A/N: I won't be able to update tomorrow because I have to work so, I'll try to make this good. My updates might be farther apart in the next few weeks because of school work and college stuff. Sorry! Oh, by the way, I love including songs into the chapters because it's fun finding a song that fits what's going on. So, this is going to be another song chapter. If you all don't like that, let me know.

Chapter 48: Is Derek Okay?

The next morning, Meredith got up and got dressed for work. She started her day off as usual by stopping at Starbuck's for some coffee and a muffin and then went to school. It seemed like a completely normal day but Meredith had no idea what was to come. Derek had to work for the entire day and she wouldn't be able to see him until tomorrow.

Meredith began class and handed out a test to her students. She was sitting at her desk, grading some other papers when Leah, another one of the teachers came into her classroom.

"Meredith, can I talk to you outside?"

"Yeah. Everyone just continue your test, no talking and I'll be back in a few minutes."

Meredith went out into the hall with Leah. Leah was usually very relaxed and upbeat but she seemed very worried and tense right then.

"Is Derek okay?" Leah asked.

"As far as I know. Why?"

"You haven't talked to him this morning?"

"No I haven't. What's going on Leah? You're scaring me."

"Okay. Don't freak out Meredith. There was a shooter at Seattle Grace this morning. The hospital is in lockdown right now and the news said that only a few people got shot and they aren't injured that badly. They didn't say whether they were doctors or patients or what. I'm sure he's fine."

""Yeah…you're probably…I have to call him. Will you cover my class?"

"Of course."

Meredith went back into the classroom, grabbed her cell phone and then went to the teacher's lounge. She dialed Derek's number and it went straight to his voicemail.

"Damnit!" she said, banging her first onto the table

He usually kept his phone on all the time and it freaked Meredith out that it was off right now. She started to think the worst - he had gotten shot, and the doctors turned off his phone because he was seriously injured and they didn't want to tell anyone who called him what had happened.

Meredith went into the principal's office and told her what had happened and that she needed the rest of the day off. Even though she had taken the previous week off because of her mother, Ms. Abbott was extremely understanding about what was going on and told Meredith to go home and make sure that everything was alright.

When Meredith got home, George was sitting in the living room with the news on and the phone in his hands. He looked up to see Meredith standing in the doorway with a terrified look on her face.

"Meredith, you heard."

"Yeah. Is Izzie okay?"

"She's fine. She just called before you came in."

"What about Derek? Please tell me you've heard from Derek."

"Sorry Mer. I haven't."

"Oh gosh. George what am I going to do? I mean, what if he's shot. I broke up with him. If I hadn't we could have been together for 8 months. We could have been married by now. We could have had children. It's all my fault that we didn't have more time and now he could be dying…"

"Meredith. Slow down. I'm sure he's fine. They said that the shooter was in the ER and Derek is a surgeon so he's not in the ER most of the time."

"Yeah, but he has to go to the ER to check out trauma cases. George, I can't live without him."

"Why don't you go upstairs and try to go to sleep? I'll wake you up if I hear anything."

"I can try but I don't think I'll be able to sleep."

Meredith went upstairs to her room and changed into some sweatpants and a t-shirt and got into bed. Before long, she fell into an uneasy sleep.

"Derek, you can't do this to me. I need you," Meredith said, by Derek's hospital bedside.

He had been shot and was hooked up to all sorts of machines and had a very negative prognosis.

"Promise me you won't dwell on me? Find someone you can love and be happy with."

"I want to be happy with you Derek."

"I love you Meredith."

Derek closed his eyes and he flat lined.

"NO!" Meredith screamed, crying at the same time.

Meredith shot up in bed. George was sitting on the bed next to her, trying to calm her down. She was drenched in sweat; her face was covered with tears and out of breath.

"Derek's dead! He's gone."

"You were just dreaming Mer."

"No…he got shot…and he said I love you and then…"

"Meredith, you were dreaming."

Meredith finally realized that Derek dying had been a nightmare.

"So, he's okay? Did he call?"

"No…he hasn't called yet. I'm sure he's fine Mer. We just have to be patient."

"Be patient? You're telling me to be patient? The love of my life could be dead or dying and you're telling me to be patient? That's easy for you to say when you're girlfriend is fine."

George took a deep breath. He knew that Meredith didn't mean to be mean or hurtful to him. She was just upset right now because the man she loved could be in peril and she had no idea what was going on.

