"You're too good for me. I don't deserve you Finn. You should be with someone who appreciates you"

"This has something to do with Derek doesn't it?"

"I wish it didn't. But yeah."

"What's going on?"

"Derek and I were together for 6 months. I thought I was over him, but I'm not. I still love him Finn."

"I thought so. Whenever he was around, you always seemed distracted. I understand though."

"You do?"

"You can't help who you fall in love with."

"No, you can't."

"Take care Meredith," Finn said giving Meredith a kiss on the cheek and then leaving the hospital.

Meredith sat down on one of the chairs in the lobby and put her head in her hands. She felt really bad about hurting Finn. He was such a sweet guy and he definitely deserved better. He deserved to be with someone who cared about him as much as he cared about them and that wasn't the case with her. No matter what, she couldn't get Derek out of her mind.

"You okay?"

Meredith looked over to see Derek sitting in the chair next to her, with that same McDreamy smile on his face.

"Hi Derek" Meredith said, looking back down at the ground.

"Are you okay Mer? Your mom's going to be fine."

"It's not my mom. I just broke up with Finn."

"You broke up with Finn…does that mean…?"

"I don't what it means Derek. I need time. I just need some time."

"Take all the time you need. I'll be here when you decide."

Meredith just nodded at Derek and then got up and went back into her mom's room.

A/N: Maybe more tonight I don't know. Depends on reviews so REVIEW!