A/N: I started writhing this last night but I got so tired that I decided to finish it in the morning. My take on Thursday's episode – Derek is being McShithead. "I broke up with Finn" "Okay" What the hell is he thinking? I was screaming at the TV. I could go on for days, but I won't….

Chapter 50: Here For You

Meredith was trying to figure out to break the news of her possible pregnancy to Derek. She knew that he needed to tell him soon but was extremely worried about what his reaction would be. They had only been back together for 2 weeks and even when they had been in a relationship for more than 6 months.

She decided to talk to Cristina first. Meredith knew that Cristina would be sarcastic and tease her and not be much help at all, but just talking about somebody about what was going on would make her feel at least a little bit better. Derek was at the hospital and Meredith called Cristina to come over.

"So, what's up Mer?" Cristina asked, pouring herself a cup of coffee.

"Um…nothing"

"You are such a bad liar, so spill. What's going on in the life of Ms. Meredith Grey?"

"I might be pregnant."

Meredith decided that it would be easier to just say it flat-out then try to hide anything or to tell Cristina in a different way. She just wished that she could do the same thing with Derek. Cristina looked at Meredith with her eyebrows raised

"So, I guess the no-sex thing isn't working out to well for you, huh?"

Meredith laid her head down on the table. Apart from being worried about what Derek's reaction would be, she was feeling pretty queasy which didn't ease her worries about currently being pregnant.

"So, you might be having a McBaby?"

"That's what pregnant means, Cristina."

"Have you and Derek talked about having a baby?"

"No. And we've only been back together for two weeks…What the hell am I going to do?" Meredith asked, lightly banging her head on the table.

"Well, for starters, you're going to tell Derek."

"How am I going to do that? We haven't talked about it at all even when we were together for a while. What am I supposed to say? Hey Derek, remember the night I cheated on Finn, well we might have conceived a child."

"I wouldn't recommend doing it that way."

"Yeah, that's good advice Cristina."

About an hour later, Cristina left because Derek was coming over for dinner. Meredith had been nauseous all day and didn't feel like eating anything but didn't want to cancel her plans. Derek got there a little bit later and let himself into the house and Meredith was lying on the couch drinking a cup of tea.

"Hey Mer...Are you okay?" he said when he noticed her curled up on the couch.

"Yeah," she said taking a deep breath, "I'm just not feeling too well."

"What's wrong?" he asked, kneeling down next to the couch.

"My stomach's been upset all day."

"Have you eaten anything?"

"No. I can't even think about eating."

"How about trying to eat something? Just some crackers and maybe some soup maybe?"

"I guess."

"Okay, you just stay here and I'll go make it for you."

Derek gave her a kiss on the forehead and then went into the kitchen to make her some food. He hated seeing her so miserable. The thought of her being pregnant didn't even cross his mind. He heated up some soup, put in a bowl, and on a plate with some saltines. When he went back into the living room, Meredith had fallen asleep.

"Meredith?" he said, gently shaking her.

She slowly opened her eyes, and smiled a weak smile.

"I made you some soup."

"Thanks Derek," she said sitting up and started to slowly eat the soup.

She finished eating and Derek sat next to her on the couch just rubbing her back and stroking her head until she fell asleep. When Derek noticed that she had fallen asleep, he picked her up and carried her up to bed. He laid her down in her bed and covered her up, trying not to wake her up.

"Derek?"

"Shhh…Just go back to sleep." You'll feel better in the morning."

"Don't leave. Get in bed with me."

Derek just smiled at her offer. He took off his shirt and crawled into bed with Meredith, cradling her in his arms. She fell asleep almost immediately in the comfort of her arms, despite the fact that she felt like she was dying.

The next morning she woke up feeling even worse than the night before. She hadn't been awake for a minute before she had to run to the bathroom. When Derek woke up, he found her sitting on the bathroom floor, with her head leaning against the wall, her face extremely pale.

"Meredith…"

"I don't feel good Derek."

"I can tell. Let's get you back into bed."

"No. I have to go to work. I can't miss anymore days of work. I promised my boss I wouldn't miss any more days."

"You can't go to school like this Mer."

"I have to. I'll be fine," she said, getting up off the floor and regaining her balance.

"You can't go to work Meredith."

"Yes, I can. I'll be fine. I am fine."

"You don't look fine. You look gorgeous but, definitely not fine."

"Derek…"

"I'm not going to argue with you Meredith because I know how stubborn you can be, but promise me that if it gets worse, you'll come home?"

"I promise."

Meredith got dressed and headed off to work feeling absolutely awful. She had wanted so badly to listen to Derek and stay home but the day before she had promised Mrs. Abbott that she wouldn't miss anymore days. Plus, being pregnant isn't an excuse for missing school.

As the day went on, Meredith started to feel better physically, but her worries about being pregnant got more and more severe. If it had been stomach bug, she would have felt crappy all day, and not just in the morning. She decided that no matter what, she would tell Derek what was going on that night.

After school, she went home and called Derek to come over. It was now or never to tell him what was going on.

"Hello?"

"Hey Derek, It's me."

"Hey Mer. How are you feeling?"

"Much better. I think it was just a 24 hour bug or something. But, um, I really need to talk to you so, can you come over?"

"I have to be here until 6 but I'll come over right after."

"Okay. I'll see you then."

"I love you."

"Love you too."

Meredith decided that just like she had done with Cristina, she was going to tell him straight out, the possibility of her being pregnant. She made them some dinner, something bland because she wasn't feeling excellent and set the table, and just waited for Derek to come over.

Derek got there and let himself into the house. She was sitting on the kitchen counter reading a magazine.

"Hey Mer."

"Hi," she said jumping off the counter and walking over and giving Derek a hug.

"You're still looking a little pale. Are you sure you're feeling better? I'm a doctor remember."

"Of course I remember. You never let me forget. And yes, I'm sure I'm feeling better. I don't feel excellent but better."

They ate some plain pasta and bread, something that would help settle Meredith's stomach and then went into the living room.

"So, you said you wanted to talk to me about something?"

"Yeah. Um…promise me you won't freak out okay?"

"Mer…just tell me."

Meredith took a deep breath, "I might be pregnant."

"What?" Derek asked, with his eyebrows raised. "How? We always use condoms and…"

"Almost always Derek…"

"What are you talking about?"

"The night you came over here and I was still with Finn, we didn't use a condom."

"So…you might be pregnant?"

"Yeah"

"Is that why you were sick?"

"I don't know. And, I'm late."

"How late?"

"4 days."

"That's not that much."

"It is for me. I'm always on time."

"Okay, um, well, tomorrow when I get to work I'll make an appointment with you with the resident OB/GYN and we'll go find out."

"Derek, are you mad?"

"Of course I'm not mad Meredith. I know that we haven't talked about having a baby but whatever happens, I'll be here for you and the baby, if there is one."

Meredith sighed, "That's a relief."

"What do you mean?" Derek asked a little confused.

"I was pretty worried about how you would react, because we never talked about having a baby, even when we were together before. I'm not sure how I feel about his. I'm pretty scared."

"I am too. But I'm here for you, no matter what."

They talked a little bit more about what they would do if Meredith was pregnant and it eased Meredith's worries very much. They went to bed, both a bit nervous about what would happen when she went to the doctor and a little bit scared, but knowing they had each other, made it a little bit easier.

A/N: I don't like my writing in this chapter. I'm in a big big rut. But, you can boost me with reviews!!!