"Why don't you go take a shower and I'll make you some lunch."

"I'm not hungry," Meredith said, getting up out of bed.

"You have to eat Mer. At least a little bit. Take a shower and I'll make us some sandwiches."

Meredith didn't say anything. She just walked into the bathroom and got into the shower. She stood there, the hot water beating down on her, thinking of all the good times she had with Derek and what could have been had she not broken up with him in January. Meredith started to cry and slid down the shower wall. She finally got up when the water started to get cold.

She got out of the shower and put on a fresh pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt that Derek had left over at her house from when they were first dating. Meredith went downstairs where George had put out a sandwich and some chips for each of them. She sat down, not saying anything and started to eat slowly. She almost jumped out of her skin when her cell phone rang. She didn't even bother to say hello.

"Derek?"

"No, it's Mrs. Abbott. I just wanted to check on you. Have you heard anything?"

"No. I don't mean to rush you off the phone but I want to keep the line open in case Derek does call."

"I completely understand."

Meredith hung up, and then continued to eat her sandwich slowly. When she finished eating she just sat there staring into space. George had no idea what to say to her. He had no idea what she was going through.

"Why don't you go watch a movie or something? I'll clean up from lunch."

She took her cell phone, got up without saying and word and went into the living room. When she turned on the television, the news was still on and she immediately changed the channel. Meredith finally found a movie that she liked and laid down to watch it. Just as the movie was coming to an end, her phone rang again.

I still hear your voice,
When you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch,
in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness,
But I dont know why,
Without you it's hard to survive

"Derek?"

"Meredith. It's me."

"Derek! Are you okay? What's going on?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Don't worry okay? I'm leaving the hospital now and I'll be at your house in a little while."

"Okay," Meredith said, beginning to cry, "I love you Derek."

"I love you too."

Meredith hung up the phone and took a deep breath and then started to sob. George had heard her phone ring and came into the living room.

'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side

"Meredith? Was that Derek? Is he okay?"

"He's fine," she said, in tears.

"Then why are you crying? He's okay."

"Because I love him so much. And he's okay."

About 20 minutes later, the doorbell rang. Meredith jumped off the couch and ran the door. She had barely opened it before she was enveloped in Derek's arms.

"I love you Derek."

"I love you too Meredith," he said, and gave her a kiss on the forehead.

"Promise you'll never leave me?"

"I promise," he said and then kissed her on the lips.

'Cause every time we touch,
I feel estatic,
And every time we kiss,
I reach for the sky,
Can't you hear my heart beat slow
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.

After George had let Derek now how grateful he was that he was okay and how out of sorts Meredith was, not knowing what was going on, Meredith and Derek went up to Meredith's room. Derek sat down on the bed, and Meredith sat down on his lap and he wrapped his arms around her.

Your arms are my castle,
Your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry (I cry)
The good and the bad times,
We've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall…

"I was so scared. You have no idea how afraid I was that I was never going to see your face again," Meredith said, the tears still rolling down her face.

Derek wiped away her tears with his thumb.

"It's okay Meredith. I'm fine."

"No, it's not fine. It's all my fault."

"What do you mean?"

"If I hadn't broken up with you…we could have been together for so much longer. Who knows what would have happened. Today, I thought that I lost you and I hated myself so much for what I did to you."

"Don't hate yourself Meredith. Everyone makes mistakes. I'm not mad at you, so you shouldn't be mad at yourself."

"I love you so much Derek."

"I love you too."

Meredith wrapped her arms around Derek's neck and kissed him deeply. He put one arm around her waist and cupped her face with the other hand. Meredith moved her arms down Derek's chest and started to unbutton his shirt.

'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side

"Woah. What happened to the no sex thing?" Derek said, taking Meredith's hands in his.

"I realized today that it's stupid."

"And why is that?" he said, brushing her hair out of her face.

'Cause every time we touch,
I feel the static,
And every time we kiss,
I reach for the sky,
Can't you hear my heart beat slow
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.

"Because, today, I thought I was never going to get another chance to be with you. I don't want something to actually happen to you and not be able to ever be with you again."

Derek smiled, "You sure?"

"I've never been more sure about anything in my life."

'every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly,
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side

A/N: This is my longest chapter and it's great if I do say so myself. REVIEW! I need my reviews!